@JazzyS thank you. I can’t even express how much support means to me right now! This group has seen me through some dark days. I don’t like doing things slowly but that’s what I’m doing anyhow. It’s like I want to run through and open ALL the doors at once, and get everything sorted now. 
I have had so many people name check Grasshopper and talk that patience smack! Haha. I don’t wanna but I will. I will just do volunteer until I’m healthy enough. I don’t want to go into that punishing mode where I work a lot to compensate or run from stuff. I’m getting a new network started and all of these gigs count, paid or not. Thank you my friend, you’re very kind! I hope you’re feeling a bit better tonight 
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Checking in 1,921 days AF.
Checking in 99 days Soda/POP free.
Relieved to be sober, really makes life much more simple and calm.
Stay safe and sober peeps 
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I’m gonna stop at another store after I’m done with my shift, hopefully find the ice cream I love. As for drinks, I pretty much have drank nothing but beer and water for years. Once in a blue moon, milk or soda, but that’s a rarity. I’ll have to figure something out, kombucha kinda helps.
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Day 714.
Why am I still up at 2 am? Why did I spend my day watching Dexter instead of doing reading for uni?
I don’t actually have an answer. Something, something, ADHD. Something, something, mental health. Something, something, lazyness.
When I feel overwhelmed, I tend to just… stop. My brain acts like one of those old overheated PCs running on a bootleg Windows 95.
I’m also thinking about 2024 and the upcoming new year and it’s a lot. What I need is some order and discipline. Get back into a routine. Work, workout, study, eat less shit. Ya know… the good stuff. I gotta find my inner zen again. But first, sleep.
Apologies for the ramble.
Thank you for attending my Ted talk.
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@Minatasha I agree with what Jasmine said- please don’t be too hard on yourself now. Early on, not picking up is enough. If you check out with a game you’re so much better off than with a drink. You have an extremely difficult job. Please know it is an incredible accomplishment not to pick up under the circumstances, and you are doing so well. You may want to soak your feet- get some epsom salt for a bath and elevate when you’re done. I see you, I appreciate the effort you are putting in to care for others. We are here for you. Happy to be here with you.
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Ahhh, the amazing world of booze-free beverages opens! 
It will be fun to try many. Glad you’re here with us 
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Hope you’re able to get some rest. I feel that ADHD mental health lazy to my core…
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Awe thanks! I’m overweight so need to address that at some point so don’t want to turn to sodas, though ice cream and sweets are just as bad
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So proud of myself, the holidays have been extremely difficult bc of family time and also I went to my parents house for Christmas and it was tough. I wasn’t treated nicely all the time and kind of felt a little like an unwanted guest. Through all of the struggles of this time of year I have not only managed to stay self harm free but have helped friends stay safe as well. I used my sobriety from sh to encourage and inspire others who struggle similarly. In other news, I’m sad to have put away my Christmas tree and decorations and I’m back to my boring living room, although I still think it looks pretty! Missing the shiny lights and sparkly decorations. Hope everyone is feeling good!
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@Lighter that grasshopper comment always irked me. I used to get that comment too. I know slowing down isn’t easy. I do hope you can keep from going into the punishing mode. All your gigs do count and I’m sure they will be exciting adventures 
. I’m resting up today. Hoping to be back in motion tomorrow 
@StacyAnn yes!!! Ice cream was my go to. We need to substitute the sugar our bodies are used to in the alcohol. Kombucha is great, I also enjoy some water at home infused with orange, cucumber or lemon. Seltzer water is also a great alternative. Many amazing options available to enjoy… check out What are you sipping on today? Thread.
@Amy30 hope you get some sleep soon. I know how tough it is to try and function in little to no sleep. Dexter is a captivating show and keeps me hooked. I feel compelled to watch the full season once I start watching. I’m looking forward to seeing the new series.
This is impressive and huge news. Good for you for staying SH free and glad you were able to help others as well. The tree may be down but you can still add some lights and objects to brighten to the space - it’s your space and you should feel happy in it
@SadMemeQueen how are you doing Megan?
Checking in on Friday evening
737 free of alcohol and weed
1152 days free of cigarettes
I managed to try and look through many files and boxes for documents and did not find the necessary paperwork. Spent the rest of the day/ evening resting and still feeling exhausted. Hopefully will be able to get some sleep tonight.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day/ evening. Sending you all so much love 
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Yes, it’s a work in progress! I will make it me for sure!
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Quiet Friday night in, home alone with my daughter. Had a lovely dinner with the in-laws. Adding to my streak of sober parties and get togethers. Everyone in my life has either quit alcohol, or severely cut back, which I am grateful for. Times have changed for the better.
I have this coming week off work, and I’m going away. Nice to have a good long stretch without work for a big change! I won’t be on here til the second week of January. Also going to avoid unnecessary screen time; Instagram is the only social media I use, and I’m gonna give it a break too.
I hope you all have an outstanding end of 2024, and the best start to 2025.
Take care of yourself.
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I appreciate the TEDtalk.
I too am awake at 2am.
Watching MasterchefAU.
But at least we’re sober 
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Day 1048
Today was crazy busy. I had to return a heated jacket for my husband (that i bought him for christmas) for a smaller size, which they didnt have. So had to get a refund and then order it online. Then my husbands phone screen broke and since im the main person on the contract, i had to take care of it and set everything up for a phone tech to come to our home January 6th. I also found out ill be doing 2 overnight shifts in a row (tonight and tomorrow night) bcuz my sons nurse is sick. So i tried to get some rest during the day. I work this weekend and I CAN NOT miss work, so no matter how tired i am, I MUST go in. Januarys nursing schedule isnt much better honestly. Theres 6 days (3 days in a row x2) where we have no coverage. Its hard on me physically and mentally. But what can i do? Other than that, Im okay. Just taking things one day at a time in some senses. Hope everyone is managing alright and has a safe and addiction free weekend 
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Wish I could send you energy, Dana! Or a nurse!! You’re strong and sober and smart to come here to share.
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Big hugs my friend. I am so sorry for the day you’ve had…sounds frustrating and exhausting. Sending energy to you so you can get through the overnight shifts and your work schedule 
I’m sorry that they have not figured out a back up system to help you when a nurse gets sick or needs vacation. This is such an absurd system and care system they are providing. I’m sorry friend.
Much love to you
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Thank u so much my friend 🩷
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Thank u friend 
It is absurd. I was told alot of nurses have taken time off due to the holidays so thats why there wasnt coverage for these 2 nights. But ill manage thr best i can. Coffee will sure be my friend tmrw mrng 
lol
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@Mno You and your sweet girl are in my thoughts, friend 
@Mischa84 I just got my first pair of HOKAS for work and love them! Mine are for walking and I barely had to break them in! (Just getting my weird toes used to them 
) I’m sure you could send them back lightly used, especially for the price, but I doubt you’ll want to once you try them 
@Tragicfarinelli Huge Congrats on your year! 
You’re doing amazing things girl!
@GOKU2019 Awesome that you got to your first meeting! I know you’ve been sober for a while, but there are priceless things to learn in those rooms. This place is the reason I went to my first, back when I was feeling lost. It helped me then and still does to this day. Keep coming back
@Amy30 I completely relate. I don’t think it’s laziness, even tho it feels/looks like it. Thinking about everything that needs to get done, paralyzes me from getting anything done 
It’s funny tho, I often refer to my brain as a computer where I ‘rifle thru files’ to find information I know is in there
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Dang, over 100 posts in the last 24! Today was a great day! Made some bracelets with my girl. Went to the bank and was refunded for that mystery fee. Nice 
I also didn’t realize how much I made last week bc my paycheck was waaayyy more than expected. However, the more you make, the more they take. $250 gone, that I worked for! That’s more than I used to make in a week! Weren’t taxes the reason we left England?! “Land of the free” my ass 
I was still able to go shopping and take care of what was needed, so…SUCK IT IRS! Work was great too. Busier than last week, but easier. I wonder if it had anything to do with the proper people being scheduled for once 
Anyway. It’s late and I’m hungry. Gotta get to bed soon. Glad you’re all here with me
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2030
Luna got better during the day, ate lots, got stronger on her feet, and now looks like her old, adorable, rickety self again. Happy with that, thanks for all the concern fiends. Myself I had a full and fulfilling Friday, doing therapy where we’re diving ever deeper into my youth, unsafe attachment, the abuse I endured by my teacher, and what both together have meant for my emotional development.
After that I did a bike fitting session to have the (near) perfect measurements for the bike I’m going to build in the new year. Which was great fun. Rounded it off with a visit to the biggest street market in town where I didn’t buy much but which is always nice to visit. And cuddled with Luna back home.
Today I’ll take it easy. Had some strange dreams but all in all I slept OK. Let’s make today as good a day as we all can friends. Sober and clean or nothing will come from it. Love from Albert Cuypmarkt.
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