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Geocaching was a hit @Just_Laura @acromouse we jumped on the bikes and was joined by one of the kids friends and their dad and managed to do a loop that encompassed 5 hidden caches. Was a great way to get out and about. We even then jumped in the car and went and got an ice cream from a local shop that had a cache in the carpark haha
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Day 1083
Busy day for me and my son. He had the day off of school so we went and picked out new glasses for him. Then home to bake peanut butter chocolate chip cookies from scratch 
They turned out real nice!!! Hubby came home with 2 new fish for our tank and then fixed my sons ps4 cuz it wasnt reading discs at all. That all went well. But my hubby and I havent even eaten supper yet and its 830pm. Still have a few things to do yet before the night is over. I get to stay home from work tomorrow as he is tattooing someone, so thats a nice break for me. Then work on Sunday. Super simple weekend. Feeling okayish today
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Day 30. Will be day 31 when I wake up.
It was a long day today. Going to bed now sober. Have a good night everyone.
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Youāre absolutely right! Staying positive can make all the difference 
Things could always be worse. Youāll get thru this 
@Hotic Sweet 2s 
Nice to see you stopping in 
@Pamela I get the way youāre feeling. I used to feel like I had to leave my house and do something every single day (as long as the first stop was the liquor store), but now feel more content staying home. Boredom was a major trigger for me, but now Iām just used to it 
@MrFantastik Sounds like a fun time! Iām definitely going to look into it and see whatās nearby (and hopefully remember 2 months from now when the snowās gone 
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Heh, I live in the 716 
Today was surprisingly nice. I felt great when I woke up and had energy. I got all my end of month bills payed and had enough to unpause my Prime subscription. Iām glad I discovered thatās an option 
Itās always renewed on Jan 6th and always stressed me out bc Iām already hurting from being laid off. This way made sure I could pay for necessities before entertainment.
The ex came over after school and I finished prepping things for work tomorrow, which Iām 50/50 about. Iāve been really enjoying this relaxing time at home, but I also feel like I need some routine back. Hoping for an easy first shift, but I already know it will be. Saturday lunches are dead in the summer, so Iām not expecting anyone to show up on a 17Ā° day in February. Hope you all have a wonderful 24 hours ahead 
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Day 7 AF & TF
Today, I woke up at 6:30 AM and attended an early morning online AA meeting. After that, I went back to sleep for another two hours.
Now, after completing my daily morning routine, Iāve had my breakfast and am about to start work.
Hope youāre all doing well! 
@Joyce19 Congrats on your Day 33! Cravings are quite common and temporaryādistraction is the key. Remember, itās our mind and thoughts that create the cravings. Take it one day at a timeāyouāve got this! 
@Hotic True to your name, those digits are hot! 2222
@zzz Congrats on your Day 43! 
@CanadianGirl Tisha, Iām so happy to see you stacking up the days. 36 days is a huge achievement!
@Catmama23 Lauren, 27 days is amazing! Just 3 more days and youāll hit one month of sobriety! 
@Butterflymoonwoman Congrats on your Day 1083!
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Glad I got out yesterday, did a good walk, and caught a good deal of sunshine. Walked to Ruigoord, a squatted little village in the middle of the industrial port of Amsterdam. About as middle of nowhere as it gets here. Didnāt make it quite home on foot, happy thereās trains and subways and trams.
Had an excellent night -physical tiredness always does that for me, less dreams and good deep sleep- and now Iām ready for my last weekend working in Utrecht. Letās make today as good a day as we can friends. Sober and clean to begin with or nothing will come of it. Pic is for @acromouse as she loves ships and scrap (schepen en schroot), and for you all of course. Love from the port.
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They said i cant have a separate case open and my little ones dads account will be the primaryā¦
And that they will send a letter with a final determinationā¦
Soā¦i hope it goes ok.
End of day 844
Money stress and depression but im sober
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844 Days! Thatās amazing and so are you! Hoping things will get better/ ease up soon!
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Sending good luck vibes. Hope you hear good news soon 
Sorry friend. You are staying sober through it all and I know hats times donāt make that easy so be proud of yourself and your strength. 
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Thanks ladies!
Im just worried about the food assistance case being combined. If its on the card with his name, he wants to use/sell (
) the money on it āas he sees fitā
And I think any and all food purchases should be for the household necessities.
For instance last month he got $290 and spent over $100 at the corner store for candy, chips, and individual drinksā¦
When a couple of big bags of chips and one or two candies, and even a splurge gallon of koolaid/tea/juice could have been bought at the grocery store for less than half that. 
I dont want my kids to not have enough nutritious meals because he wanted to go to the corner store 3,4,5 times a dayā¦
And yes i feel like i sound controlling. But it is the way i feel. Ive always been the one who had to keep things going. I dont think he ever really grew up in that sense
And then what about when we cant see eye to eye?
Gah
ā¦ ramblimg overthinking me
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Snow would definitely add a level of difficulty
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These are very valid concerns and you donāt seem controlling to me.
I too would be just as worried. Really hope that they donāt bundle the two of you together. I really hope they heard your case and will make a ruling accordingly.
Big hugs to you. Hope you can shut off those thoughts and get some sleep 
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Day 132
Wonderful sober weekend everyone. 
Itās saturday morning here and Iām waking up with second cup of tea and a cat in my lap. Donāt know if itās anti depressants finally kicking, sobriety or other changes in my life but I feel the darkest cloud is gone. I am filled with new kind of energy, I want to do things even after work days. Before I tried to just survive and do the bare minimum that had to be done.
Last year was awful, I went through burn out and Iām still trying to recover from that. āThanksā to burn out I notice I get tired more easily, like returning to work after couple weeks of vacation sucked my energy for week and a half. But I do bounce back eventually, I just need to be patient.
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Itās not controlling at all. Valid concerns and fears. Keep pleading your case as much as possible. What heās doing is irresponsible and negligent. But it may be the way it is, and it will be him that you have to deal with and not the āsystemā
Iām sorry 
. I donāt know why he wonāt just give it all to you. You take care of everything else. I will keep my fingers crossed for the best.
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Good morning all 
@Raspberry must be great to experience this new kind of energy and productivity! I know burnout is very hard (my burnout was a couple of yrs ago and still affects me), but it can also teach you the real values of where to put your energy.
@CR84 migraines are awful. I hope you feel much better now! 
@Pamela I often feel the same! No motivation to do anything social or other stuff. Weird huh? Maybe its because weāre not that far along yet, and we are not completely used to living sober and changing our way of life? Itās interesting to think about and I am wondering if I can change that mindset or if it will happen āalong the wayā.
Checking in today feeling hungover without any drinking. Have a headache and feel tired even though I slept well. Probably because my week was way too busyā¦ Going to get myself out of bed now and get a coffee. After that need to take care of the horses as I have another appointment in the afternoon. I just want to do nothing todayā¦ And I also have a weekend shift, so tomorrow I need to work. Going to try to balance it out by keeping the evenings to myself and chilling. I canāt wait for a time where I feel I have the energy again to plan stuff without it draining me.
Have a great day/evening/night everyone!
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Day #5:
Good morning everyone. Day #5 for me today, and almost approaching that one week milestone. Iām feeling fairly refreshed this morning; my sleeping pattern is improving as my body gradually begins to heal. However, some say that it can take a while to fully feel the benefits of no alcohol when it comes to your sleeping pattern - i.e. Not waking up in the middle of the night or it taking a while to shut off; Iām the total oppositeā¦ As soon as my head hits the pillow, Iām out like a light & could virtually sleep through an impending war 
I had my last drink on Monday, so this is the first full weekend Iām experiencing again without alcohol. I wonāt lie, a good friend of mine owns a pub/bar and Iād often go for the karaoke on a Friday/Saturday night. It was always an inclusive atmosphere (with or without alcohol), and I have made some good friends from those evenings out. My partner is working nightshift for the next 4 evenings, so I was planning on going along and maybe just having a Coke or a non-alcoholic drink. However, Iām reconsidering my choices. Iām not entirely sure how Iād feel or if it would act as a trigger this early into the process, and spending loads of money at this moment in time isnāt something I should be doing too much of as Iām still in the process of finding a new job after being let go from my last post.
Nevertheless, I went for a nice 3 mile walk yesterday afternoon and then settled down in front of the TV with a pizza. This morning, Iām intending on going to the local Parkrun as Iām only 5-6 runs away from reaching the milestone of 50 Parkruns. Got a bit of grocery shopping to do, a sh*t-ton of ironing (call me crazy, but itās always been a chore that I find rather therapeuticā¦) & then instead of going out, spending money & putting myself into a potentially vulnerable situation, I might just have a quiet evening in front of the TV. Nevertheless, whatever I decide to do, one thing remains constant - ODAAT. Have a great day everyone!
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It has been uncomfortable but valuable lesson. I know it will take time to heal and this year Iām working on finding balance between work and personal life.
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Please share your medals as well. I am not an outdoor runner/biker, so doing virtual challenges is great. I can log the distance from spin classesā¦ and hell a good spin class gives you some miles.
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Day 36 check-in
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