Checking in 1,930 days alcohol free.
Checking in 110 days SODA free.
Todays been very wintry, managed to get my groceries delivered still which is a big help.
Looking forward to going out for lunch tomorrow with my 19 yo Daughter and then having our nails done
Going to have a yummy dinner, Fajitas
Think I may get cosy and attempt to watch Wicked again later tonight and I hope i don’t fall asleep again. (Downside of being old)
Had a good day. Still no cravings. Made two short walks with my dog. Still -20 C here (-4 F). Watched youtube videos. Visited my friend and his family. My sister is coming over today to stay for a while for her studies. After a week her kids are also coming. It’s nice to have some more life to this house. Turning my mindset into not even try dating this year and to focus on my sobriety. This mindset seems to calm me down.
Im doing a hot water load of laundry now. I dont work again until friday but i might pick up because honestly i need the money.
Yesterday was fine. On my way out, a nurse loudly asked if i had gotten the applesauce she had asked for while the big stack of applesauces was in her direct line of sight on her cart. We had a nice laugh and a nice note to end on.
Now im having coffee and got a little vacuuming done. I did pick up work tomorrow to hopefully trick myself into getting more done today.
Well I’ve made it a week. I’m so exhausted right now, barely slept last night, broken sleep over like 3 hours. Trying to nap, it’s not working. Overwhelmed with work, kids: older two are failing classes, and I absolutely hate public school and wish I could homeschool again cuz they are so brilliant!! Just ya know, goldfish aren’t meant to climb trees (iykyk) Also working through their own emotional/mental illness is not easy as a parent… I have no urge to drink, I just want to be able to sleep, my body and brain need rest so badly right now. I’ve pretty much been up since 9am yesterday. Send sleeping vibes!
Day 2 AF. Hi friends, I’m back again after a very difficult year of heavy and heavier drinking. It’s great to see both new and familiar faces here! This is my… fourth time trying to get sober. Honestly, I never thought I’d be able or willing to try it again but based on some recent events and seeing my physical and mental health decline, and knowing there is only one way this goes, I know I need a different path and I want something different for my life and family. I feel very sluggish, confused, and unmotivated today but I know it’s just the very beginning of healing. I need to be committed, humble, and patient. But I’m also terrified because I don’t want to fail.
Welcome back and congrats for committing again to sobriety! You’re alive and that’s what matters, nothing is lost. Try not to dwell too much in the past. I know it’s hard, especially in the early sobriety. Do you have a active plan? Maybe try meetings online or face-to-face? Trying to get sober by yourself ain’t usually enough for us addicts. I wish you all the best, you got this!
Day 1058
Happy Monday everyone! Its my fav day of the week!! My son got off to school today after Christmas break and im back to my routine! Got my workout in which is good. And now im just tidying things up before i make a smoothie for lunch. All n all today has been decent so far. Have a fab day everyone!!
As a fellow multiple time relapser I can identify with how you feel right now… but you’re back, and that’s what matters.
One thing I have learned is that coming here every day keeps me on my sober track. I don’t focus on a day count any more as for me that didn’t work, but I do focus on checking in here every day. Yes, I know what my count says and when I hit a new milestone I will celebrate it, but for now it’s ODAAT and being part of this wonderful community of people helps with that.
I’m slowly getting better, fighting off this annoying cold. The Christmas tree got its chop yesterday and is now awaiting collection in the green garden bin. I sorted through the decorations today and found a few that didn’t deserve to go back into storage:
Needless to say, any booze memorabilia - no matter how cute or previously handmade - has no place on my future Christmas trees. They weren’t on 23/24 anyway… so to avoid landfill, they go in the charity box.