Been a while! I missed the big 300!
Checking in day 301 
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@MrMoustache how are you doing? Hope the thoughts and anxiety have subsided. Big hugs friendā¦ hope you are doing well ā¦saw update about meeting with the nurse. Hope it went well. Iām sorry about your night and that your thought is are still haunting you.
Oh good. This was my first thought when I read this. Then little rascals can leave some toxic shit behind. Making some great progress 
@Mischa84 age is just a number. You look fantastic. Hope you find some time in your day for self care
@Juli1 sending loads of love, positive thoughts and hugs your way. I do hope your mind stops beating you up and you are able to see the wonderful woman that you are (inside and out).
@seb good luck Sebastian. So happy that the day is finally here. Hopefully you will get some good feedback and a plan on how to move forward . Sending good vibes your way
@Sabrina80 itās good that you are listening to your body. Sometimes we need longer to regulate and wean off if something. 
. You stay warm and safe!
@Marit great to see you checking in. Well done on 5 days! This thread really is a wonderful way to stay connected and accountable ā¦ I tend to check in twice a day just to feel grounded
@mizztt excellent work on 5 days!!! Good luck with your interviews. Hope they go smoothly for you 
@handoferis welcome to the check in thread. Sorry yesterday was so off. Hopefully you are starting this week off on a positive note. Good luck with your college courses. What are you studying?
@Pamela yippee on your 2 weeks 
great way to start the day! Keep stacking up the days 
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@AlexMit great to see you posting and wow- 2 weeks is awesome work 
ā¦ keep it going strong
@SAMCHAW welcome to the community 
@Whereswaldo oooh the 300 milestone 
ā¦ great work my friend. Congratulations on your sobriety journey. Hope you are well and settling into your new home.
Checking in on Monday morning
Enjoying a nice cup of coffee and checking in here before I start the day. I managed to rearrange my bed in my room last night which has made for more space and I can easily keep my walking pad in the room (was a pain having to move it around all the time).
Have an idea of things I want to get done today so hopefully I will be able to accomplish them. Ome moment at a time. First 
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day. Sending you all so much love 
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5 weeks
Whatever. Put laundry in and havent done much else. Might make a pasta bake later with this sauce of assorted vegetables i made. Im picking up hours because i hate myself. Yesterday was staffed so short it was unbelievable. I picked up tomorrow bc its staffed ok. I am stuck in career and life and wish i chose anything else. My skin is just crawling.
Some good things: i drank coffee. My cat is on my lap. I drank a pitcher of water and once my cat leaves ill get up and do some errands.
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Day 17
Was awake in bed for few hours without getting sleep last night. Slept a bit longer than i supposed and felt depressed for some reason. Drank my morning coffee and after an hour in bed went to feed the reindeers and took 6 km walk with my dog in the blizzard. Crappy weather feels crappy but for some reason i enjoy it. It feels like empowering to take steady steps forward against the bad weather, like we should do in life in general no matter of bad circumstances. Went to buy some reindeer food from the market with my fathers cousin because his car is on fix. Went to buy some snacks and lemonade for my niece and nephew, who are staying with us for this week. Went for a coffee to my friends. Mornings depression has went away and i feel steady now. Not feeling especially joyful but i guess feeling steady and calm is enough for me. When i was younger i felt some sort of euphoria quite often even when sober. I read somewhere that euphoria isnāt happiness. I guess itās better to feel steady and calm through the day evenly comparred to spikes of euphoria. I feel good to begin to have my moods more steadier as my sobriety goes forward even at these early days so i feel optimistic about the future. Itās also nice to head towards the spring while the days are getting lighter and warmer at the same time as my sobriety goes forward. Keeping up routines and socializing and eating healthy and exercize. And hope to working in March would be nice. Now going for a 4 km walk so my 10 km a day is filled.
Have a great 24
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Off to my first spin class of the year later. My very persistent cough has finally subsided and Iām so excited to go back to the gym and some routine.
This little guy keeps visiting my neighbours garden.
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Day 113
Felt super tired in the afternoon. Still a bit tired but walking outside in cold fresh air and visit to a library helped. I was going to pick something light and cheerful but ended picking books from horror section.
Next Iāll help cook some dinner and then have a chill evening. 
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284 days sober
Iām feeling satisfied after a very productive work day! Meant with some of the social workers who are helping me with the project and had a good discussion about how to proceed. It was a good meeting and Iām feeling well organizedā¦well about as well organized as I can be here. 
And had a video call with the volunteers that will come in the spring about how preparations are going and talked about what expectations we all have. Iām so glad we had this conversation as I found it so helpful and Iām hoping the volunteers also did.
Its been exciting working on these projects and seeing how much its needed here. And I love seeing the locals here getting involved and passionate. And for me it has been a healing work project so Iām grateful.
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Day 1065
Morning has been productive. Got my son on the bus to school ans then had a nice shower to start my day. Then began my cleaning. I am waiting around until my sons formula gets delivered and then Ill head to the gym. Today is back and biceps with some cardio. One of my fav exercise days! Not much else happening i guess. A pretty laid back Monday anyway. Enjoy your day everyone 
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Day 318
Sunny chilly morning; just beautiful. Iām sleeping very well which is making me so happy. It goes in cycles. But I think that moving into a new job is calming me inside. Iām wired to work. Been working since I was 9! Iām ready.
Tomorrow morning Iām running away from home! Who likes doing that? I love it 
. The car is washed inside and out, full tank, tires aired, bills paid, cash and Iām already checked into my hotel for tomorrow.
I love the road so much I considered being a trucker. Come on along! When we drive away, it looks like home for about 30 minutes, then you come up over a hill and the sky opens up a hundred miles into hills. And it goes on a couple hours, lowering your blood pressure. There is very little between here and there, people -wise but cows, goats, Allsupās and Dairy Queen. 
Then you climb an uplift, and itās flat. Youāre on the cold high plains. The wind is intense. The door wants to close on your arm every time we stop. Takes some 
They have these weird fried burritos inside every gas station . My stomach is howling too but donāt do it! The bathroom is clean and weāll grab some chips and Dr Pepper. My hair is wild like a high plains driftress. It stands out lol
We sing. Hours pass. We drop crumbs. Then we cross a magical line. All the Texas drawls instantly disappear and there are green chiles on everything, even the license plates! Iām hungry already. Itās desolate and beautiful. Itās another world. I will make a couple dozen more of these trips. Until the time I move and Iām racing the moving truck. I sure love it. Come on along!
Off to do laundry and pack for my last spontaneous road trip. Soon Iāll have to ask nicely.
Love yāall
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Still 5 weeks.
Guess what. I deleted the game i was addicted to for no reason. I unceremonially uninstalled the app on my phone. So what if i had 400 gems and was close to a new level. It was a major time suck and i am finally free.
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Day 569. Taking it slowly this week. Last week was rubbish at work. Got me thinking of i need to retire in 6 years. So Starting to plan for that
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Day 12 Sobriety
Yooo what a dayā¦ everyone was back at work today!!! Greatings all round, and made me super anxiousā¦ over thinking on what my peeps will say to the new me 
well some just couldnt believe it, some were proud and some i could see placing bets in the back roomā¦ Lol. However, through it all I maintained my posture and positive smile, determined to show Im ready. Hiw was your day 
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@CATMANCAM Cam I just want you to know your presence on this thread is so very missed.
Even when I left the forum after my breakdown I still read daily and your posts and your level of care and consideration helped me from afar.
You were helping me without knowing.
If youāre struggling like I was then I want you to know this is a safe space, no judgment just love. We are keeping your seat warm for you till you get back 
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@Seb Im on the otherside of the planet hoping for the best news and the best medical care for you. Thinking of you.
@MrMoustache Im so glad to see your name, if youāve been readmitted to the ward remember weāre in your pocket still, youāre not alone friend.
@Minatasha sending you a hug 
my pets hold me hostage too sometimes, I love it 
my daughters in a similar situation career wise my advice to her is look for a way to make small daily changes, look in to what job she would love to do, enquire what qualifications she would need for it, then get a new qualification by studying at night so she can eventually apply for a new job,
Small steps lead to big journeys.
For today spend half an hour doing something nice for yourself you deserve it.
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Hi All. Just checking in! Very frustrating day at work with unexpected deadlines and unfriendly customers. This would ussually result in wine in the afternoon, but pushed through today with peppermint tea and jelly babies. Laptop shut and phone silenced, and now cooking roast chicken with sourdough stuffing and watching Columbo! Staying stong and grateful to be sober on day 17.
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There a few apps, I need to do the same too. However, I have not been reaching my daily time limit on them!
Getting sober improves some many areas in our lives.
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Good to hear from you, stay safe.
Weāre here if you need us 
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Nice to hear from you again!
It was very brave from you to speak out loud about how you were feeling and to share the burden. You inspire me to do it.
I have seen all the support responses and blows my mind to see all the love, care and support from here.
Breathing and more breathing and more breathing.
May the force be with you ma friend.
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Hello!
Cheking again! This is my 11th day.
Last night I had 11 hours of sleep, and I am feeling good and restore right now.
Normally in the past if I sleep too much from sunday to monday I would wake up with guilt and mixed feelings because usually I would be tired from the weekend and feeling anxious about work. Right now I am putting special attention to have a calm minset, I have discovered that it is a super power, so let myself to sleep like a baby for real and let my body and my mind rest.
Yesterday I went to a friends house to meet his new 3 nonths old baby girl with others couple of friends. As there were also family members at his house, the gathering turned into a barbecue party with drinks. I didnt get any. I spend the whole day and I stayed till the end because we were playing dominoes and I was the designated driver, so I had to wait for the last game to finish.
I didnt get the urge to have a drink or a beer at any moment and had a great time.
Today I am sober and crazy happy that I am not hangover.
Big hugs to everyone.
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