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Checking in on day 92. Soberwise Iām doing just fine but Iām unhappy with my life in general. Too many costs for living, a big house that I donāt want in a place that I donāt want to live in. I feel so damn lonely, but all these problems are no reason to drink, it would just make it worse. Instead I will call some AA friends, go for a run this morning and might go to a personal meeting tonight. Have a great Friday lovely people
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Day 29
Officially the longest Iāve ever gone without a single drink or any other substance at all. I once a handful of years ago did a dry February ( because itās the shortest month) but continued with daily weed smoking & coke on the weekends. I laugh at that me for feeling it was some kind of accomplishment.
Up an hour before my alarm but happy Iāve made it another day sober. A major plumbing issue came up last night here at my house. Sewage water started coming up through our downstairs bathroom . Like literally up through the floor drain in the shower and toilet. Once our landlord was contacted , things cleaned the best we could and everything was arranged to be handled first thing this morning. My husband stayed in one of his rage modes so I just hid in my room and read ( my kids did the same) because there is no way I could handle his nonsense . I just donāt see a point in staying angry. The situation sucks but weāve done all we can anger certainly isnāt going to help.
Will be heading into work again for the day soon . Looking forward to a busy Friday. Hoping our plumbing issues are fixed by the time I get home.
Have a great day everyone and like I tell my 14yr old every time she goes out - make smart choices
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@Sunshine-girl Glad to hear you are not letting lifeās challenges affect your sobriety
I hope you get a way to tackle your problems one step at a time.@onthewagon31 Hey Nate, good to see you back here with us. Keep coming back, keep sharing.
@MrFantastik Hey man, sorry to hear mood has not improved. Anything to take your mind off? Find a different outlet for your emotions? I know when I cannot work out, it will mess with my mental health. In these times I turn to stuff like chair yoga or just a few minutes on the rower. Itās not the real thing, but better than nothing. Sending you some positive energy to your island
@Mno My daughter said just yesterday to me that she thinks all the difficult experiences in her life are good in sofar as they make her better in being understanding for others and their life circumstanes. I think you are prime example for her theory
You are turning your shit into gold for others. And thanks for the gorgeous sky.@zzz Glad to see the champ finishing the 30 day streak and on a stealth mission to even more.
@Just_Laura It really is nice to hear how your daughterās dad is really a help.
@handoferis Wow, what a crappy situation for your wife and yourself. Glad to hear pizza and DnD was there to help
I love these kinds of games. They always help me to get my mind off stuff. Hoping your dentistās appointment wonāt be too painful.@GVLNative Welcome back on the sober wagon and great to hear you know how the relapse came to pass. Looking forward to your shares.
@Catmama23 Sorry to hear your brain is in a funk. But it took me at least three months of abstinence for my brain to settle in a more stable mood. I guess it neede its time to rebalance. Hope yours gets an even keel soon.
429 sugar
293 UPF
167 gluten/dairy
Day started well with my usual morning meeting. A friend picked up my daughter for school. She is going to spend some time after at her grandparents.
I got an interim keyboard and can work on my desktop computer again. My new keyboard is on the way and I hope it arrives soon. My hands do not like working on that cramped keyboard.
I am going to work some more on my Breakout clone.
The home help is doing the groceries right now and will be helping with the laundry later. I want to do some todos in the afternoon and my rowing workout.
I miss socializing. Tonight would usually be a good opportunity to join a game night. But I hope my health keeps improving like it does and I will be able to join others in a few weeks.
Todayās picture is a nice late summer picture from one of the city squares we like to hang out at.
Peace and love always 
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Day 600 AFAF. We have a red alert storm here today which means that schools are closed, supermarkets and businesses are closed and public transport has been cancelled. Thereās nothing for it but to stay cosy inside and wait for it to pass. One of my window frames has sprung a leak so Iām taking care of that. And coffee, lots of coffee 
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@Just_Laura we have the same thinking around soggy rice! Great minds think alike etc.
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@Deelzebub Same here with the storm. Itās really picking up here with bottle bins blowing over scattering over the street. Hope you stay safe and that window stops leaking!
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@CanadianGirl Congratulations on 29 days, thatās amazing!! 
Assuming itāll be a less busy time for you than today, whatās your plan to help you stay sober over the weekend?
Best of luck with your plumbing problem, that sounds awful!
@Deelzebub Woo, 600 days!!! 
Thatās a wonderful big round number 
Stay safe in the storm today! Hopefully you donāt run out of coffee!
My check in for today: 1 day off social media and 5 days away from computer games (I got my little ā5 daysā medal from the sober time app, very chuffed! 
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Iām a little confused how to phrase the day counts, because the last lost time on social media was on wednesday so today is day 2, but reading off the actual time elapsed itās been 1 day + some hours. A very small problem, all things considered, but itās been nagging at me 
These check ins keep taking more time to write than I think theyāre going to, so Iām not sure if I have time to go to an ITAA meeting today (I have a lot of work to catch up on) but I will be going for a (very windy) walk with my little sibling, making sure to do my morning routine, listening to a lot of music, leaving my phone upstairs, and keeping shabbat this evening.
No check in tomorrow (Iām not super shomer shabbat but it would feel weird to use a laptop) so just to prepare, the tools Iāll be using to stay āsoberā then will be reading my book, going for a jog, taking the time for some self-care and meditation.
Have great days, everyone! Take care of yourselves!
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Day 28
Was awake about 6 hours after going to bed. Slept at least 7 hours. At least i donāt wake up in the middle of the sleep. Feeling rested. Iām home alone this weekend with my dog. Itās -25 C (-13 F) outside so no long walks today.
Have a good 24
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Checking in during the early morning of day
625 no alcohol
133 no form of marijuana
265 nic free
Woke up tired
Thereās another chance Iām on karts for another 4 days till my co worker gets back from his vacation
If I get through this week Iāll feel pretty proud of myself
Had a user dream last night about weed and nic vapes at work
In my dream I knew I was relapsing in the beginning but it was quickly dismissed. I woke up greatful it was just a bad dream
Coffee coffee coffee
Have a good day
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Pain management is a joke in my opinion. I actually stopped going after a similar experience. I have SI joint dysfunction and was regularly getting cortisone and nerve blocks (helped enough for me to get moving) Iām sorry your wife and yourself are dealing with all the extra stress. Congratulations on 448 days of freedom š©·šš©·
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You will definitely find someone whoās crazy matches your crazy. Proud of you for doing whatās best for yourself (physically and mentally) Thank you for being an inspiration š©·šš©·
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Checking in Sober on day 51! Hope everyone has a good day!
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Spent a few days offline to recalibrate my SM usage and try to be mindful and productive IRL. It was pretty blissful. I donāt actually use any SM at all apart from this and the 'Gram, but even IG is just me catching up with otherās lives and not posting myself.
ANOTHER job I didnāt get thru sift for. My scores are high, so the bar must be extra elevated these lean days of economic depression. Did my best to not fall into my own depression.
Iāve got a friend here tomorrow so that will be nice. Might have to do some meditation before she arrives as she talks constantly and very fast. 
It makes me dizzy sometimes how overwhelming her energy is, but Iām super glad to get to see her and have a big hug. Also kinda glad her husband isnāt joining as often that feels like that negates free speech and we pussy foot around topics being mild mannered and nice.
Stay safe in the storm northerners.
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Day 385,
Took today off as my mom stayed over the night. She has her typical two glasses of wine watered down with sprite (sheās a very anxious lady) and we discussed her struggles with her current husband and the stress sheās living with daily (he has Alzheimerās (not too bad yet) ) but he uses it against her and drinks daily which leads to bed wetting and other problems. Sheās a neat freak and it drives her a bit bananas. Also when he drinks he passes out hard so she need to get up every two hours to take her two dogs out for pee.
You can see sheās exhausted.
She just wanted a day off to herself here and not to worry. He promised not to drink so to take care of dogs properly but of course he did drink, so she was once again worried all night.
I told her she always has a place to stay with us and her mental health is paramount. If she canāt handle him, then she needs to make changes. But at 77 (in fantastic physical shape) thatās difficult as she would feel guilty leaving him. What can ya do? I dunno, just let her know we are there to support her if she needs.
I took today off work, so am, of course, hitting gym this morning for some weights followed with some cardio. Iām three solid months of consistent exercise, weight doesnāt move, measurements are about sameā¦ what ya gonna do. I feel amazing so Iām happy with that and am booked for bloodwork and an ecg next week to see how everything looks. Had doc throw in testosterone work to ensure itās not off.
Anyway, apologies for length, just wanted to get off chest and now I move toward with some exercise, well once she wakes. I like to see her get some good rest first.
Get after it yall!
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First day for me again. I do not like the reflection in my mirror after 2 week drinking. I want to look my best.
Today is hubbyās birthday, making dinner, cleaning apartment. Have a nice day,allš
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Thank you Cass I appreciate that
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Thank you Jasmine
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Thanks Holly!
Also reached my two weeks cigarettes free milestone today. Although im currently vapingā¦ my plan is to finish the juice i have and then stop that as well. Will see how it goes 
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Day 1,686 clean and sober, 6th day for the gym. I appreciate that I can open up here on this forum and always get support no matter what. Thank you all for always being here for me and helping me feel heard and not so alone. Have a fantastic day today, I love you guys! 
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