Day 18
I visited my mother and went for a walk. Worked a bit. I work from home. I gave my friend a ride, she wanted to run a few errands. It was an uneventful day and I felt fine. Cravings were there but they’re mental, whenever I’m sad or bored so I ignored them. It’s slightly easier to do now. I hope one day it will become effortless.
Thanks everyone for reading and for being here.
Have a beautiful and sober day 
Sober
ODAAT
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Congrats 
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Actually, I got that just this week. 5x 6am starts in a row followed by the gym. Felt rough this morning so hit snooze for another 90 mins and feel great tonight. Back to the gym in the morning but it was definitely my body saying “rest”
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Day 82 - Checking in, had a late night last night and I’ve been met with some of the worst cravings I’ve had to drink since the beginning of my sobriety.
Is this common when others are feeling tired? Or not themselves? I am going to get through my work day then head out to work out and some shopping to distract myself.
Hang in there everyone
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Day 56. I woke up around 7 am (usually 12 pm) and drank some coffee and started meditating in bed. It worked for awhile but negative thoughts started coming and i started to feel very bad. I was in bed until 11 am and got power to take a walk with my dog. It went quite fine and after that i went to get hay for the reindeers and go to market. After that i came home and soon started to feel negative thoughts again. A friend visited with his wife to borrow some reindeer equipment. He helped me to start my snowmobile also because i have had problems to start it. I haven’t driven it the whole winter. Later i felt nervous for couple of hours with nothing to do than scroll my phone. Now after sauna i feel quite relaxed. Haven’t had cravings to drink. Thought about my faith the recent days and been reading stuff about Christianity. I separated from the church 2020 and lost my faith and joined again 2023 after i had an experience that i was seriously going to die during a psychosis. After that i started actively to study Christianity. I do want to believe in God, but i think my faith isn’t so high at the moment but it brings me power anyway.
Have a good 24
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Maybe I shouldn’t answer because I’m new but here they’ve told me about HALT, and the T stands for tired.
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All great questions and exactly what I need to identify during my next meeting. Thank you for the insight! I definitely have a lot of self reflection to do this weekend.
And yes, I am determined to get to a week and beyond!!!
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Thank you! Totally makes sense then 
i will combat it directly then!
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Checking in day 1,977 AF.
Stay safe and sober peeps 
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This is one of the helpful advices I was given
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Checking in day 17 sober/nic free
After applying for 20+ jobs the last 2 weeks I was becoming seriously depressed from the rejections and feeling myself craving more. So, I did something positive, or at least I thought I had?
Yesterday I created a business logo, flyers and I bought insurance. I now have my own cleaning business and I’m fully booked next week!! I have previous experience in commercial and medical cleaning.
My new business is mainly domestic cleaning yet I’ve also gained work on weekends at my local pub (before it opens) but straight away my Husband is being negative and saying it’s not a good idea as he’s concerned I’ll stay after its open and start drinking… I really won’t.
I’m trying my hardest to turn my life around and build a stable future for our family. I thought I’d done something really good but now I’m second guessing myself. I thought I could start a local business and if I gained enough clients I could employ my sister to work alongside me and build the business from there.
I’m just being told I’m taking on too much and I won’t cope and I shouldn’t have done it and he doesn’t know how I’ll manage or why I’ve bothered. He hasn’t said one good word.
I’m just feeling a bit deflated tonight. I don’t even feel like messaging clients back 
I’m meant to be starting on Monday and now I’m full of anxiety and feeling useless again.
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You’re doing great. Keep it up! Light & Love 
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Thank you very much, you too! 
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Hey it sounds like a good idea to little old me! And there will always be people telling you that you cant do something (sorry its your husband, though.) It sounds like you are doing an AMAZING job of getting something new started, which has always been something I struggle with so im very inspired by you! 
take the day to recoop and refocus on your own goals. Building something with the goal of employing your sister is so noble and so 100% possible. Keep on going i believe in you 
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Checking in 53 days. Went to a meeting this morning, then met a friend for a dog walk and coffee. Still going strong, no temptations 
. Happy Friday! 
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Checking in with 26 days, still dizzy and headachey after the hospital stay but definitely improved. My oncologist came by the hospital room so I was glad I actually got to talk to her. Im so sick of being sick, so glad alcohol is out of the picture, but im still sick and I want to get on with my life!
Also i noticed yesterday that being in a medical setting is extremely triggering for my anxiety, being poked and blood drawn and asked about my BMs… it is thouroughly upsetting and i think I have some medical trauma from the last year that I need to address.
Being sober is allowing me to start to see these things though. I would have juat assumed i was anxious because i didnt have a drink. But now i can stop and see that im anxious because of a trigger i didnt know i had. Feeling the feelings is difficult, and i find myself wondering about the difference between feeling emotions healthily and just wallowing in self pity. Its a balance i guess but if anyone else has thoughts on that id love to hear!
Anyways im taking it easy, pedialyte and rice cakes, and looking forward fo 4 weeks AF on Sunday!
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Congrats on reaching triple digits!! 100 d as TS is incredible!
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I’m a week clean today, It’s like I can feel my brain is “healing” mode, I kind of visualize it as my brain is less and less soaked by alcohol as the days go by. 
it feels good but life is also lifing. I am experiencing anxiety because as excited as I am to become a master esthetician and got a job straight out of school, I’m stressed about making sure my special needs child has care for all those hours I will be working. Especially when summer hits. He can only get so much respite care outside of my dad watching him. Thank God for my dad to love us as much as he does and watching him as much possible. I just feel guilty because he is getting older and has survived strokes so it’s not as easy for him to get around. I mean, he can enough to still go out and stuff, I wouldn’t put that on him if he wasn’t capable. I was going to look for a certified nanny/sitter and just paying to watch him all day Saturday to take that off my dad but tell me why it costs like $180 at minimum to even reach out to a provider to see if they could do it…praying the respite works out and my dad will just have to watch him Saturdays. I just feel guilty and sad that my son doesn’t have a father outside of his papa and I don’t have a partner so it makes it harder to even work…I’m trusting God and I’m trying to let it go for today and the weekend as I am not training again until Monday. I am just trying my best. only a a small part of me thinks how some shots can help take it away for now but the bigger part of me that would just make things worse and I’d feel like 
later. I know these are real life things I need to face head on in order to face reality moving forward.
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