Day 18 - coloured some more. Will be done in a couple of days.
Normal day. Worked my day job.
Heard from a part time job which will be starting in a couple of weeks so that will be good and looking forward to it. It won’t be a lot of hours, just maybe a couple of evenings a week, and it’s rotational so won’t be a whole lot, but at least it will be some side income/hustle as I still work my day job.
Looking forward to that.
Going to do a little bed time reading.
G’nite my sober friends.
Please take all the time you need for yourself and put yourself and your own recovery first! You deserve to do that 
Take care 
Checking in. It’s 7AM here and I’m ready to go to work. Last dat of the week 
I’m tired but I do notice I’m finally sleeping better.
Have a great day everyone 
Day 874
Finally the weather is getting warmer. Not that I hate the cold times no, my skin does! I get flaky in dry cold air.
This week we had another meeting with both managers again, and surprisingly it was productive and good. We all were surprised 
We were ready to hate the mean manager but there was no reason to.
We won’t get more staff but will tweak the system we work with, that shortens the waiting time for our patients that need appointments.
Workouts are good 
Working on my discipline now with food too. I try to eat as healthy as possible, without completely cutting out unhealthy stuff, it wouldn’t work.
Progress, not perfection 
Have a beautiful sober day fam! 
Checking in. Day 1
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Felt really upbeat and positive today. Didn’t do anything out of the ordinary. Good stuff
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Today should be the day my kitchen gets finished. 
It’s also my weekend and it’ll be by far the warmest day of the year so far. I’ll remain sober and clean regardless. No need to celebrate stuff by using. Or drown any sorrows. it’s all life and I’m so happy I can experience it as it is without the need to flee from it. Even when it’s tough at times. One day at a time.
Let’s have as good a day as we can all. Clean and sober or nothing will come from it. Love from my commute. Park’s still quiet, that will change dramatically once it gets warmer.
Middle of the night insomnia check in. It’s currently 1:20am and officially day 57. I can’t seem to fall asleep no matter how heavy my eyes feel at the moment. Dreading the 4:30 alarm and 10 hour shift that will be ahead of me. At least I’ll have an endless coffee supply . Going to back to some scrolling and hope I at least doze off for a bit soon but doesn’t feel very likely at the moment.
Welcome back Geeyem. It’s been a while. Time to make this work! Wishing you all success.
Warmest day of the year! Ha Ha. You live in the tropics, that good old Gulf Stream! While so many of us have record cold …
Enjoy the warmth and the stillness of the park while it lasts!
Exciting about your kitchen! Hope 1) They show up and 2) that if they don’t finish they will soon and 3) that you and Luna will love, love, love it!
Very exciting!!! 
I was right about to say that I’m often wondering where you have the time to reply on everyone up here. Don’t get me wrong it’s so very nice of you but I know how much time it consumes. I had a period of time here when I did the same and I liked doing it at first. It was a win/win. I helped others, the forum and myself. But later on it felt like I had to do it. It became a must instead of a joy.
I’m not saying it’s the same with you but It’s always good to look back and think “what do I need”
So you do know what you need 
. We do this recovery thing for ourselves in the first place. We help others in the proces because that’s part of working on ourselves. We’re looking for and finding connection. Within ourselves and outside of us, to others. We can’t do it alone but we need to be healthy -or as healthy as we can be- ourselves, in many ways, first and foremost, or nothing will come of anything. You take care of you lady. Love 
We will be right here if you need us Jazz. Talk it out if you need to, you don’t always have to give help, you can ask for it too. I find that my recovery comes in phases where I want to help others and then phases where I help others less and focus on myself more. Do whatever you need to do for you.
Here with hugs when you need them. 
Indi, welcome back. Are you staying with us this time? It’s so much harder to try and stay sober alone.
What has happened to you is awful, and you’re incredibly brave to be even considering facing that person in court. I’m sure we can all understand why you might seek solace in alcohol. But… it doesn’t make anything better does it? It just makes everything worse… it makes hard things harder to deal with. It’s a devil like that.
In case it helps (I remember getting my test results and panicking), having been through raised ALT myself, 120 is high but not terrible actually so don’t panic. Normal for a woman in the uk is sub 40. During active drinking mine hit 200, then during my first year of attempted sobriety when I cut my consumption down 75% to a binge every few weeks it dropped back to 70, and now is sub 50 which is considered normal for men. You are young and the liver is extraordinarily resilient. If you help it, it will heal. Consider your raised level now a warning of what will happen if you carry on. You don’t want that life.
Please stick around!
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Was feeling a bit ‘funky’ earlier in the week so decided to use some Annual Leave and get away for a few days and reset and recharge
I got up in time to do all my morning tasks before work today which will really help! Usually i’m trying to start work and get the kids ready at the same time or something like that and it just makes all of us more stressed.
I slipped yesterday (with internet addiction the line between clean behaviours and active use behaviours can be a bit fuzzy) and decided it was serious enough to reset my day count so today is day 1 again. To prevent it from becoming day 2 I’m planning to keep my phone in a drawer and listen to the radio instead if I want music, also to bookend my checking emails by checking in with the ITAA bookending chat.
To take care of myself I’m planning a walk with my sibling and some meditation this afternoon, probably around 3 to combat the 3pm slump. Hopefully I’ll be able to attend the 10pm ITAA zoom meeting but time with the family is more of a priority today.
Take care of yourselves today, everyone!
I echo what others have said. You give so much on here in your responses to people. It’s ok to take a step back and take what you need from the community.
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Nightshift last night was all good. Back again tonight. Just finished up some admin work now having some downtime.
Supposed to be back tomorrow night for another shift but decided to use a leave day and surprise my wife with dinner out
Hi girl. So glad you are ok. Please fight
Drop me a message when you get a minute if you want to. Here for you.
Fully support a break. Not forever, but a breather to reflect on who you are and what you need. If there’s the constant noise from others/engagement with other’s I don’t see how you can hear your own voice or wants. I strongly urge you to stay connected but to take a break from the forum some. If it feels wrong then change something. If that feels wrong then try something else. Recovery is private work as well as connected support, and you stretch yourself so much on here.
Love 
Here if you ever want to DM anything at all, or want an ear.
