Day 2756.
I’m feeling like my hard work over the last year and rededication to my program is really paying off. I have been calmer, more able to handle some incredibly hard life stressors without totally cracking and staying more connected with my recovery. I still have some hard parts going on, but also some great moments coming, and happening currently. The best part has been getting the chance to speak at my new home group and at a community recovery event.
Tuesday lunch check in. Another sober long weekend in the books. At all 4 social engagements we had, there were also people who were on breaks from drinking, or non-drinkers, including a surprising one last night - a husband of a friend who also has a heavy drinking past, and is taking a long break. I always appreciate being around people in similar situations at social occasions.
I’m frustrated today. My wife is stressed out about life, and I’m am absorbing it, and it’s attacking my nervous system, and it’s distracting me more than I wish it would.
It’s a beautiful day outside, my office work is going pretty much perfectly, and our life is going extremely well overall. I should be happy, not this stressed.
I hope I can breathe deeply, get a quick cardio workout in, have some lunch, and reset for the afternoon.
Checking in 132 af, 107 nic-free. Feeling a bit stressed last couple of days, but I feel I am trying to relativate it in a healthy manner (I am someone who can’t relativate well at all, emotions swallow me whole 
). No desire to drink or smoke, and I am able to focus and work so I must admit I am good despite the stressy feelings!
Have a good one everyone 
It’s so good you are present and sober to deal with life’s ups and downs. I hope your daughter feels better soon 
So glad to see you here to share your long term sobriety. Sorry for the tough stuff. Your personal achievements are stunning.
Love to read your shares.. wanted to share my snowshoe story. This was years ago in my past life. Ex hubby and I got matching snowshoes (pretty fancy and expensive). Drove to a mountain and put them on after we got out of the car. We took off. there was even a light snow fluttering. The scenery was magical and exhilarating. We walked about 45 minutes enjoying every minute when suddenly I realized as far as we walked or were going to walk we would have to return to the car. I already was becoming exhausted, Moral of the story remember the time and distance you snow shoe anywhere you will have to repeat that amount to return to the starting location. Plan accordingly.
Beautiful memory…
Ever constant and consistent. Great to know I can find stability in you my friend. Great numbers and congratulations.
Day 19 AF just checking in. Had an extremely rough night last night because I accidentally took my morning meds instead of my night meds 
It was a rough morning however I am doing better. I am trying to get into intensive IOP and waiting for a phone call back to do an assessment. Checked in with my sponsor and will be going to a virtual AA meeting tonight. Hope all is well with everyone 
Sending hug. Thank you for sharing. Please keep us in the loop and know I care and glad you are here.
Congratulations on 30 Days! Good job man to be back at it!!
Day 1192
Day is okay but im currently filled with anxiety. This morning was great! I went to the gym for a quick 1 hour cardio workout before my mom n brother came to see me. We went for coffee which was great!! They went off to do some shopping while i stayed home to try n rest (since i did the overnight last night). My husband tho was complaining ALL day about work and about this visit with my family. Every single phone call was complaining in one way or another. I just kept my composer and tried to emapthize with my husband and how he was feeling. I feel almost in the middle btwn him and my family tho. Theres a bit of tension i guess btwn my husband and brother. Something my brother said pissed him off. And im sooo anxious that this visit will go well. Ive had an urge to use today also. Stronger than the usual urge. The combination of lack of sleep and anxiety is probably causing this. I have 1 hour before my family shows up with dinner. Lets hope everything goes well 
@SolarEclipse Congrats on your 1 month of milestone! 
Keep going strong 
So grateful for this – flex them sober muscles Great work on your recovery 
@Sabrina80 Sorry you woke up with a migraine. So happy to hear that you were able to have a pain free day! A huge success
@Englishd A wonderful check in and great to see how well sobriety and being dedicated to a program helps live with life and all its lifey moments … 2756 days is super impressive!
@PositiveThoughts Sorry for the stresses. Hope you area able to use relaxing techniques to help your nervous system
@Marit Grateful no desire to drink or smoke. Hoping you are able to feel less stressed and find some calming energy around you
@Pizzaz612 Glad you are doing better. Hope you get the assessment soon 
@Butterflymoonwoman Sorry friend. Sending you loads of calming energy. Sorry the urges are so strong. Hope you all enjoy dinner together without any tensions.
Checking in on Tuesday evening
881 days free of alcohol and weed
1296 days free of cigarettes
Feel sorta productive today. Got in my swim so that is always a win. Found out the outdoor pool opened today. Hopefully the weather will get better soon so I can enjoy it (no one swims here in the mornings so it is a pool all to myself).
Got some blah news about next steps for helping my health issues. Grateful for a good sense of humor and my sobriety. I would be so much worse if I was deep in addiction. Our bodies have no chance in healing if we pump them with poison.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you all so much love
Hooray for you one month is wonderful!! I love your succinct posts !!! Alcohol is gross 
PERFECT 
Day 65: Good workouts today, work was alright, good noon AA meeting, not a bad Tuesday.
So glad I chose sobriety today, looking forward to a better tomorrow!
Yeah. I try to remind myself of that awful taste of that first beer when I was 13. Granted it was a warm Old Swill pull tab can. 
You’re helping more than you know just by being here 
@JazzyS Pie is my favorite dessert and blueberry is one of my top 3 
Sounds like a fine way to start the day 
It IS fruit after all 
@Sabrina80 Great news about the migraine 
Those one’s you wake up with are usually the worst! 
I haven’t had one in some time.
825
My nose has not stopped running ALL DAY!!! 
Darn those trees and their beautiful green, oxygen giving leaves “
” And OMG! I just remembered I bought allergy meds the other day and stashed some in my apron so I had them at work the entire time 
Duh!!! Sometimes I get scared of how much brain damaged I might’ve caused with alcohol 
I was looking at some furniture out by the dumpster from that dude’s apartment and the neighbor who helped clean it out told me not to touch anything. He said the whole place was littered with powder and needles (they even found a loaded one 
) I suspected, obviously, but thought about how it’s crazy that was happening just 15 feet away from us. Fuck addiction 
Stay strong everyone
2174
Wow how fast those 30 days went!
Congratulations @SolarEclipse 
94th day; lots on my mind and keeping close to online meetings and on here. Keeping what I have with vigilance. 
546 sugar
410 UPF
284 gluten/dairy
Slept well enough, morning meeting was great, sun is up. Going to put some finishing touches on my process work, take my daughter to a school thing, take a shower and enjoy my day.
Today’s picture are our new hydrogen busses. I love them they are so quiet.
Peace and love always 
