Into day 3. Feeling good though have a fairly persistent headache which I think is probably due to the crazy pollen levels this week.
Made it through a lunch today with a bunch of drinkers. They had come from the US and are very old friends o had not seen in a while. They didn’t care that I wasn’t drinking and it wasn’t hard given the memory of my recent slip was recent. Now at home enjoying a calm, sober family evening.
Not going to lie I would probably rather watch a movie on the sofa and order takeout with my animals buttt going to support my partner which is important and the longer I leave it to show my face after my last incident the more anxious I will be. Need to stay strong.
Really nice to hear you had a good lunch with your friends who were visiting and they were all chill about you not drinking. Need a few more events like that under my belt tbh. Would be great to have supportive friends like these 
Well done on reaching day 3. First few days are not easy.
Day 1195
Good morning TS fam 
Havent checked in in a couple days. Things have been good for the most part. The visit with my family went really well!! They left yesterday to go back to their home province and Im really missing them. But im so grateful for the time we spent together.
I havent been on point with my health goals tho. Ive been slacking 
Not seeing the results I want to see so today i re-commited myself to my goals. So far so good! I went to the gym this morning and then did a bit of shopping along with a stop to the smoothie bar for lunch. Now to do some cleaning before my son gets home from his half day of school. Hope everyone is enjoying their day!
Friday lunch check in.
Holy F I’m exhausted and need a break that’s not coming any time soon.
I’ll be picking up my daughter after work, then we have a 2 couples and kids coming over for dinner and the Oilers game here at home.
This will be our 4th time hosting guests for dinner in an 8 day stretch. Yikes.
My wife likes to keep the challenge level high. She doesn’t like easy days.
I like a mix of hard and easy.
Oh well. I will be sober and present for my friends and family tonight. That’s always especially appreciated when I have multiple foods on the grill while trying to chat.
Gotta go. Cheers
Checking in. Just wanted to thank you for your never ending support when I needed it. It helped immensely to just stay present and try to allow to feel what I felt.
Went through the rough patch and now am able to see it from a little bit more distance which is nice. It gives me the feeling I CAN handle emotions even though I always think I can’t.
You are all amazing 
(@JazzyS @SolarEclipse @Soli @Just_Laura and everyone else )
@Just_Laura it helped reading you found months 4-6 the hardest. Gives me more motivation to go through it, so thank you
Checking in with 451 days. We ended up with 1 rooster among our five chick-kids. This morning was his first attempt to crowing. I laughed and thought maybe won’t be laughing when he gets his full cock a doodle do down and way too early in the morning. 
As stormy relationship brewing not sure if weekend will be me and you all with no hubby. Whatever happens I am sober strong and wanting to spread cheer and support for all of you.
Even reading that is enough to make me feel tired 
so good luck.
I love running the grill with friends over but man I burned so much food whilst drinking…
I’m a better chef sober
Some people buy them privately and have them in their gardens.
Checking in day 508 AF
Haven’t been around here for a bit, perhaps the change more permanent, unsure.
We put our beautiful dog down today after much deliberation. He’s bitten a few times and if it just was me it may have been a different outcome but this time was my wife, so we had no choice.
Never been crazy serious bites but definitely punctures skin and or tore open my pinky… he’d be fantastic for 5,6,7,8 months then snap then right back to normal…we tried multiple things, training, meds for a little bit, but it was just a random thing you could never really see coming.
Anyway that’s been on radar for past few days and tonight was the night we had an appt for. Night before my birthday so a little blue tonight.
Had a major relapse..
Found my way back to this forum.
Today i’m at day 2
Oh I am sorry about your loss. And I do miss you when you don’t post. You are ahead of me in the sober journey and look forward to your sharing what is going on. Please know I am glad you are here.
Welcome back. Do you have a plan? Have you considered AA or another recovery program?
Glad you found your way back. Day 2 and going strong 
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Welcome back!! I’m sorry you are struggling. You are in the right place. Keep posting 
Hi all, 81 days.
Been in a depression pit this week, characterized by panic attacks, my house being a disaster and having no energy to do anything about it, crying a lot and isolating. Was making it hard to focus on recovery and the dark thoughts and cravings were getting louder and stronger.
But im starting to feel it lift. I had more energy at work today and have some good plans for the weekend im hoping I can feel well enough to do.
Thank you TS fam 
even if im not reaponding much individually I am reading and loving to see all your check ins
538 days
The course i was assisting on finished yesterday. Was a full on mentally and physically demanding week.
After the courses its a bit of a tradition to go to the bar at work for a few beers. I went up and had a coke, hung out for an hour or so then went home. Was good.
Ironically it was up in the bar, long before I was sober, that I was first approached about becoming a trainer in this particular discipline.
If I was still drinking I would have really struggled last week, but as it stands I’m feeling pretty good today.
Grateful to be sober.
No need to respond to me Just feel better and keep spreading positive recovery vibes. 
Hope you are doing ok this evening. 451 days is a huge accomplishment well done to you
I’m also picturing the tiny baby chicken yelling bet they are pretty damn cute!
