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Second rainy day in a row after weeks of continuous sunshine. A bit of a bummer for the start of my holidays and my friend being here. But never mind. There’s raincoats and umbrella’s and ponchos for that. Did another little walk in town yesterday and slept in today. We can do what we want today. Or not do a thing at all. Freedom. We’re going to have as good a day as we possibly can. And expect the same from all of you. Sober and clean or nothing will come of it. Love.
550 sugar
414 UPF
288 gluten/dairy
Had one of those relapse dreams. They are usually very intense and obviously don’t make any sense. Glad to be awake and not hung over.
Slept well otherwise, had a good meeting, weather is overcast and rainy. Going to do my weekly review today, some rowing exercise later in the day, rest and relax.
Today’s picture is a squirrel curiously looking into my living room.
Peace and love always 
You have some amazing city flowers in Netherlands. Next time I visit I’m going in search of some, rather than bars after work as in my prior life.
I have also wanted to go to keukenhof in spring so will make time for that one year
Day 14. Sunday! Glad to have woken up sober this morning.
Not much else to report.
Working on myself and my sobriety one day at a time.
Have a great sunday!
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Sunday night check-in.
Had a great weekend. Managed to spend time with all 3 of my beautiful Grandkids which just totally fills my heart with such joy.
Hi, just curious and thought if I could ask. No need to answer tough unless you want to.
Not sure what does this UPF mean? Sugar is quite clear but .. is it? .. There is much of sugar in many products. So you dont use processed food at all or you just have to be very careful to read all the ingredients if there is some added sugar. And natural sugar of fruits etc is ok?
Then gluten free eating is very familiar since I have celiac disease (over twenty years) and cannot tolerate any gluten at all. Contamination risk is something you have to consider always when not eating at home.
And also dary products. Is it possible to find a restaurant easily? Of course if contamination ain’t problem it gets lots of easier.
Btw. Nice picture of a squirrel there. Have a nice day!
Checking to 992nd day. I am very happy with my new life. I almost 50, but being sober has had the consequence of recovery the capacity of being amazed.
I enjoy being sober, being aware, being hungry, and no having stomach pains or intestine disorders.
I enjoy having breakfasts and naps after lunch.
I enjoy having feelings, for instance yesterday Luka Modrić and Carlo Ancelotti Real Madrid farewell. I have recovered my sensibility.
Kind regards.
@Jeanine great work I’m getting back on track and not letting the relapse take hold … Don’t let the guilt or shame eat at you. We are here with you. You are not alone. I’m sorry you are in pain. Drinking only numbs it for a sec but in reality is adding to it long term. Keep pushing forward…it does get easier
@Madds hope you had a wonderful time with your celebrations. Great to see you setting up your boundaries. Hopefully everyone was respectful of em.
@hazy oh no! I’m sorry to hear about the fall. Hope your thumb is ok. 
. I am clutzy but found that I was so much worse the first few months of sobriety. Think my brain was in overload with trying to stay sober and dealing with life without any blinders on. Triple digits coming up…that’s some great work 
@NewEnglander1970 glad you are listening to your sponsor. I’m sure you will be doing the 5k challenge soon enough (doesn’t have to be in May 
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@CR84 a lovely room. I can sense the calmness. Love the purple touches 
@BookDragon sorry you are dealing with the migraines. The weather is all over the place and I’m feeling it too. Hope we both get some relief soon
@james83 great work on getting through the wedding and staying sober
Love this ..hope you two enjoy your day thoroughly 
@Blondie75 great progress Sarah! It’s been lovely seeing your journey. Keep up the amazing work
@Jonachav123 congratulations on your 2 weeks 
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@NewDay1990 thinking of you. How did the wedding go?
Checking in on Sunday morning. Did manage to fall asleep for a while. Not doing great but well enough. Blessed to be enjoying a hot cup of coffee in bed. Sun is finally shining. Think the weather is going to start acting like spring.
Not a whole lot planned for today. Will start with some light yoga and see where the day takes me
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day… sending you all so much love 
Checking in on day 149
@Millie_1987 it’s good to have you back here .
@SarahBear I’m sorry to hear you have been struggling this week. I hope your weekend plans give you a bit of a pick me up.
@Chevy55 happy birthday and I hope you will pop in from time to time.Best of luck with everything
@Madds I hope everyone respected your no alcohol wishes . At Easter I made the same request and I had to make my MIL go put a bottle of wine back in her car because she showed up with it anyways.
@NewEnglander1970 I understand what you mean with the sober laughter returning . I really laughed the other day ( like belly hurt tears streaming laughter) and I realized i honestly cannot remember when the last time I laughed like that was. It was really an eye opener of how miserable my drunken existence had become.
@CR84 your quiet room is looking great Cass
@acromouse I love the squirrel pic
@Jonachav123 congrats on 2 weeks sober
A beautiful sunny day off for me here today . Have a bit of cleaning to do, groceries and plan on working in the veggie garden for a bit and most importantly no plans or intention to drink. I might try to convince the family to go for another lakefront walk again like a couple weeks ago. I’m sure if I bribe them with ice cream from the retro diner again they will be game 
. I hope you all have a great sober Sunday . 
You are welcome to ask.
UPF stands for UltraProcessedFood. After giving up sugar which triggered massive binges and other eating disorders I realised that I have a similar problem with Ultra Processed Foods.
When you leave out heavily processed food - I find the Nova classification system helpful here - there is not much there left with sugar in it. I eat fruit and I will in the cold of winter put sometimes a bit of honey into my tea. After giving up sugar and UPFs I discovered that I don‘t especially like sweet stuff. So a handful of berries in the summer is enough for me.
Eating out, takeout, ordering food, etc. is obviously tricky, but to be honest most of it is made with UPF. But I will mostly choose a venue where there is a salad with meat option or something like that.
I usually will cook for myself. I eat vegetables, fruit, gluten-free grains, meat, eggs, fats. I find my diet satisfying and tasty. I don‘t feel like I am missing out on anything.
Wow they are good numbers well done
Brilliant sounds nice fabulous numbers 
The “F” should be removed from “UPF” because it is not food. It’s a chemical concoction like in any laboratory. Couldn’t agree more and I avoid it as much as possible
Never quit, quitting friend
Totally with you there. I consider this stuff a heavily designed product and not food. Especially as they are made with the specific intent of getting you hooked on it.
Hey all, checking in on day 1806. I hope everybody has a good one 
Thank you friend!
Hi all
Onto day 8.
Went to the wedding. Almost everyone was ridiculously drunk.
Needless to say it wasn’t our vibe at all alcohol or not and we left early. Said enough hellos to be polite.
Didn’t drink and that’s the main thing. Glad your wedding went well @james83
Thank you all for the kind and thoughtful messages, hope you all have a great Sunday. @JazzyS @Cjp @Mno @Just_Laura and anyone else who sees this post 
Checking in on day 17. Thank you @JazzyS & @CanadianGirl I really felt corny talking about it but it’s huge for me so I decided to share. My other half got me a metal sign that says “They whispered to her you cannot withstand the storm. I AM THE STORM she replied” and I love it. He might be a pain in the butt sometimes but he’s pretty great lol
Hope all is well
