The last two months have flown by in retrospect. During that time my cravings to act out sexually have been barely measurable. I’ve done so much work on myself since the pandemic that I can truly feel and see the growth. I see the value and strength I possess.
That’s not to say that now is the time to rest on my laurels. Life will continue to bring hardships. Time to keep leveling up. I don’t want to trade one obsession for another and I want to keep my vision, desires, and boundaries front and center in order to keep my focus on the happy, joyous and free life that I have worked so hard for.
@JMS19 Great job on ur 16 days being cocaine free! Do u know what the barrier is in quitting gambling and alcohol? Do u find that drinking triggers u to use cocaine? I always found that drinking made me want to use drugs, so I needed to quit it all in order for me to gain recovery. Glad ur striving to be a better version of urself One step at a time @Ofmiceandroach Congratulations on 20 days!! @Sunny11 Congratulations on 1 week!! @Dustysprungfield Congratulations on 20 days!! Ur doing so well
Thanks! Yeah drinking can definitely be a big trigger and I am finding that I am aware of that but can’t seem to jump that hurtle. I find that alcohol is so deep into my social life so I find it extremely difficult. I may have the possibility to relocate for work… sounds dumb but moving might provide me with the ability to really break that social tie.
Checking in Day 45. Currently on break in IOP class. My body is in class but im not paying attention…i have so many other thoughts and feelings going on. Hey just taking it ODAAT
I hope all is well with everyone and you all have a wonderful Monday.
I will take part on an advanced training in mbct/mbsr, which is 5 dates 2,5h each in a in person group. Kind of therapy. I did the basic course 12 years ago and it helped me grounding and feeling my body and needs. Looking forward to a reactivation!
I bought eyeliner and a new cacao glitter blush palette today.
My new glasses realy fit! My brain excepted it which is a real big win. I even felt the muscles around my eye trying to work against it in the beginning. But now I see much better. And even relaxed. What I would have never expected. The Astigmatism correction was increased a real big step, which is not easy for the brain. Thank you brain.
There is a new cat in my life, coming around from time to time. Seems to be Bengalian mix. She is wild and free.
Checking in, I’ve been MIA, and struggling the past 2 weeks, basically with all my addictions and disorders (alcohol, cigarettes, ED). But I refuse to give up. Thank you for checking up on me @JazzyS
I went to my first ever concert sober this weekend. Was awesome, I didn’t miss drinking at all. I mean… this was 80,000 people… you should have SEEN the queues for the WC !! Another blessing of sobriety
If I fear losing my good resolutions when I return home, it is because I value them. And if I fear weakness, it is because I already know what it costs me. Doubt, far from distancing me from myself, becomes a compass: it reminds me of what matters and what I want to preserve.
This is not a step backward, but a new test. The serenity I feel today is not a definitive guarantee: it is a sign that, despite my doubts, I can move forward toward what I choose to become.
I’m going to sleep on it tonight. But first, a little reading so I don’t think too much.
@Juli1 your cat is beautiful! So exotic looking especially it eyes.
@Madds how exciting! Sounds like it going to be a good time- enjoy! Ps I had my husband say same thing to me- time to disconnect from work and loved ones. This is first time I had my phone today and it felt amazinggg. Try it!
@Butterflymoonwoman lovely to hear you got some extra sleep! Hope you felt refreshed
Amen to that!
@StacyAnn glad you have two jobs lined up. Will say some prayers that the right one falls into your path! Sounds like your old job wasnt a good fit? Grateful to hear you are seeking a new path. You have to do what best for you and brings you joy/peace.
Checking in. 14 days! Spent day working remotely in morning (my own fault should of had it done before we left or did it while we drove ) but the afternoon was spent at the beach!! We had a 5 hour beach day. Beautiful weather and ocean was like bath water! Now grilling some steaks for dinner. Wishing everyone a happy sober evening.
@rockstar24777 So lovely to see you checking in Rob. Glad to hear that you are ok and stacking up those lovely days Hope all is well with the new job and your company start up. Make sure to find time for yourself @john_connor1337 Well done on your 40 days Glad to see you finding a healthy way to loose weight effectively and in a healthy manner. @jms19 Great work on your cocaine free days. Definitely a great accomplishment. Keep working on your journey. Hopefully the tools and support you pick up will help you with the other addictions. A change in address for sure will assist. We need to break free of our social circles to help us find our strength and new path in sobriety. Keep putting in the daily effort friend. ODAAT @mtrav0040 Man that is awesome work on your timers! Way to go All your hard work is shining through @madds I personally loved the total escape of it all on a cruise – not having any links to the outside world was very peaceful. Sorry that you are unable to use the wifi and connect like you would like. You will get a chance to use the local wifi when you land in your destination but then you would just want to have all the fun doing those wonderful adventures. Hope you have a great time!
Oh this is great news. Good luck with the training. Well done. Glad you are doing better my friend. @jesile Lovely to see you checking in friend. Glad you are back with us. Stay connected Jenny. You are worth the effort Beautiful cat @nomad620 Thanks friend – I had a decent day. Well done on your 2 weeks. Glad you are enjoying your vacation and the weather is turning out perfectly for you
Checking in on Monday night
971 days free of alcohol and weed
1386 days free of cigarettes
Got in a decent swim at the condo pool. Grateful that it wasn’t super hot but will try to get in earlier tomorrow.
I busted my mouth splint again. I scared myself as I almost swallowed the set screw. Unfortunately the screw fell into the sinks overflow hole. I undid all the pipes and cleaned em out properly but can’t find it. Hard to believe it would have gotten washed away but that is the only explanation at this point. Hope they can still fix it.
Not much else for today. Did some cooking, self care and sorted out my accounting a bit. Will make a grocery run now as I do need to move a bit.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you all so much love
Prous of u!
) but the afternoon was spent at the beach!! We had a 5 hour beach day. Beautiful weather and ocean was like bath water! Now grilling some steaks for dinner. Wishing everyone a happy sober evening.
Hope all is well with the new job and your company start up. Make sure to find time for yourself 
