Day 1367 AF
Day 3.8 PMO
Hey, fam.
Working OT this week. Much needed.
Not a whole lot going on today. I feel tired. I think I overdid it with a workout last night.
Gonna stretch. Jump in the shower and try to get some sleep.
I hope everyone’s doing well.
Take care. ODAAT 
Day 744
My depression and sleep are pretty bad today. But Im still grateful 
Checking in on Day 4 (I incorrectly said it was Day 4 yesterday when in fact it was Day 3).
I can certainly feel the Zoloft doing something in there. It’s throwing me off a bit, but not drinking had been nice in one specific way…
TMI Alert: I have normal BM’s again for the first time in 7 months since I last relapsed. 
I was diagnosed with diverticulitis last year. This last bout of drinking & diet really caused a lot of internal distress. There’s a lot of healing that needs to be done.
So much work and healing to be done…ODAAT. I am really glad that this community exists.
Absolutely wonderful Anthony!
Good morning. 78 day AF.
I had a strange dream. Cant remember it all but either I was taking or was planning to eat the medicine against alcohol addiction.
I really do have a recipe for Selincro and it is nalmefene and a doctor ordered it to me over ten years ago, dont even remember exactly how long ago. Anyways it is meant to be eaten before drinking and under the influence you dont desire to drink so much. Well it did kind of work but also it made me feel very fuzzy (nausea or something like that) and strange. Couldnt drink that much or didnt want to, lol. It really didnt work for me and I didnt even eat the whole package, not even half of it.
Have you tried Selincro or any other similar product? Have you even heard of it? I did listen the link someone posted here few days ago and there did say on that AS big book ch 3 that there aint medicine for alcoholism. I quess that it might have triggered the dream. Its also kind of obsolete information since there is for example this Selincro and I quess more also. Still I could not even think to try it again because of the nausea it made me feel. Also even if it does control the amount you drink you are still drunk and it wont change the fact that its much more pleasant and comfortable to be sober and in control what you do.
Have a good 24 hours!
Im back on the app its been 623 days today and im doing ok..I just lost my mom . I’m so Extremely grateful that im not drinking because i honestly don’t think there would be enough Alc for that day..so anyway i m here and im healty and strong.. I also Highly recommend Zoom AA meetings.. peace… Everything AA app
I wish that was a thing around here 
@Lighter Congratulations on 500 days! 
@Lasse I ordered this stuff called Sobrenix off Amazon years ago that supposedly had the same affect 
I received a letter a while back stating there was a lawsuit against them that gave me the opportunity to be a part of it. You know why?? Cause
Got my $100 check last year 
880
Easiest, quickest day of work in a while. Was finally able to get my shopping done. Spent too much, but I needed it all (except maybe the gelato 
) Feeling serene 
Have a great 24!
Congrats on the big 500!
Congrats on 7 years. Thanks for sharing here. You are an awesome example for us all.
I’m so sorry about your mom. Good on you for getting through it without alcohol. Everything AA app is awesome.
591 days
Yesterday was a busy day for my first day back at work. As soon as I started we were right into the thick of it.
Just about to start nightshift. Its been a rainy day today but I managed to get a decent gym workout in and get dinner sorted for the family tonight.
@Button83 welcome back. Stick at it. Make this your last day 1
Aww thank you! Welcome here as well 
Well… last night was my second one without booze, and let’s just say it wasn’t exactly a Netflix & chill kind of sleep 
I was tossing and turning like I was auditioning for a breakdance crew, and to top it off – my legs were itching like they were trying to send me Morse code. 
BUT – and here’s the plot twist –
Even after all that chaos, I woke up feeling better than on nights when I drank, snored like a beast, and still got a shiny sleep score on my smartwatch.
It’s wild how even a restless sober night can bring more real rest than a “drunk pass-out” ever did.
My body’s not thrilled yet, but I think it’s whispering: “Hey man… I think we’re finally doing something right.”
One day at a time. One weird night at a time.
Still sober. Still standing. Slightly itchy. And as to newly established routine is concerned… Get… 
Absolutely love Everything AA!
Morning check-in before work!
Not really in the mood for work today! 
I’d rather go for a walk and to the pool! 
Tomorrow I’ll attend a SMART recovery meeting (first time) online which is being held in Madrid. I need to try new things, AA is not an option. Went to several meetings at the beginning of the year, and that was not my thing. I hope everyone has a good one!
2229
Got a difficult meeting at work this morning with my manager, a coordinator, and someone from HR. I messed up with communication. Having thought about it for a couple of days now, what it comes down to is me being classically avoidant in many areas. Not fleeing into substance abuse anymore, but still having a very hard time -failing actually- to recognize and understand my feelings. And trying to numb the negative ones.
One good thing is that I asked for help and feedback from some good friends. And got it too. I post here for accountability and for a feeling I’m not alone. Love to all.
746
Yesterday on neighbourhood group chat my neighbour post about incident with her car. She didn’t use her car since Thursday and yesterday when she wanted to go somewhere, she found this in her lock
I feel so bad about it. I know he’s only 4.5yo but I teach them so much about respecting other ppl and other ppl properties. I took him to her to apologise but she didn’t open, probably still in pyjama or didn’t hear. She’s very nice very old lady, always minding her own business, always kind. I hope the lock is still working.I had to write it cause Im.trying to keep myself busy here while waiting.
Have a good day people
Wishing you the best with the meeting and with your feelings about all of it. One step at a time. We see you. We are with you for support and accountability. 
@Mischa84 that’s a brutal way to start the day. You have every right to be crying. You’re not a crybaby. You’ve had lots of stuff happening and it’s only 9 o’clock in the morning. I’m sorry for all the duress. I’m glad the children didn’t hurt themselves with a piece of wire. Lots of love to you and best wishes for your day to improve. Cry cry and cry here. Hugs hug hugs and hugs to help you feel better.
