You can only do what you can do and that’s all you can do. I hope that you’re able to get some sleep and know that whatever you’ve been doing you’ve been doing your best.
Here’s big hugs for you. I’m trying to take a little of slack to get some of the burden off for you. I hope writing about it and talking about it also help some. Big hugs and lots of love.
603 sugar
467 UPF
341 gluten/dairy
Overcast day today, good morning meeting. More design work for this morning, a few errands later, and relaxing yoga in the evening.
More summer flowers for you today.
Peace and love always 
Checking in on day 991 AF.
Hope you all have a great Thursday 
Day 1671,
Just checking in have a good 24 hours 
Sorry you are feeling overwhelmed and unsupported. Hope you can find some space and time for yourself. You matter
Day 4 – Progress report: Puffy eyes edition 
Last night’s sleep? Definitely better than the night before, even if we’re still a few kilometers away from “optimal” territory. B
) are finally shrinking! No more looking like I just finished a 3-day onion-cutting marathon. 
Last but not least… Get… 
Early day 3 check in. I didn’t sleep as well last night as before. I have been watching this potential storm in the Gulf of Mexico, but it is finally shaping up as a normal rain event.
I looked a few of my old TS posts. It feels like so long ago, but it has only been about three months. What’s different this time? I’m figuring that out. I think i will journal about that this morning.
Have a terrific Thursday, everybody.
@TS66 I’ve missed you here, and I’m glad you are back 
@Scorpn I’m sorry you feel so bad. I hope you find support here, you are not alone.. 
@JazzyS hope you feel better soon!! Take a slow day to recover.. hugs for you And thank you for your support
@TeaCosy and @Von100 thank you both so much for your support
Checking in. Second night sleeping 9,5 hours. Guess I really needed it after all the stress. My cat Heron is doing pretty good already, I am so proud of him. Walking around without having a normal hip.. we humans would take ages to learn how to walk again and he’s just doing it. Love that about animals.
My dog Muis is his best friend and not leaving his side. It’s so cute I made a video but I’m not sure if I can share a video reel here but I’ll try anyway 
I’m still tired but I feel calm and still relieved. Walked 5k with Muis 
already which was really good for myself as well.
Have a great day everyone and thank you all
@Christophe oh this is so exciting. Have a wonderful time. Looking forward to hearing about your adventure.
@Lasse thanks friend. Hope your work day went well. My day is just starting here… coffee does sound good 
@Mischa84 I am the eldest in my family and I was a bully (more so when I was a teen). In my teen years. I have apologized to my siblings and we are very close ever since. They are my best friends.
@J_Lo_Ste after all this sober time you wouldn’t expect a good friend to be harping on you for your decisions. You are not missing out on anything…kinda the opposite as you are clear headed in the moment and also the day after. No wasted time for you my friend.
Yes this can feel unsettling as it is a big step - our minds make life decisions seem more anxious than they need to be. It will be a positive and happy nee beginning in a new space .
@Scorpn sending calming energy and sleep your way. Of course the emotions are high. I know when I go a day without sleeping I am on the verge of a breakdown. I am sorry that no one is helping. This is just ridiculous that you have to hold it together for everyone. You matter Renee. You deserve better. Maybe a chat with everyone and set up tasks / chores to be more helpful and set boundaries for your own sanity with others in your life.
@TeaCosy much appreciated friend. Thank you.
It sure does. Maybe write out all that you are experiencing and improving in these days so you can have it as a reminder of why you don’t want to go back to the addict version. Keep up the great work.
@Marit thanks friend. Feel a bit better today. Will take it easy and slow. What a beautiful video. I love how pets know to provide comfort and care. 
. Thanks for sharing
Checking in on Thursday morning
The week has gone by so quickly. We have the start to the Art Fair today. I am so very grateful that I don’t have to go into work as I don’t think I could handle the driving into town, the parking and all the crowds. Sleot like crap but managed a few good hours so I feel rested. Still feeling a bit off but it’s getting closer to my normal so that’s good.
Coffee is ready and calling my name ..chat with you all later…have yourselves a wonderful day
Hey all, checking in on day 1859. I hope everybody has a good one!
Morning check in. Day 15. Anxiety is up, but that’s because I got the date for the hearing, with my ex, August 1st… I got this, it’s just so much to prepare for. I’m just hoping I can keep my shit together in court, but that’s what meds are for, right?? I just want to protect my daughter, and that’s in the courts hands now which scares the crap out of me. Hopefully the judge listens and sees what I see, and what the mediator saw.
Day 746. Dealing with alot of tiredness and restless sleep. Although this is going on Im staying strong. 
Congratulations on 1 week! Enjoy your time in nature 
Checking in on day 223
Work is going to be a little overwhelming today, but then it’s a straight shot to the weekend.
Yesterday i had an interesting conversation with a coworker who asked me out to drinks. She pressed me further when i said i don’t drink, and i told her (unsure why) that i historically drink too much, so i stopped. I dont like that version of myself, i told her. She said she relates and that she always drinks three times what the people around her drink when she goes out. I dont feel like she deserved that information about me. I wish i didn’t overshare, because it rarely leads to me feeling good. And i don’t like when people say they understand when they certainly dont. If she’s an alcoholic, i wish her the best with her own recovery path. Who knows. I’m just annoyed at the whole situation and i take accountability for my part in setting that up.
Anyways. Excited for some therapy and gym time this weekend. I hope everyone is having a lovely day.
Wow 8 days with yourself. Always wanted to camp alone but never found the courage. Have a great time and share pictures when you can. Congrats on your sober days.
28 days clean from pmo.
Can’t believe that I’m at 4 weeks and I can’t believe how easy it felt to get here. I feel like there’s a shift happening.
This probably demonstrates how unhappy I was in my marriage. It felt hopeless and it’s hard to stay clean in that mindset. Also, I’ve had enough time to let go of shame and to see the value in myself. I credit this to my EMDR work with my therapist and my consistency with my al anon group.
Besides that, I’m actually kinda proud of how we are handling this. I know that we are both keeping our son’s best interests in mind and we’re not making it a sloppy and over-dramaticized event.
Still a lot to slog through but I took my time to communicate that I’d like to focus on taking small bites until we can get it all resolved. She seems to be having some understanable anxiety about how daunting this process is. But we’ll get there eventually and we’ll be good coparents.
Good afternoon friends, day 60!
Crazy work day again.. Keeps my mind off me…
Have a great day!
Afternoon check in. I’m dragged down today. Little energy. Idk if it’s just the day, the 2 weeks AF, the antibiotic, the new psych med, is it just me, or all of the above? Definitely unmotivated and dragging ass… Like yep I need to do a ton of chores, but I just don’t want to, not a good thing since it’s my last day off for 4 days, and my older two will be coming home in the next few days. Anyways. Still sober, and staying on this wagon.
