Checking in with this milestone today 
Enjoying time away with my daughter camping and having a great time. Still checking in here and still doing something every day for my recovery. It is too precious and has given me too much to ever slip down my list of priorities. I couldnāt have done it without this amazing community, so thank you all for being here on this journey with me. 
Congratulations 
1768- coming to the end of another fine day of sobriety, in some pain due to recent hand surgery but at least I donāt have to make the decision between pain relief or alcohol. Have a good one wherever you are 
There was an indie music festival which I attended. Small bands, different kind of music, all new to me. Wow it was nice happening with lovely atmosphere and things running smoothly.
Its now 89 days sober but I was tempted to order some rosewine which is very good and tasty on hot summer day. Luckily I resisted the temptation and drank only mineral water. I am very happy now for that decision.
Still I find myself little upset that I cannot have few drinks like normal people and enjoy. Thereās nothing bad to have few or several drinks every now and then and enjoy life in my opinion. But for me and for all of us itās not possible. I know it would have been the addiction instead of me ordering more drinks and wanting to get wasted. If I take the first drink the control is lost and game is over. It might feel little sad sometimes but definitely I am happy I got through it. Itās just the fact that I am Lasse and I am an alcoholic. I tough can control my addiciton and sickness by admitting them and choosing not to drink the first drink. Life is good this way and its nice to wake up tomorrow fresh and well rested.
Have a nice weekend all and remember that by admitting the weakness within you have strength to succeed.
Checking in day 571 AF 
25 months today 
And about a month caffeine free (which was such a b@@@y good idea)
I feel v comfortable being a non drinker. The rubbish i got up to was inexcusableā¦ and the constant need for another wine or beerā¦ just toxic
Work has been ok. Not as into it as usual this week but still productive
Just watched the film āparasiteā that was excellent
Going to have a slow alcohol and caffeine free weekendā¦perhaps may indulge in cheese 
159 days. Had a bit of a wobble earlier today. Was thinking of ways and means. Thinking not acting. Was painting most of today. Was thinking of a friend that I donāt speak to at the moment. Thinking too much. Feelings arose. I worked through them. Went to the supermarket to get my cousin a birthday card as Im inivited to his day party tmrw. He suggested I bring my own drink. So I picked some Ben Shaws bitter shandyās. Quite sugary. No alcohol ; below 0.05%. Did the trick this evening and grateful that I am going to bed sober . Im so vain I was just thinking of how shit and puffy my face would look if I had of drunk alcohol; and I would have drunk a lot ā¦.if I had picked upā¦ Because Iām an addict and one is NEVER enoughā¦ā¦
Thank you Doreen!
Iām late checking in again, but Iām hereā¦ #4 Done!
Well done 
You look fantastic 
Day 1258
Just checking in
Congratulations on 2 years!!!
Congratulations Kiki 
You and your 2 years of sobriety are AMAZING!!
Happy Soberversary
You do look wonderful 
keep up the great work.
Congratulations! 2 years is amazing keep up the great work!
Checking in 1214 days.
Thanks for the lovely replies on my sonās situation. Heās home now, and we are walking on eggs shells a little. Withdrawing from a lot of nicotine plus teenage hormones, a fun combo for us all. Just trying to be there for him and hoping he takes better care of himself. Itās really hard to surrender control as a parent, eventually youāre only left to guide and hope they make good choices as they get older. It fills me with so much worry.
In other news, Iām still crocheting a lot which is so relaxing for me. Iāve been selling some of my work and started a small page on Instagram which has been a nice side hobby for me. I also have a new planted aquarium thatās been so fun and relaxing to tend to. I have some new little fish babies that were born yesterday! So fascinating to watch.
Anywho, much love to you all. To staying sober today 
511
Terrible sleep for a couple of months has me in a fog. That isnāt a happy feeling. So Iām going to rest all of tonight and tomorrow. Iām doing it. Iāve had a good week.
Love to all
Checking in on day 231
@JazzyS Iām okay today. Thank you for asking.
Itās my day off. I had to cut my gym time short but therapy went well and was much needed. Iām just in a bit of a funk. I realize itās because this was a difficult and exhausting week and i was up sick last night too. However- I checked online and my first schedule for the new job is posted!! As most of the difficulties from this week wouldnāt have hit me so hard over there, Iāve decided that Iāll hold onto whatās coming and try to have some hope.
Day 144, thought I was closer to 150 than that but I guess the counter doesnt lie.
Had a chat with my sponsor that led to me in tears of frustration, not understanding 4th step work and feeling like I cant do it. And if I cant do the program, I might as well drink. And truly I dont want to drink, despite cravings and all that I truly want to be sober. So im having a lot of anxiety about it, the future of my sobriety and how hard its going to be to recover.
So I know I just need to take the rest of the day easy, probably stay in the house and find some project to do. A nice long guided meditation is probably a good idea, or some drawing/coloring.
The icky thoughts are sticking around. Im not going to drink today. Maybe tomorrow, but not today.
I know you guys are all with me and that helps a lot 
Evening check in on Day 211
Had a busy day filled with cleaning and food prep.
Hope everyone has had a good day . Stay safe and sober everyone
Congratulations on your 2 years sober
3y 4m 23d no self harm
Im convinced every day is my last one clean. somehow continue to stay clean. however I must admit Iām in the depths of substance abuse and multiple eating disorders. I cannot ask for help because insurance will not cover anywhere (Iāve been in and out of mental health/eating disorder treatment for the last year and half Iāve exhausted all options). I have no interest in getting sober if Iām being honest. Iām not ready for that. I will not survive without my substance of choice
