Day 13
Hello everyone,
After reading your testimonials, in which you sincerely share your experiences of suffering and recovery, I have been thinking about something that I would like to share. I hope it will inspire something positive.
Suffering, and the awareness of one’s limitations, has an involuntary aspect that cannot be ignored. In this state of mind, it is often unrealistic to believe that one can immediately find the strength to “surpass oneself” and resist everything.
But suffering does not necessarily mean giving up. It can also be a revelation: I was living in an illusion, and that is no longer enough for me. I know that I will always have limitations. Yet I want to push them back, I want to keep fighting.
There is no definitive end, only moments of lucidity and opportunities for criticism. My will is limited: by my body, by my means, by my family and those around me. But there is still a flame inside me. It is thanks to this desire to do well that I can begin to evolve, step by step.
When you have been tested, drained, you don’t rush headlong into hope. You move forward with lucid effort, sometimes even heroic effort (let’s not be afraid to say it!).
What drives me today is learning to live with my despair, to transform it, and sometimes even to be grateful for it. Like those who practice gratitude on a daily basis (and they are quite right to do so!).