Ok, no problemo 
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One weekend of work to go before I’m off for two weeks. There’s an outbreak of norovirus at the clinic so let me try and be as diligent as I can, follow protocol, and stay healthy. One day at a time. Going to have as good a day as I can. Sober and clean for sure. Love from the edge of town.
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138 days AF. Gonna fly to Italy tomorrow and staying there 10 days. Have a nice Saturday everyone! I am gonna do the preparations today.
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Delicious. I’m convinced Indian vegetarian food is better than anything with meat in it!! 
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@Tragicfarinelli Omg, I’m so glad I’m not trippin about this movie! I’m seriously mad I can’t find it 
It’s not the first time either. I searched for days for another one that I remember way more details about and…nothing! Like it never existed 
Tf?!
You do what you have to do. Sobriety has to be #1 at all times, no matter what. Period.
@Noshame Huge congrats on a whole year substance free 
I know how long and hard you struggled with this last one, so it’s awesome to see this accomplishment for you 
@JazzyS Yeah, I’ve been wondering about Goku too. I know he was going thru it 
Same 
I still have the first pair I ever got from Claire’s! (And that show would be sick 
)
“In matters of taste” is the original quote. Completely losing the intention with the second half. And people just ran with it 
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@Just_Laura do you think we imagined these things? Sometimes I will be convinced by something and recite stuff to my wife and I realise it was a dream and never happened… 
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592 days AF
I transitioned my addiction to eating yesterday and the day before. Felt very bad, had physical and mental pain, itchy skin… I made it to a swim anyway yesterday. Will take the weekend to recover, drink nettle tea, eat normal, so on. Groceries, cleaning… and a swim.
Started journaling again. Helped me to reflect deeply on the bad eating.
Had a situation at work where I don’t feel comfortable with at all. Not sure how I will handle it. My voice is insecure these days.
Anyway, have a good day, stay on the bright side!
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Okay, so my dad’s back in the hospital. Still trying to figure out what’s wrong with him. Bc of the way he came home from rehab the last time, completely brand new, but got increasingly worse at home, I’ve been saying it probably has something to do with nutrition. Well, I’ll be damned 
he was dehydrated and low in potassium and sodium…again! A couple weeks ago I suggested electrolytes or nutrition drinks like ensure, but I guess I should’ve just went and bought them 
And apparently he doesn’t take vitamins either. Which I found flabbergasting bc my mom has always been about them our whole lives. They’ve been focusing primarily on his heart being the issue, and yeah, I understand why and maybe it is, but how have they overlooked something so simple that can cause so much damage?! He literally had bloodwork last week! I’m beyond frustrated with the healthcare system. Nothing is communicated, so no one has the whole story. It’s impossible for me to be at every appt and know what’s going on. And yeah, my mom was an RN, but has always had memory issues due to brain damage from a car accident before I was born, so she’s not retaining all the information either. Like yesterday, apparently a Dr. came in going off on what was going on, but wasn’t actually explaining anything and didn’t give them a chance to ask any questions! They didn’t know the diagnosis until they read the paper he gave them…after he left! Fuck this hospital 
It has 2 stars on Google! My mom chose this hospital when the ambulance asked where to take him. We only have an ER in my city, so odds are he’d be transferred anyways and she was probably trying to skip that step, but it’s 45 minutes away and she doesn’t want to drive alone. My brother drove her yesterday when he first went in, but had plans today so I drove (I was obviously going anyway). Turned out his ‘plans’ are camping all weekend, when, maybe in the first time in history, I have Saturday AND Sunday off 
I feel like this sounds incredibly selfish, but I need this time off! I’ve hardly been able to take care of anything in my house and have hardly seen my daughter at all since school started. The reason I’m thinking this way is bc my brother quit his job back in spring to study for his CDL, but hasn’t pursued it since! He lives across the street from our parents, but has hardly done a thing to help since this all started months ago! I’m taking care of my daughter, basically alone (aside from our mother who’s also caring for our father), too exhausted from working full time to take care of my own home half the time, trying to help my mom when/if I can, while he’s enjoying every hour of the summer, seemingly “too busy" to do any favors 
The whole time I lived with him while he was drinking, his no. 1 worry was he’d get stuck taking care of mom after dad died 
Like, I was gonna abandon them! Now he’s 6 years sober and can’t be bothered to walk across the street?! 
Ugh! I’m just so tired 
The cherry on top, I didn’t have much breakfast before leaving, didn’t eat lunch up there, had just enough time to run out for a slice of pizza before work. As soon as I got to the register, there was a power surge that froze their system. All I wanted was some damn pizza and offered $5 cash ($2 more than it cost) just so I could take it. The cashier mumbled that he couldn’t do it and walked away 
Went to work starving for what ended up being the longest dinner shift I’ve worked in a while 
Looking at the bright side, the exercise lifted my mood and the cash was flowing more than usual. I’m the first to say money doesn’t buy happiness, but the money itself made me happy tonight 
Fuck it. Another day won in the end 
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Doing fine👍
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The Krampus thing, maybe 
It was a long time ago and I could be remembering it all wrong, but not this other movie. It wasn’t long ago, it’s possible I watched it sober, and I remember the entire plot and minute details, just not the name. I WATCHED IT! I wrote everything I could remember on this website specifically designed to help you find movie titles, and nothing matched! It exists!
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Been drinking in the evenings the whole summer but been productive and depression has been away for months. I have almost no regrets, just waste of money and health. I have had a log building project during the summer and still going on. I’m renovating my familys old outdoor sauna believed build 1948. Replaced/rebuild rotten logs with new ones. About 5 layers will be replaced (4 walls x 5, about 20 logs). The project has been very motivating and essential part for my mental health recovering. Well i could be even better without alcohol but i haven’t been able to be without it. At least i don’t start drinking straight in the morning, i start working with the project as soon as i do my morning routines. I work 4-8 hours depending the weather. Sometimes i start drinking at the last hours of my ”shift” and drink while i work. Sometimes i can work sober until i stop working about 16-18 pm. Still not proud of my drinking ofc and the group and you members have been in my mind. I have just thought that it’s not right to check-in if i drink every day. Life is quite good at the moment and i have new plans for near future. I still see my drinking problematic and would like to stop even for a month because again it’s waste of money and health.
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welcome. 
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6.88 months AF. No desire for alcohol. 
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Checking in on early day 7
I delay going to sleep. And even when I’m in bed, I stay awake most of the night.
I have disturbing dreams. Long adventures where I am a migrant who, for some absurd and trivial reason, finds myself being checked. And the lack of resources for efficient and dignified administrative procedures is catastrophic. Many of us are treated like dogs. The situations are degrading, the trials make me lose my dignity. I manage to escape, I am caught again, transferred. It never ends.
And when the outcome finally arrives, when someone helps me, a young woman, I wake up. This morning I told my wife about my dream, and as I finished my story, the last scene in which my loneliness ends, I was overcome with emotional distress. I burst into tears as I told her that I hugged this young woman and thanked her.
In fact, I keep my emotions bottled up until the mental and emotional burden of my solitary trials can be safely released.
I understand that I will remain alone as I continue through life, which is the same for everyone, isn’t it?
For us here in the TS community, I believe we fell into addiction because we didn’t want to live with this daily struggle. Living life as a responsible adult, because of the difficulties, because of the misfortunes and absurdity of this world.
Addiction is a shortcut, a trap that prevented us from facing up to things.
Now I accept life. Mine isn’t great, but the challenges are there and I have to face them. That’s life.
Here is a photo I took that expresses this emotional distress that must be managed. It is the entrance to Neptune’s Cave near Couvin, Belgium.
Have a good day everyone. 
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Great game night yesterday, not too much sleep though. Time to take care of IT-tools and plants today, some yoga later and lots of chilling for the rest of the day.
More graffiti today.
Peace and love always 
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I really think you encapsulate that perfectly. What an impressive yet horrific natural environment. I feel trapped and scared just looking at it.
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Hey dear Jasmine 
, thank you so much for remembering me – I really appreciate it! A lot has happened in the past three weeks. Every single day I still prepare my smoothie 
and take time to meditate 
, and this combo has become a solid pillar of my routine. Without these two elements, I know I’d feel much weaker.
My body has responded amazingly to this stretch of sobriety 
– my fitness and health are clearly moving forward, everything feels so much better, even though sleep hasn’t always been great. But we all know that in early sobriety sleep can be tricky.
There were some relapses along the way, but I’m learning from each one. I’m divorced, with two children – my daughter is grown, and my 15-year-old son is fully focused on his friends and activities. I’m glad he has his own world, but at times it feels like I’m completely invisible to him. Yesterday it hit me hard, and I cried a lot. Still, I realized this is truly the end of one chapter in my life… and the beginning of a brand new one.
In my mind, I wrapped up my entire past in a big package 
and let it float away on a river into the unknown 
. Now I’m stepping into this new phase lighter, freer, and more determined than ever.
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DAY 16
Hello everyone! I woke up a bit too tired because sleeping is still quite unstable, but although I feel a bit down, I am very happy to have skipped last night’s dinner and chosen myself instead of pleasing others.
Today I am grateful for:
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Completing a new painting
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Being able to tap into many sources of encouragement
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Having a safe space where I can work. I know that I am in the right place at the right moment.
Have a good next 24 hours of sobriety!!!
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This is amazing wisdome!
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Hey all, checking in on day 1917. I hope everybody has a good one 
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