@Jane.c thank you! Just got a lump in my throat so kind and unexpected. I genuinely get so much from this group more than i can ever give back… we may all have / had or have problems but the kindness and empthy i read on here daily shows truly decent, strong people … understanding and non judgemental… not something i feel closer to home… and you on 201!! Fabulous 
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@GVLNative hello so good we doing well ? Since Sunday i been lots better think because i did not throw towel in its given me renewed confidence (reminds me off 100 m hurdles race). Have a good SMART meeting… catch up tomorrow.
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And me!
Day 39 check in…
My son was due to go back to uni today but decided to stay until sat… we having such a good time talking etc… normally i am working out when i can get a wine in knowing my son knew i was thinking that as well… the fact he has extended his stay and i dont have the exhausting thoughts working out when i can drink is sooooo good
Been a rewarding day
@Fargesia_murielae That happens to me with my daily meditation as new to the practice. I get so frustrated that my mind wanders to e.g. my shopping list!! I googled it and apprently all common so dont be hard on yourself… i have started wearing headphones which helps a little…
Have a great day all keep strong 
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@anon60334405 sorry for your loss.
@CapriciousCapricorn 60 days!! 
@Chrispl congrats on 30 days!! Stay strong 
Second check in.
because I am sick at home, and the flu is not so bad anymore … I have a lot of time to think, too much time … I have been thinking and reading (here on TS) a lot about recovery in the last few days. what I did well, what not. the way I am now in life compared to a few years ago. Why did I relapse many times.
maybe the flu has come at the right time. because it feels like a detox to me, heavy dreams about using, have the feeling of unwinding. the last few weeks I was very irritated and angry about my 3773829292837th slip. exercising is good for recovery, BAM! going to the gym 4 times a week. meditation is good for recovery, BAM meditate every evening. Going to meetings is good for my recovery, BAM! I went to 4 meetings a week. Also having a full-time job. It was not very balanced…
talking about my emotions and problems is not my strongest characteristic. I prefer to talk about sports, work, music and festivals or hobbies. I’ve read a lot here the last few days, I read more than I respond … I’ve learned a lot about recovery, emotions and being honest about problems.
In the coming days I will make plans how I will live my life with more balance.
I would like to thank everyone for their share on this forum 
Stay strong!!
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So annoying not completed 1 meditaion without my mind wandering off… going to try a mantra in my head… but do get something from it. Every little bit helps
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ITS DAY 38 not 39 getting ahead of myself 
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Love the coast great picture… your smile says it all. Congrats on your standing as Secretary at Aa
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Well done, fellow struggler 
Many hold to the “complete abstinence” solution for our addictions - it has to be true, but such a challenge. I hope you have good support where you are, people who can listen to you and help you progress.
We certainly have a wonderful group here to teach out to.
Take care, one day at a time
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Checking in after a spell ‘unplugged’ from daily visits to the app.
Feeling more settled and ok with myself and the world… Learning that it’s me that I need to ‘regulate’, more than anything or anyone else.
Go well, people - onwards and upwards as they say!
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Woo hoo, day 92. For do long I told myself my drinking was ok, but it wasn’t really ideal and I knew it. Taking it one day at a time is so helpful for me. I used to think of not drinking as what I was always planning for tomorrow. Now I’m sober today.
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Hurdles, l ran hurdles once. I repeat once!!! 
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I’m thinking of going there in summer with the children,!..it is in Ireland isn’t it??!
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Cool…not Northern Ireland…but north of Ireland?..
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Oh 
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- Today I went into work, had a coffee and a cigarette, threw on some death metal and concentrated on food. I had some stock in my fridges that I need to shift so I spent the day dismantling some old recipes and trying to improve them
Smoked Salmon roulade - Crusted with chervil, parsley and coriander with Lemon garlic and chervil aioli
Roasted carrot, sweet potato and red onion croquettes - Tartare Sauce mixed with Sun Dried and smoked Tomato pesto
Panettone Bread and Butter Pudding with Honey and Vanilla Ice-cream and dusted with Cinamon
Scruit (Screw-it) Sponge (Chocolate orange)
The ingredients for sponge are pretty standard - equal parts sugar, butter and self raising flour, 1 egg per 50g, 25ml milk per 50g and a dash of salt.
The thing I hate about cakes and pastry is all the method and the rules; theres no fun to it. So today, I decided to make a cake but “Screw It” to the method. I purposely did everything wrong to see what came out; from letting it sink, using the wrong flour, setting the oven to 10% steam/90% dry, cutting it in half straight out the oven and glazing and dressing it while it was still hot. @LuluJo would be ever so angry
It’s my favourite cake recipe yet. The orange in the side ramekin is Blood orange sorbet
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Ha ha… used to be my best race at school! So got to use same mentality to break each of them down!
Looks almost edible chef!
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