Checking in daily to maintain focus #8

Woo-hoo!! Congrats Shay. 200 is fantastic!

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@Jane.c @crystalclear
I have the same issue with eating. I polished off a carton of Chunky Monkey :monkey: ice cream last night right before bed (soooo good).

Why did I do that; not sure; but I was starving for ice cream? I am taking the approach of out working my appetite in exercise. I ride my bike and walk constantly to work off enough calories so it balances my eating. I am hoping my eating ramps down soon; but for now I am rolling with it.

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I get that. Iā€™ve been ā€œrollingā€ with it for 154 daysā€¦ I canā€™t out exercise the calories Iā€™m consuming. At my age as a woman what I put in mouth impacts my weight more than anything. Trying to build some muscle :muscle: and dial back the eating. @Jane.c Iā€™ve been doing lazy keto. Need to look into whole 30. Do you have any links you can share? Feel free to DM me so we donā€™t derail the thread.

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Thank you everyone. Wouldnā€™t be able to do it without you guys!

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Day 43ā€¦checking in friendsšŸ˜Š

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Hey Chris,
Man do I relate to this. My wife and I have been through hell. Mostly of my own creation. I doubt the God of my understanding and that I an actually doing His works when I sit at my desk during the long winter months.

I study the big book to help me with my sex addiction and Iā€™m getting pretty familiar with it. Reading your words, a passage from How It Works came to mind.
It helps me to read it when Iā€™m stuck there in that mindset (which I am often) and also to talk to my sponsor about it. I hope you find your way to calmer waters soon.


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Checking in. Lots of posts about eating in recovery today. I notice my relationship with food is different without alcohol and Iā€™m trying to be really mindful about it, trying to avoid obsessive eating or eating disorder behaviors. Alcohol is sugar, so it makes sense that we crave more sugar and carbs after quitting. I keep reminding myself, what Iā€™m trying to do in general, in this journey, is be more fully present, fully conscious, sober, aware, in the moment. Not giving into every craving, for food or alcohol, but noticing the feelings and trying to be more deeply aware, of what I need and want beyond putting stuff in my mouth. That may mean sometimes, Iā€™m hungry for ice cream and thatā€™s ok and I can take joy in it. But it also means, ideally, being conscious that one serving is enough, and I can notice the sugar-cravings after that, but wait them out, not do what they tell me, any more than I have to listen to the wine-cravings or the beer-cravings. Sometimes comfort eating stops us figuring out what comfort else might mean, and what itā€™s like to be ok with discomfort for a little while.

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Hey lovely people, checking in on day 80 had a good week felt like a corner has been turnt.xx

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Hi team, crikey day 23ā€¦ hope everyone is doing good, keep strong. :innocent:

Not checked properly today, had my son visit from Uni which is a lovely surprise, taking him back to train station this evening, so booked into gym straight after as do not want to go home feeling upset and feeling vunerable. We went out for a lovely walk in the sunshine albeit cold with the dog, wrapped up, then had tea and cheese toastie in my van. Lovely to spend QUALITY time chatting about all sorts with him - and more importantly listening properly. He knows I am doing this and really proud of me and that I seem happier. He has noted my chocolate and sweet intake has dramatically increased :grinning:

Hope everyone is having a strong day, will catch up with all the posts later, I need to read these daily as found all experiences in someway resonate and motivate me.

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You sound miserable. Anger is painful. You feel like youā€™re not getting what you need. I donā€™t know exactly what you need but I think you probably do on some level, and itā€™s definitely not alcohol or drugs. Maybe take off work and go for a really long run or walk, be outside, move, maybe punch it out with some kickboxing, maybe do some meditation, go to a meeting, take care of yourself. You can do it.

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I hate that you feel this way and that the community didnā€™t rally for you when you needed it. Iā€™ve been on here less lately with work being busy. I too feel like I canā€™t make meetings as much with work. I understand why youā€™d be angry and feel unseen given that your post didnā€™t get responded to quickly. Some days thereā€™s a lag between posts and responses. Looks like your original one was just about an hour ago. That can feel like forever but in internet time itā€™s not that long. :blush: You really have been a great contributor on here from what Iā€™ve seen. I hope you give the forum some grace and know that there are people who care about you. :raising_hand_woman:t2: As far as the anger goesā€¦ I find exercise is the only thing that really releases anger other than just time. If you can expend any of that anger in a healthy way today, please do it!

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@Mno slurpen zal ik !! Bedankt gap :v:
Checking in, putting in overtime @ work just to not be home and its a heavy beĆÆng home without fleeing towards the west every timeā€¦ cant keep on running away, but my brain-circuits R electric and wired to crazy myself.
@Lisa07 , you make me smile by making you so thereā€™s the pic of the day (The friendly me gave away some old jeans for the couse)


@Fargesia_murielae , hoessie daar ? En bedankt voor het denken aan mij, het word gevoeld en met liefde ontvangen :v::heart::v:
Up north @ #050 , love to yaā€™llllllllllllalalalaaa

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Since I only get a certain number of likes a day I donā€™t like every post. And I skim a lot because like I said Iā€™m at work most of the day and pop on every now and then. Your response makes me regret replying to you at all. Is that what youā€™re going for? Pushing people away? Because if you keep up this line of posts Iā€™m pretty sure that would happen. I actually felt compassion for you and intentionally looked for your original post so I could see what was going on with you. I spent my time reading what was going on and then trying to respond in an empathetic way & you choose to respond with more anger and not very nicely. Iā€™m done spending time on this today. I hope you get what you need. I truly do. But I donā€™t think I can provide it.

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Thank you so much Joy. Your doing so well also, keep up the good work.

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So sorry Chris. I donā€™t recall seeing a struggling post from you. :cry:

The ā€˜trafficā€™ on here overwhelms me at times. :no_mouth:

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Ja damn right , deze man is zijn eigen vijand en niemands vriend door zo te postenā€¦ respectloos :v::heart::v:

@Mtrav0040 did actually reply to you buddy with the passage on resentment.
You need to let go. You ainā€™t doing anyone or yourself any good.
I found acceptance has always helped

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So glad Iā€™m not alone in this. Itā€™s a complicated relationship I have with food.

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AHH mate whatā€™s going on I havenā€™t seen any of your post other wise I would of reached out for sure you been on the same time line as reach out if you want a chat

Youā€™re doing exactly what your describing in your first post 2 hours ago. Youā€™re saying fuck everything. Youā€™re taking your anger out on everybody in sight, Youā€™re destroying your sobriety. Stop it right here please. Make an extra effort to get to a meeting. Donā€™t throw your sobriety away.

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