Day 786
Wanted to jump in to say that all is good over here, still sober but busy with life. Half Europe is in alert mode now bc of Corona 
Some ppl think now the zombie apocalypse starts 
Sheesh…
Life goes on 
Have a beautiful sober day friends, and don’t turn into zombies please 
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End of day 22,
,had lots of thoughts of picking up booze after work,they wouldn’t go away!..re-ran the detox days 1,2,3 in my mind,also I ‘thought’ about drinking,cos to try not to think about it would make it worse,like the ‘dont think of elephants’,had some dinner and they went away…kids have been awesome tonight,I’ve been calm…tired!.. GRATEFUL THAT I AM SOBER!
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Ha yea, it’s not a very nice realisation to come to. Like even though it’s not exactly a surprise to hear that I’m the one standing in my own way, it’s not something I really want to admit to!
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Day 8 sober. Day of fasting. Good for my spirit. I hope to be all this Lent sober
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Makes sense to me.
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Yes! That was something else that came up in CBT, we’re not getting a personality transplant (dammit!).
At this point I have to remind myself that I can’t predict the future. Things will change, they always do. And they will likely change in ways that I can’t anticipate right now.
I guess the point is that we change our perceptions of ourselves, rather than changing core self. I’m still working on finding the wisdom to know the difference between the things I can change and those I can’t.
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Like @Fargesia_murielae said you probably have more of an idea than you realise.
I remember when I was doing yoga I had this realisation that every time I went deeper into a pose, it wasn’t just like 
that’s done. My edge moved, there was further to lean or twist or stretch. But that was ok because my expectation was never to achieve a specific pose. I was getting stronger and feeling better and that was enough.
Something about expectations and resentments… 
But also yes, bloody annoying how much patience is required to learn patience!
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When will it be delivered?
Heb limbabse ouders, geboren in Gouda en opgetogen @ 050 
, home is where the hart lives but mine is shatterd all across 
Gozert met een lange e en r of op zn Haags, daar komt me opoe weg. Choices choices 
slaap goed en gezond weer wakkkaaah
It was 22:22 (nummerlogy) when i started on the post … and then look at the picture nrs… but i just have to stay up til it hits the 150 days.
Ben&Jerrys is my sponsor till then 
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No one likes feeling vulnerable. But when we crawl out of the hole and feel stronger again, if we’re honest it’s those moments of weakness we learn the most from.
I’m currently thinking a lot about how I deal with failure (badly). Our lovely friend @aircircle recently reminded me that there are no friends or enemies, only teachers. Feels like it’s relevant to you too.
Glad to see you here, and to hear that the anger isn’t leading the way. Hope you have the time and space to work on whatever it was that was causing it 
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Saturday. So i will get like 2 days before it snows again haha.
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What’s happening Chad?
Hope you’re feeling a bit better now
I don’t think You should even stress out about achieving new record.
Relax, take it easy 
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False, people do go feel vulnerable and they like it, when they step out of their comfort zone.
That’s how the growth takes place.
Fair enough,I don’t doubt it’s where the good stuff happens.
I definitely don’t like feeling vulnerable at the time though!
I get Your point, since getting vulnerable is like double edged sword - it can hurt You, or it can make You stronger, depending on how You’ll handle the situation.
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Hi @siand - Thanks for the words. I’ve had some time today to calm my nerves and think about other things and figure out what I’m going to do about it. I deal with shit best when I just get on with it. So tomorrow heres what I need to do.
10 lemon mousse + 20 shortbread biscuits
10 pannacotta bread & Butter puddings and 10 portions of creme anglais
Braise 12 lamb legs, Debone and boudin
6 litres of Pea and pink peppercorn soup
Clean out the air condition units, clean out oven, write rotas for next 2 weeks, write new spring menu, mothers day menu, curry night menu…meeting with my butcher at 2pm and finally a meeting with a couple at 4pm for a wedding who want a Greek BBQ
…Lest the complaining and the anger, time to just get on with it
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Checking in on day 25. Today is the first day I’ve had any type of cravings but I did not give in and honestly they’ve already passed. I know I’m so much better off without alcohol.
Hope you all are getting through the day okay 
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So much victory! Congratulations!
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this must be pretty close now. Great news, by the time I’ve scrolled down the page it will be there 150 awesome days.
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