@Juli1 Congratulations on the
61696393.50 Sober Heartbeats and counting!!! That’s great!!
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Chcking in on day 47.
Lunch break at work. 4 more hours to go 
Got a busy weekend ahead of me. Not a lot of time to have cravings or think about alcohol. Great! 
Hope your friday is going well where ever you are
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Wicked burnt out this weekend, friends - just been non-stop for weeks 
Got some free time this weekend though thankfully and working on getting back into my routines, doing my meditations, focusing on the positives and all that good stuff
Love & Solidarity to all 
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Morning from Wet Scotland Storm Amy on its way my poor garden thats 4 this year 70mph winds . batten down the hatches 39 years 17 days for this old fart everyone have a great weekend
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Good morning
Checking in on day
877 no alcohol
386 no form of marijuana
517 nic free
It’s a slippery slope
I’m craving that CBD but if I take a step back what do I really want. I want numb. For me, CBD is just 1 step closer to THC and so on. CBD isn’t too bad but the way I look at it is if I don’t do CBD I won’t do THC either
Damn I love pot. I obsess over it. I hate it but obsess over it. So weird the addicted mind. Twisted. I wonder if there is a picture for that in the horror pic there? I was looking at that this morning. You guys are twisted 
Short work week this week. I work today, personal paid day tomorrow off (working on not being so exhausted or burnt out) then just 3 days after that
I woke up at 4:00 in the morning today. Finally got out of bed early enough to wake up a bit.
Stay awesome talking sober fam
Try not to pick up today :). Use coping skills then take a look back and see how your day was be4 sleep
Just for today
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That’s an awesome story😊 and thanks
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Keep going, 30 days is no small feat. I’m 14 months in and the first month was by far the most difficult on every level psychologically and physically. I know you can get out of that lonely place. I lost my driver’s license 9 years ago and gave up thinking I’ll never get it back (which oddly enough encouraged more drinking out of hopelessness) but since I sobered up I finally got it back and hope to get the hell out of here in more ways than one. I’m convinced if I can do it anyone can. Just remember, whatever happened to you back there has no bearing on what’s in front of you.
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Super quick check in on day 43. Gotta go with my soul daughter to the dentist as she is quite nervous. Figure I can catch up here while she’s there. See ya soon. Light & Love TS friends 
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Day 6
I’m going round in circles and I want to give up. Of course that’s not the solution, of course one day at a time is possible, of course life is a choice and self-destruction is also a choice. But what is the meaning, what is moral?
To lose my way? I feel like I’ve been doing that all my life, out of obligation, out of rage, or consciously.
When I have to do my duty, I do it. For others. But deep down, I’m unhappy because the world angers me and so many things make me despair. I refuse to be what others want me to be, a shadow of myself. Yet that’s exactly what I’ve become: a shadow of myself.
Like millions of people, I feel abandoned. It’s true, I have established and adhere to standards, a moral code, an ethic. I have honorable convictions and common sense. That’s not nothing. Compared to an Islamic extremist, who also has a moral code, ethics, and common sense, I feel much more honest with all of that, but I’m uncomfortable. Because I feel alone with my principles, my humanity.
Life is unfair when you’re an addict. Because neurobiological changes have turned us into castaways who try to walk straight and fear falling. I experience this every day, or almost every day. I wait impatiently for the sun to set so I can experience a moment of sober serenity.
I admit I’m feeling a bit miserable today. What am I trying to do by writing all this? To persuade you, to persuade myself that I am being persecuted, that it is someone else’s fault? It is not a question of fault, just of powerlessness. It is the frustration of not being able to do what I want. It is laziness, stupidity. I am stupid and I waste my time complaining.
I have to get this defeatism out of my head. And the best way to do that is to get busy. Build, tidy up, clean, go for a run. That’s the difference. Extremists vent their frustration through violence. I do something much better with it.
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Hey all, checking in on day 1937. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Waking up before the birds again, it is quiet and peaceful. In these early morning hours. No plans for the day. But to live it, and not waste it. Enjoy all that I can. Controlling what I can, which the number one thing on the list is choosing not to picking up and letting go of the rest!
Staying sober with my TS friends.
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My grandfather used to always tell me that “there’s nothing more to life than life” and when I was a kid I just thought it was a silly thing he said and I think I enjoyed the repetition of words, rather than understood it. But it’s true, and so simple to me now. There’s no mystery, it’s just geology and science and cells. If you live your life with zero moral and motivation no-one truly cares apart from those who love and depend on you. But time will pass regardless of what you do with it; whether you sit still and watch the minutes drip away with pain in your soul, or go run a 5 minute mile and feel great, time doesn’t care and will not acknowledge you.
To be consciously and actively mortal (IMO) is to accept that we have and must bear the weight of active humility, and the giant responsibility of each other. Even those we dislike or do not respect. Because if we all take out a thread in the carpet the fabric soon falls apart. Try to have pride and courage for your own morals and convictions and keep your side of the street clean… We are only in control of that.
For the mood; get the dopamine going. A run sounds perfect with some kick ass tunes blasting. Hot shower 
I hope you feel better. The world is a beautiful place despite the crazy.
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Thank you! Yes I’m confident that this is just a transitory phase that will last as long as it is intended to! Congratulations on your 14 months 
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Great words! Thank you 
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This is beautiful it deserves to be repeated @Tragicfarinelli
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@Just_Laura Thank you for your kind words of encouragement. Of all the things I have quit (including dope) this has been the hardest. I was on the auto accept for too long. That’s why I just burned any bridges that might lead there and changed my number.
@Leveller Sending renewing energy vibes. My boys help me get moving too lol. Thank you for your sweet words
@Lucalds Definitely… If people would respect sobriety and not constantly try to get me to fall back, maybe it would be more tolerable. Thank you and congrats on 36 days… and your note on offering comfort was stated perfectly. And that’s why this community is amazing.
So many others I probably missed. But I love you all. I hope everyone has a FANTASTICAL FRIDAY
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- Hello from my Swing, Slide and Ride station this morning. The 3rd day of my Winter Arc personal challenge is partially complete. Double class completed today. I came back from my early early class and made us baked overnight oats (protein powder, berries and almonds). When my other half went into central London I walked back up to the gym and did a big weightlifting class and also did chores at the local shops on the way home. I did make a bit of a mistake and let myself sugar crash (I should have eaten again) which resulted in me wolfing a whole packet of sweets from the shop. Oh well, I’m not perfect. I still did two hours of exercise and over 12k steps by lunch, so all is good. Ate a healthy lunch and now back on track. I’m making a short rib lasagne for tea with salad
Big football game tonight, very exciting. Apart from that, I’m attending my normal Friday afternoon ACOA meeting and doing a bit of a tidy up. I desperately need to go and poke my cat Bluey all afternoon to see how he likes being awoken. Little shit is getting me up every night at 2-3am for cuddles. I wake at 5.30am as it is. He’s such a beautiful annoying baby 
. ODAAT. 
@Just_Laura HIIT is a big HIIT with me. 
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You are not alone, but amongst millions of recovering addicts who have found a purpose with this disease. I think we are special 
This too, my friend, shall pass.
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Exactly. I actually deleted most of my social media because that’s nearly as triggering as life. I surely would still be in the first “hole of relapse” if it weren’t for you and the many others here.
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Take a deep breath my friend. Let go of all the outside chaos of the world crazy. Focus on something else. Get out there and take a walk in nature if you can( take your daughter and wife). Watch a funny movie. Do not let your addiction demon, waste the day! You got this day!
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