I’m with ya on that
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Friday morning work check-in. Day 60 on this streak. Will be two months sober tomorrow. I’m crushing life this week. Getting lots done, and enjoying lots of quality time with my daughter, and my sister visiting from out of town. Going to stay at my front foot, and keep it going.
Have a great rest of your day.
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Morning check in on day 80. Around the world in 80 days. All’s well. I’m tempted to litter this post with Jules Verne references, but I’ll spare us all. Excelsior!
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That’s a great point. Glad you were able to have a mini reunion without letting the past get the best of you 
@Leveller hope you got the motivation you needed as the day progressed. Got a love Alfie…a natural energy booster and motivator of sorts 
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I love it. It’s great to have you here. I totally look forward to seeing my friends and hearing about their days ..this community has become a home in a way
@Jesile good luck with the boss. Smart to stay ahead of yourself and notice when you need that extra check in or support. Fles them muscles and have a wonderful day
I love it ..keep moving forward 
hope you do get time for yourself in all that busyness
@Ray_M_C_Laren oh I’m so sorry Ray… another big storm? Hope you and your garden are going to be ok. 
@Noshame stay strong my friend…that mind is just going through the process…it won’t last. Addiction is weird and twisted. You are winning!! Lol…that thread does have some twisted pics 
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100%… The addict mind feeds into your insecurities and needs. You most definitely can push forward ODAAT…you have us here and your recovery tools. No need to feed into this negative thoughts or behaviors. Find the things you enjoy and keep yourself busy…no need for the addiction to take any more from you. Love your life fully and with clarity
@PositiveThoughts well done on your 60 days! Glad you are enjoying the time with us and daughter
@TS66 nicely done Trey! 80 days and going strong
Checking in on Friday morning… happy Friday my peeps 
Feeling off still. Mom doing better so will try to get in my swim this morning…I should be heading that way but dragging so drinking a cup of coffee to get me moving
Have a fabulous day y’all…
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There is so much going in your life.
Thats crazy.
So, i guess you’ll just leave it till you leave the place?
I would have literally busted the door or just called for an investigation by now.
And, if was ghosts, you already know who Im calling on. 
My boy, the holiest of all.
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1773… No Alcohol
69… No Lust
Just going to have a kickass weekend with my son. Rain or not, we’re going for it!
Have a good weekend, everyone.
Enjoy the blessings.
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Day 1328
Morning check in 
Well, today I will be making a plan for this teachers strike coming up on Monday. My son will no longer have school and I wont be able to go to my usual gym as I wont have time for myself until this strike is over. But i will be attempting to go to the gym in my building for 530am whenever our part time nurse works. It will be a stretch to get my butt up on time, but I cant fall back. I MUST try! I got my blood results back and I have above normal cholesterol levels… jeez. I dont want health complications bcuz of this so its time to get even more serious about my health.
Today I am going to attend my ED support group at 10am. Then head to the gym for a 1 hour workout before picking up my son from the bus at 1pm. Then, will do some cleaning of our apartment. Thats about it for my day. Will also make sure to pray and do my gratitude list for a positive mindset.
Have a great Friday everyone!
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@MTSober Enjoy the weekend with ur son. Have fun!
@JazzyS Hope u start feeling better friend. Maybe the swim will help 
@TS66 Great job on 80 days Trey! 
@PositiveThoughts Excited for ur 2 months tmrw!! Thats fabulous!!!
@Nordique Great sober time as usual friend!
@Juli1 Love the number!! 
@Jesile I can sooo relate to the morning version of me compared to the afternoon (or even evening) version of me lol jeeze. Its like i have to keep myself in check some days. Not necessarily with urges to use but with other things, like my stress levels or irritability etc. Mornings are always better for me.
@Lucalds Love ur post. I agree with it so much! Great work on ur sober time friend!
@Mno Grateful ur procedure went well! Hope u have a fabulous day friend!
@Kareness Hope ur feeling a bit better 
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It is infact a slippery slope
I over reacted today and got upset with my wife for a stupid conversation we were having on text messaging
This morning I craved CBD to numb
That should have been my first sign to keep a eye out on myself.
I don’t like work yet, this is the longest I ever kept a job. A bit over 2 years. I collected SSI for 16 years and collected off the government because I was diagnosed schizophrenic and used it as a excuse to do nothing with my life
I met my wife
Not long after we got married
Not long after that we had my baby boy
Too quick? I guess it was but I’d do it again.
Anyway this is the longest I ever had a job
I don’t live in a permanent place
I have a family I have to look out for
I have a lot on my shoulders
If j fk up bad enough which I actually did once (talked about it be4 but I’m not this time)
I’m lucky
Sometimes I feel like I’m overlooked like I don’t exactly know what I’m doing even though I feel like j do. If I do this I get told , no do that
What I get told to do isn’t bad but it’s a small bump in my way and they all add up. Bumps after bumps eventually I felt like I was getting down emotionaly
That’s all I know for now
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When you crave there is infact a deep reason for it. More then I just want. It’s why do you want, why would you like it,
Remember what it actually does for yourself
, numbs until you feel ok and then you keep doing it until a major fk up
Addicts arnt just addicts
We are extremely smart but we love to numb
Good luck today
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Morning check in Day 11
Going back to my roots. Never felt right after changing my name so I decided to go back to pdebs named after my doggie that passed away. Made an avatar of her 
still wasn’t satisfied, so made her hold a pumpkin latte and I think I’m happy now.
Anyway TGIF.. I did in fact start on my sourdough starter. My daughter came home from school yesterday and of course uncovered it and I’m not sure if she poked it I just found it uncovered so we will see what grows now. Today it was bubbly so I think it’s ok.
Going to the gym for the first time in 2 weeks. Finally feeling up to it. We’ll see!
@Mno glad to hear the procedure went well. I feel you on the no longer liking the feeling of anything but sober! That is progress! That is freedom. Sorry to hear Luna passed away, I missed that when I was away. My daughters middle name is Luna and I remember when her dad wanted to name her that I told him “that is my friends cats name” it’s perfect. Put a flower on her grave for me. Hugs friend.
@Kareness hoping you feel better! Motherhood is exhausting but I’m proud of you for taking her to school while you’re sick!
So many other shout outs to be given but I am out of time for today. Love you all 
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Very wise words friend. Its absolutely true. There is always an underlying factor when we crave. Us addicts like escape (at least thats what i found to be true for myself). But escaping from what… i am unsure at times 
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I think the only way to know is to ask yourself hounestly and bravely
Then we accept
Then we can make it acceptable to us personally
Life is ok as long as we are sober
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You are overthinking everything way too much.
Also, a victim mentality is not going to serve you well. You are exactly like everyone else here. Once you realize you are the same then you can do the same things we did to get sober.
Think less. Act more. Find a program of recovery. Work it every single day. No excuses.
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I could really relate to your old guy getting a hold of your number. I am so appreciative of my new connections on here 
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I like your advice my sweet friend ︎ Maybe it’s just better to show them zero attention. They don’t have to come with me into my new life.
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I am convinced that I want to become sober, that I am capable of moving forward in this life experience. I am convinced that by leading a sober life, I will be healthier and happier. And I cling to this hope every day. But my reward system is out of whack, and I can’t seem to make a sustained effort or feel proud of myself.
The bottle is a comforter, alcohol giving me the illusion that I deserve a break from my ruminations. Which, I know, is not a viable solution.
I’m becoming tiresome, I know. I should write “Great! Day 6! Almost a week!” And my cynicism isn’t pleasant.
Anyway, life goes on. It’s evening. I went shopping. The alcohol aisle didn’t even tempt me. I’m going to have to cook for my daughters, who disappoint me with their ultra-selective food preferences. And tomorrow I’ll spend the day driving them around. There are tons of laundry waiting for me…
Choose happiness over problems. Don’t have that first drink. Do this. Act like that… It sounds good and is easy to say. Don’t worry. I just need to write down how I feel, that’s all. Thank you for your support. The intention is good.
Tonight, I’ll be heading out in the rain to pick up my daughter 
That’s just what I need to shake off my defeatism! And I´m not gonna drink alcohol tonight.
ODAAT
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Alright, you know best. Sorry I tried to give suggestions. I’ll just give blind support instead.
You got this! Just keep doing what you’re doing and it will work!
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1838 - Although hard the ability to remain sober when loved ones are dealing with family illness and the inevitable loss that will come at the end of this is a god send. Being able to be there for others and look strong when inside you are crumbling is only through the results of being sober. In the past someone else’s problem would become my problem and I would multiply x10 to make sure you knew about it and justify my drinking for another day, I could always justify my drinking.
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Yes!! Sometimes we just need to vent. The noise of the world can be overwhelming at times. As we grow our sober muscles, I believe we grow other ones as well.
I’m glad to hear that made it to the end of the day alcohol free. Kick your feet up after the kid goes to bed and be proud of yourself. Wake up tomorrow hangover and a week under those feet. And go own the day. You got this, not always easy but worth it! @Christophe
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DAY 12 and my second weekend sober! A good day today, I found some energy and some positive thoughts. I consciously tried to take it a bit slower today and not be in my usual confused rush. I spoke to my doctor that I really do need to fix this, and he has referred me to a specialist, I was also recommended another group for me to attend this evening with AA. It was almost like stars were aligned andgnir was great, we are not alone. I understand there is a long long way to go, but I have decided to commit myself to this better way. Happy Friday good people, stick with me x
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