Checking in daily to maintain focus #80

[JazzyS]

@ozark Heck yeah on your 2 months of sobriety. Keep at it – the side effects do go away and life in sobriety does get so much better.
@rtros Love me some Liquid Death. Enjoy the show. Closing in on 50 days – so very excited!
@canadiangirl Glad you had a relaxing start to your day with a beautiful sunrise. Caroline- the animated movie? I have been told to watch it but haven’t made it to the library to get yet – its strange? Like in a good way?
@mxelle 1 week girl – way to kick some butt

Checking in on Sunday night
1033 days free of alcohol and weed
1448 days free of cigarettes
It has been a total lazy day and I am so very grateful for it. Grateful that I got to just rest and veg out. Did some minor clean up and cooking but overall NADA.

Back to the grind tomorrow. Grateful I have my acupuncture tomorrow. I only have a few more sessions left till I have to take a break for a month and see if what we have been doing is actually working.
Gonna get me some nice tea and then start mentally winding down for the night. Sweet dreams
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you all so much love

[s_unrelax]

Day 12 AF

Just woke up normally without any hangover and spending some time here reading posts and birthday wishes.
I have a psychiatrist appointment today at noon and plan to go there. I’m not expecting much—my priority in these sober days is simply to lay my head on a sober pillow every night and trust that everything else will slowly fall into place because of my HP.
Without sobriety, I cannot do anything in life. I admit that I am powerless over alcohol.

[MTSober]

@s_unrelax

simply to lay my head on a sober pillow every night and trust that everything else will slowly fall into place because of my HP.
Without sobriety, I cannot do anything in life. I admit that I am powerless over alcohol.

That is a wonderful new beginning.

[CanadianGirl]

@JazzyS

Caroline- the animated movie?

Yes that is the one. It wasn’t bad at all . Just kind of strange and creepy and not what I was expecting from a cartoon my younger one picked out.

[JazzyS]

@CanadianGirl

ot what I was expecting from a cartoon my younger one picked out.

Lol…ok…I get that
Hope to watch it soon . I do notice some of these cartoons are more adult than I expected

[Moriah]

Day 79 -

[GOKU_SS4]

Day 1463

Evening check-in.

I just got back from an AA meeting. I shared for a minute, but I was nervous AF. I repeated myself and sounded like a broken record. Oh, well. I tried.

Gonna exercise a bit and take a cold shower and hopefully make it through the night without acting out. I need to overcome the real beast. I’m tired of it. I feel disgusted. It caused a lot of problems.

Anyway, that’s all I got.

JR alcoholic, s&p addict

Goodnight, fam. Luv y’all ODAAT

[JVKE]

@Mtrav0040 please forgive me if I was being intrusive in asking that, that’s not how I intended to be I was just curious. I’ll be more considerate going forward I hope you can forgive me man.

To anyone else I’m offended please forgive me that is never my intention I will try to speak only about my experience from now on most of the time it is my experience I just don’t really say it the right way I guess.

I value being a part of this community and would appreciate some constructive criticism if what I am doing is inappropriate. I just didn’t know.

[Mno]

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I never dreamed so much and so many dreams in one single night. And woke op so often too, almost every half hour early on, going to one hour stretches towards the end. One dream about being in a house under construction which has been a recurring dream for me for as long as I can remember. Always leaves me pondering about what and why.

Anyway. I don’t feel too bad now. I wrote my morning pages, I’m checking in here, a quick shower and off to work it is . I hope to have the energy to go and play some tonight. Going to make today as good as I can and I hope you all will do the same. Sober and clean. Much love from the ferry across the IJ.

[MTSober]

@Mno

One dream about being in a house under construction which has been a recurring dream for me for as long as I can remember. Always leaves me pondering about what and why.

In general cases, dreams are a mirror of your thoughts about you.
Reoccurring could mean its what you’re stuck in.
Both sad, meaningful, or happy.

The house could represent you as a whole or apart of you.

Questions to ask yourself, is do you go into a certain room in this house. What room? What is your internal dialog about, what sounds do you hear? Do you see pictures on the wall, mirrors, people, or is it empty? Where are you positioned? Do you have full semi or no control over your dream state of mind?

Lastly but most importantly, how did you feel, before, during and after, then after you woke up.

Its all a feeling state of mind.

Your talks with your subconscious.

And, its continually under construction, under change, fixing but the reoccurring is the sense of stuck in.

Dreams could be a mirror to your subconscious, was a theory.

Now, im no psychologist. Ive just, per usual in all my paths I went down, read about dream meanings.

The depths always intrigued me..

As for your off sleeping patterns, I hope soon, you find the healing you need, for good sleep.

Truly.

[Just_Laura]

@tailee17 Huge congrats on 600 days!!! And apparently same to you @bluekoolaid_88 I’ve seen nothing short of amazing work from the both of you! Truly well earned indeed

@Butterflymoonwoman

Ive been feeling like Im not doing enough

I know it’s different when you’re living it, but if you could see from our perspective, you’d know that’s never true In fact, you could do so much less and it’d still be enough! I wish you wouldn’t be so hard on yourself, but I also know that mentality is what gets things done, sooo. You just keep doing you

@JazzyS

strange? Like in a good way?

Yes I highly recommend

@GOKU_SS4

I tried

That’s all that matters. No one cares how you sound, just that you shared. It gets easier.

977

Kind of a blah day. Not really feeling much of anything, good or bad. Idk. It’s aight I guess. Heading to bed now. Odaat

[Lucalds]

Hello everyone!

DAY 53 – check-in

Day 53, and I had 53 messages to read in the community. I love synchronicities, they’re happening more and more lately, and they’re even giving me clues about what steps to take.

I feel no pressure to move into the next phase, as I’m aware I have time on my side, not against me. I don’t think of time as linear, as if I’m running out; I think of it in seasons of life and try to go with the flow. I am thinking about moving, but I don’t want to go too far this time because of my father, I want to be available if needed, and also be available to myself. We have plenty of options and he’s doing well afterall. My sister lives here on a permant base and they are not expecting me to plan my life around my father.

Last night I had some of the most interesting dreams ever. They were all about art projects and me telling people how much better I was feeling physically, as if I were healing myself. I also dreamed I was desperately trying to use, but the substance kept falling into water every time, making it impossible for me to follow through. This shows me how protected I am right now by the environment itself, which isn’t creating dangerous situations for me.

Then I dreamed I was about to depart for a trip to Turkey, and I told someone I had just come back from Jordan. This is the second time I’ve dreamed about that part of the world. Recently, in a dream, I was gifted a ticket to Jerusalem. I’m glad the war there is over, though.

A new week is starting, and I’m happy to keep focusing my meditation on aspects that once gave me big fears. I can now see them for what they are, just false obsessions.

Today I am grateful for:

• coincidences

• meditation

• internet

Have a great sober 24 hours ahead!

[Alisa]

Happy for you with some of your newfound comforts … yay! Have a happy and as relaxed as possible autumn break

[Leveller]

Good morning beautiful talking sober family.
Its such a refreshing feeling not having to get up for work. My wife is up and has brought me a mug of tea to enjoy in bed, its the little things that make all the difference.
No set in stone plans today as I will need to see what the weather brings before I decide on todays jobs.
@mno Ive just been reading about IJmuiden, I was wondering if it was anywhere near Haarllem as my friend works there, not too far away.
@CanadianGirl I remember watching Coraline with our son when he was younger, he loved it, my wife hated it - too dark and creepy I loved it for those same reasons.
@Just_Laura We all get those blah days sober or drinking we still get them. I know for a fact that there will be at least one person in my old clique sat in the pub today saying something along the lines of I cant be arsed today. Its a good feeling knowing it wont be me. Your knocking on the door of 1000 days! Almost at 3 years Laura, thats some achievement .
@JazzyS go swimming before accupuncture, the results could be catastrophic otherwise.

Hope you all have a good day today

[Misokatsu]

“not doing enough” is not a phrase I have ever associated with you

[Misokatsu]

I always feel like the most incoherent fool ever when I share. I feel you.

[Juli1]

[Juli1]

[Aqua84]

Day 3 check in! No alcohol and I know for today I will be sober again. Interview day .

@JazzyS Thank you so much. And yeah stingrays are beautiful creatures, I currently have 10 lol.

Hope you all have a beautiful and sober start to the week

[Tragicfarinelli]

We got a picture under the Northern lights in Halloween shirts ON HALLOWEEN a few years back.
Trömso, Norway.

666. Witchcraft numbers & Magick. I keep waking up all bloody night for the last couple of days and it’s annoying me now. Odd dreams, being too hot, the cats… Last night it howled it down with rain, proper blowing a hooley outside. The window wasn’t properly on latch, so the wind sucked it right out 90 degrees. This is the bedroom window and the noise as it grinds out is both dramatic and eerie. We were both too tired and not lucid enough to go and close it. I remember waking up and seeing glowing skeletons in the duvet and just moaned and kinda went back to sleep. We were wearing our skeleton tops to bed as a freaky joke, long story… . Anyway, it was a bit like a kind of Nic Cage film but with weather and Halloween and bed rolled into one epic multi dream, all-night showing. Kinda glad it’s over, what a night. Adieu, I bid you all a better day than my fever dream of sleep.