Congratulations @Seb
700 is fabulous!
700 ODAAT’s !
Lots you have gone through/ accomplished in those 700 days. 
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Good morning everyone. I will be going into day 135 later today, which I find remarkable. I have a week off work and will not be wasting any of it in the pub.
I would like to cut down on my screen time on here. Seventeen hours last week just on here. Don’t get me wrong, it’s way better than drinking for 17 hours. I do need to move forward with my plan now, which is living sober.
Stepping the exercise up a notch this week and also the healthy eating.
Hope you all have a good day today.
The photo is from my run—yes, run—this morning with Alfie, sporting his new “here I am” collar, as if you can’t hear where he is! I think he thinks he looks a bit of a tit in it and that the other dogs are laughing at him.
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168 days. Was chatting to a co worker this morning. He was a little rough after the weekend. He asked how was my weekend told him it was good, typical January pretty lazy.
He asked did I have a few drinks. I told him I didn’t drink.
I’m a non drinker 
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Day 738 AF
Playing hooky today! Why? Why not? Government worker and I’ve never really just decided, meh, I don’t wanna work today. Call it mental health. I have more time off in my bank than I’d probably use in a lifetime and I’ve only been there two years… haha, so morning coffee (I’m still up pre sunrise, I’m not an animal, 
) then perhaps a little extra time in gym pre breakfast. We’ll see.
This caught my attention this morning. It’s raw honesty and perhaps a bit of a misunderstanding. Too much confidence perhaps from some that have been successful here, but I don’t really believe that to be so.
Much like us older folks that grew up in the 70’s and 80’s born in the 60’s or before, we messed up. And big time! But it was before the time of cell phones and cameras so those srew-ups largely were forgotten except in local folk lore and lived on in the stories of your great great grandparents. We lived life, made our more than fair share of mistakes and dumb foolery, but no evidence, so off we went to live and love
Much as noted here, I found TS when my sobriety finally stuck (knock on wood, to date). I failed over and over again through my 40 year addiction, just wasn’t any evidence of it, so I look very successful here. I’m not. I learned and failed more times than even I could ever recall. It’s part of the process unfortunately.
This is an amazing place and had I found it earlier perhaps I would have failed a few less times, but I’m certain I still would have had multiple failures, and that’s ok. It’s life. It’s messy! We screw up. Then we get ourselves back up when we are able and try again.
The raw open communication that many of you share of your relapse is what (a) I find simply amazing that I can relate to all of those lapses and (b) that you are brave enough and wise enough to reach out for community support truly inspires me. It’s why I stay around. You guys all inspire me to keep on this path.
Don’t ever feel your lapses are you failing. It’s you learning and hopefully getting stronger each and every time.
When the time is right for your sobriety to stick, it will. Just remember to keep going. You WILL get there, I know you will.
Best @Hazy , your comments were real and honest and I respect the hell out of them. They are also a great learning that all of us did not grow up and become successful on this site. We grew in a time before…
Love and best wishes all
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Darkness needs darkness to survive. When brought to light, it cannot survive. Our addictions need darkness to continue. They flourish in secret. It is when brought into the open that they can be dealt with.
Accountability isn’t about shame. It’s about courage. Having the courage to admit mistakes, stumbles, and in our case relapses is the first step back to the disciplined path.
I am honored that you value my opinion, but please don’t ever let what I might think prevent you from seeking support for that which we’ve all struggled.
I was a lousy drunk. I never “mastered” drinking. “Normies” have a drinking dial. They can regulate. I have a switch. It only has two settings: sober or drunk. It took time and pain to realize this, and even longer to admit it. Deciding to permanently switch it to “sober” took longer still. It’s there now, and for eight years it’s stayed there. I fully intend to keep it there for the rest of my days.
I don’t need to “experiment” anymore. I ran the drinking test enough times always getting the same bad result that I was able to conclude that I cannot be who I want to be, live the life I want, while drinking. It’s an either/or, yes/no, on/off, light/dark proposition.
The only thing that I have over those who relapse is certainty. There’s no “reasonable doubt” as to what will happen if I ever drink again.
So I choose not to. I won’t drink, because I don’t drink. I am a non-drinker.
I pray you find this certiainty, and the peace and healing that comes with it.
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Checking in
I’ve been for my morning walk, took me almost 90 minutes. Now I’m having late breakfast at the town square. I’m actually sitting outside in the sun! 
So grateful for the nice weather!
I’ve been thinking about how unhappy I am about my weight, and I’ve decided to make some changes. Lately I’ve been binging on sweets when cravings hit, but that needs to stop. I want to be more consistent with workouts, and a healthy diet. For the healthy diet I’ve started using (again) an app (calorie counter) which basically helps me see the excessive amount of calories I indulge on a daily basis. I’ve used this in the past, and managed to lose weight, if I do this properly. I’ll probably be checking in at the weight loss thread for accountability! Other than that I feel blessed today, it’s a relaxed day off, I still need to get some things done (run errands, cook for the week etc) Wishing everyone a good day sober!
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Totally understandable. Once I’m back at work, I’ll have to reduce my TS hours to a socially acceptable level. You don’t owe anyone anything.
Please come here whenever you need it for your sobriety. That part is non-negotiable.
I will, however, continue to enjoy your posts!
P.S. Any update on the chili crisps challenge? Or did everyone suddenly develop collective amnesia and “forget” about it?
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Hey all, checking in on day 2038. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Day 27!!! Got really triggered by my daughter’s dad yesterday. ( we do not have a good relationship ). I didn’t allow his triggering to drive me to go buy alcohol, which has been a catalyst for drinks in the past. I’m really happy about that. I can’t stand that after all of these years he still treats me with disrespect. I can’t stand a lot of things about him, but as usual, I took the high road and didn’t bite into his drama. I did vent about it to my husband which really didn’t help, he wasn’t much comfort. In turn, I ended up just disconnected from my phone, which in turn, upset my husband that I didn’t respond to one text from him.
I would typically allow all of this stress to overpower my day. But, let them & let me. I get to choose how i respond & I refuse to let anyone or anything get me to a point of resorting to any sort of unhealthy habits. Feeling strong & confident as I step into my day 
I hope you all are too!!
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Just finished some readings on perception versus reality. I will live in either today, I will live by the facts of my actions.
My actions will determine perspectives but all that matters is the factual evidence that comes from them.
Act not for the perception of others, my reputations, the versions of me I like the world to see. Let me act for the facts of my heart, the purpose of my goals and for the love of myself.
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Day 42
Good morning All,
I had a decent sleep still woke up 2 times but nothing I can’t deal with. The sleep pattern will get there eventually not worried about that. I didn’t do much yesterday other then watch TV and do a few errands. It was a good day. I work today and I have been enjoying it. I have actually looked forward to going to work lately. I usually go to a meeting on Mondays but I made a new plan so I don’t miss much work. I am just finishing getting ready for work. Hope you all have a wonderful day and stay sober 
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Checking in day 179. Whoa, am I running late! Must’ve needed the sleep.
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Hi everyone, I’m just checking in on day 144. It seems I missed the check-in yesterday. I was so tired that I barely slept, and then in the morning, I was having my coffee and reading/replying when Boom decided to take a nap right in my desk chair (it reclines and has a footrest, but still!). When I woke up, I picked up where I left off. That was until my ADHD kicked in, and an exciting Amazon package was about to arrive! Needless to say, I forgot again. All written out, but never posted. 
Today, I’m focusing on getting my thoughts and home in order. My quiet room, or “zen den,” is really starting to take shape. I’ll definitely need to snap some photos. This room means a lot to me, and I’m so thankful to have it. Every time I sit in there, I think about how far we’ve come and how much more we’re going to achieve. It’s all about finding peace with the past and keeping our eyes on the future.
Light and love everyone 
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Day 55 no weed.
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Good morning friends, day 67. Took today off for some personal errands. Maybe have a nice lunch with Linda.
Have a great day.
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Day 382
Day off from work today and I’m vey glad. I’ve been struggling again with my sleep patterns and energy levels for days now. It’s got me feeling a bit physically ill at the moment. Trying to motivate myself to get some things done around the house here . Hope you all have a good day.
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Day 1,549 AF
Day 11. No PMO, caffeine, and soda.
@JazzyS Hey, Jazz. Sorry for the late reply. It’s tomorrow, the 13th. Hope you’re doing okay.
Good morning, gang.
I’ve been busy with the family. There’s nothing new over here. Staying busy with work and the kids. Excersising. Reading. Watched my Chargers take an L last night, but it’s all good. Next year. 
It’s my ODay today. Gonna drop off the kids at school, go for a walk, and chill at the apartment.
I hope everyone’s doing well.
Take care. ODAAT
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Monday morning check-in. Wife is back from holidays this morning, and my boss is back from her holidays this morning. I started to get a bit worked up with the cortisol answering boss research questions, but I recognized it early on and nipped it. Gotta keep my chill - no need for bad stress!
Oh man. So happy I got back up out of bed late last night and had the presence of mind to tidy up the toddler bath toys so it was clean for my wife’s rushed shower before work this morning.
Enjoy the hangover-free, regret-free start to your week. If you are on this thread reading and writing posts, you are doing something perfectly worthy of your time. 
Edit 1 - lunch. Here’s my deal for today: I got less than the recommended minimum adult sleep last night, as many of us did. I have a big work deadline file for Wednesday, and I have a meeting to present in at 2 PM today. I had the flexibility to postpone the meeting to another day. Instead of doing that, I used the soft meeting deadline to power through and get ready for the meeting, and will switch back to my report deadline after. Why is mundane detail this important? Because if I had been drinking in the afternoon and evening yesterday, I would’ve felt like crap this morning and been switching tabs on my computer, checking the time frequently, postponing the meeting, and not not powering forward with my week yet.
It ain’t me, and that ain’t it.
Edit 2 - end of workday. Starting a new sport class with my daughter this evening. I’ve got the dinner prep done, and all the gear ready. It’s been about six days of me avoiding instant gratification activities. Logging on here, and spending a few seconds a day to check my wife’s Instagram pictures from her trip is all I’ve been doing for leisure online. Curious to see what will change this and have me going back to easy comfort, if anything.
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Day 1429
Happy Monday everyone! I have a busy day ahead. Its 922am and I already went to the grocery store for a few things. Now just killing time until my ED zoom support group at 10am. Then I’ll head to the gym for an upper body/cardio workout. Then home to do my usual daily cleaning. Thats about it!
Going to do my recovery routine before the zoom group cuz I definitely dont want to slack on that. Have a great day everyone!
Intention for the day ~ Today I will not rush. I will go slow and enjoy my day!
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Checking in 175 days THC free and 90 days free of MO. I’m not counting yesterday as a reset, I didn’t finish or accomplish anything therefore there was no O. I’m going to refocus on my recovery and move forward. I believe yesterday was an attempt of self sabotage because today is day 90 and the attempt failed! I filed my taxes yesterday, not getting back much but about half a paycheck. I’m just glad that I don’t owe them, they owe me. I also brought my credit card score up by 20 points, sadly my weight is up too but all in due time. I did still manage to go down a pant size, somehow. It’s been a good morning. It’s cold here today and will be for the next week or so. I’m enjoying the chilly weather because I know that summer will be here before we know it. 
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