For the first time in 7 days I had some kind of decent sleep, I only woke up twice for a short while. Once I’m in bed ( right now a tough mission for itself), moving is still extremely painful, but it’s getting better!
My mom is coming over today, she’s helping me to change the sheets, and she’s bringing lunch!
I’ve done some basic cleaning (here’s me getting out of my comfort zone again! - Im a bit of a cleaning maniac, at least on the weekends ). The weather is amazing today, blue sky, sunshine and 15C! I’ll ask my mom to play our card games out on the terrace in the sun today!
Checking in 195 days THC free, 4 days free of MO and 365 days porn free! When I started living alone last year was when I noticed that my porn use was a problem. Living alone, I didn’t have to sneak or hide it and I was watching it all the time. I realized, I was once again, powerless. Something changed in my brain when I was watching it and I started thinking about the actors, they’re people, exploiting them selves for money. That’s someone’s daughter, someone’s sister, someone’s mother, someone’s son, someone’s brother, someone’s father. It made me feel bad for watching it and it made me want to pray for them. I haven’t watched porn since. If I happen to think about it, I pray for the actors instead.
In the morning I continued my crochet and it was meditative to dampen granny squares with spray bottle and stretch them. I’m so happy I can slow down and enjoy little moments like that without my anxiety and inner critic shouting what else I should be doing. I’ve had enough of those guys. Trying to protect me but making everything way worse.
I have also done aromatherapy, continued reading a book about forest bathing and done some rough sketches for a craft project. Now I have pizza dough rising in the kitchen. We are going to have a delicious dinner tonight.
Good morning from the PNW. Still raining love it definitely needed to keep the lovely green. Notice the spring flowers poking through the soil yesterday! January has come and gone. That seemed so fast.
Another storm (a true Nor’easter) blowing in this afternoon so out on plow duty again from 7pm-7am. 1 day off in past two weeks and onto 8th day straight tonight, with at least 5 more to go. This is the third Sunday in a row with a snow storm and I’m getting close to being done with winter. Haha… the calendar though is in disagreement with me.
@Tragicfarinelli Hope u feel better soon friend. Love the picture u posted!!!
@Mno Sending u hugs Menno. February can definitly feel like a lonely month for many people. I hope ur spirits pick up and you begin to feel better. Youre an incredible human being and a good friend to so many, including me Hope u have a relaxing Sunday!
@Leveller So glad u got ur 5 month chip! Thats such a wonderful idea to pass them onto to someone else at some point. Hope u have a fabulous day! Say hi to Alfie for me
@Jette Wow friend!!! HUGE congratulations on 1 year!!! What an accomplishment! I hope u feel so proud of urself, cuz I am of you!
@Chevy55 Wow i dont know how u do it!! How do u work such long hours overnight for so many days in a row? Id burn out after maybe the 3rd day lol. Hope ur able to get some rest in real soon friend.
Hey everyone. Checking in on day 164. Had a late night as my mother and brother weren’t done until around 1am. I was not happy, but I just did MORE yoga and let it go on the mat. Today I am going to attempt to make some sort of sense of the chaos. I want to burn ALL her smoke filled furniture. I now understand why people hate that smell. It was much easier when I smoked cigarettes and was nose blind to it all. Oh well. I will just have to prioritize replacements. Of course out of our pocket, but better than instant nausea in my living room. I am still staying grounded. A lot of mindfulness to keep me grounded. Luckily, when @Butterflymoonwoman or anyone else posts a tool, I take notes lol. Light and Love ALL
Day 1449
Morning TS fam! Another day of work on the go. Feeling incredibly tired this morning but Im managing. I only work until 4pm and then have 1 errand to run for hubby after work. Then home to do laundry and then give my boy a bath. New week approaching and Im grateful for that. Not sure if I caught my sons cold, but my nose feels slightly stuffy and my throat feels scratchy. Hopefully its minor bcuz I have a lot to do this week. Im sure I’ll be fine
Im trying to get back into doing my recovery routine each morning. Ive been slacking a bit. And i feel like its important to stay proactive when it comes to recovery. So i dis my prayer on the train and will attend my online sermon later this morning. Do my gratitude list and read more on here. Grateful I have a relaxed job where Im able to do these things at work.
Thats it for me. Have a great day/evening everyone! Lets make it another sober day!
Having a slow morning in bed with my pup and morning coffee. I slept so soundly last night. Exhaustion is the best sedative. More strange dreams, but no more omens.
We still have a bit of the final load of laundry to put away today. Then run and clean the dishwasher. Bulk pickup goes on the curb today, too. Marking the final bulk haul of the never-ending garage project. Everything that’s left to do in the garage is minor. We’ll keep making progress during long weekends and Spring Break.
The first of February has always felt more like a new year to me than the first of January. I’ve had a month post-holiday madness to catch my breath, reset my space, and get settled into new routines. I’ve had a month to process the previous year and clearly define my intentions for the next one. Full moon today. Half-way between the Winter Solstice and the Spring Equinox. Brighter days are coming.
Today, I have to lock in and get a fair amount of schoolwork done. Last semester on campus before my thesis project year - 90% remote. Trying to embrace it. I’m sure I’ll miss the feeling of being in a classroom one day. The house is so quiet and clean, I shouldn’t have any trouble knuckling down and doing the work.
Ready for the mental peace that completing procrastinated projects elicits. It’s such a relieving feeling. Cutting the fat today. Ready to work.
2280 days…
No hangover. No blackouts. No drinking and driving. No drunken texts or social media posts. No waking up to injuries I dont remember giving myself. I could go on all day…
First day off in my new place and its starting to feel like home. I’ve been feeling emotional. Good ones.
). The weather is amazing today, blue sky, sunshine and 15C! I’ll ask my mom to play our card games out on the terrace in the sun today!
We are here if u need to talk
Seems like yoga and mindfullness is a good tool for u! Glad it helps!
