I’m very sorry for you loss Kelly, my deepest condolences
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Good morning everyone! Checking in at a little over a month since my slip up. Definitely doing much better these days. Getting things together and hitting the gym. Feeling good. I hope everyone is having a great week!
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My goodness, I’m so sorry to hear that Kelly 
I don’t know if this adds any perspective, but I’ll mention if it helps at all - My Mum died two days before my birthday, and she curiously gave me an early present of a bottle of wine for it. My Mum never gave presents early, I always say it’s as though she knew she wouldn’t be around to give it to me. She wouldn’t have known because I hid it well from her, but I was in active alcohol addiction. I wish I had just kept that bottle just as a keepsake, but instead, I drank it to ‘help’ deal with grief. It was the very last thing she gave me, and I’m angry I drank it. I used my grief as an excuse to drink it, it didn’t help me whatsoever. It only delayed pain I didn’t want to confront. I knew that if my Mum knew the extent of my addiction, she would never have given me that wine. I also know she wouldn’t want me battling an addiction, she would be out of her mind with worry. It hurts me to know how much it would hurt her.
It seems like a nice idea of @Alisa’s to dedicate your four years of sobriety to your Mum. I’m so sorry for your loss Kelly 
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Glad you made it though Madds! Today is a good day so far. It’s always a good day when you start it sober. My alarm went off really early because I was going to the gym and I thought “oh no, I have a hangover, this is awful”… but I was half dreaming still. Very glad I was sober! I hear you re relationships… my wife has certainly had enough of my shit, no matter how understanding she has been. I’m sober for me, but it helps that everyone else likes me better sober too…
stay the course, Sober twin!
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Checking in - 65 days alcohol free 
Hope you have a great day all 
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Yeah the sunny day drinking problem is REAL 
. Going to be a big challenge for me this spring/summer so I’m trying to get all my activities lined up so as soon as the craving hits I can make moves to distract myself. I love sunrise walks but have missed so many opportunities to do so. Well done for 66 days!
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Checking in on day 58. Doing well.
Have a great day/night all.
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Good morning friends, day 125.
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Checking in Day 12. Hubby’s 66th bday today. We’re closing on a vaca home in Greenville SC. For those unfamiliar, Greenville is an amazing little town with loads of restaurants and cafes and a beautiful river walk. Walking friendly town which will be a nice escape from our big city of Atlanta. 
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Hey all, checking in on day 2096. I hope everybody has a good one 
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Day 143.
Spent most of yesterday getting our bedroom in order and deep cleaning the bathroom. Tomorrow, we have a friend flying in to stay with us for the weekend and I didn’t want to be scrambling to get things ready for him today. Sometimes we need external motivation to kick our ass into gear. The room already feels so much better. I feel like I can think clearly again.
Having some trouble sleeping tonight. Up at 5 AM with our pup who decided to have zoomies in the middle of the night. Can’t get back to sleep, so I jumped on here for my daily check-in.
Today, I’m gonna work on organizing my giant running to-do list and reordering it by deadline. Then, spend at least an hour or two catching up on emails. I am absolutely buried in paperwork at the moment, and if I don’t start getting it together, I’m going to be dangerously behind.
Where did all of my energy go? Why does every task feel like scaling a mountain lately? Feeling a bit confused about this chronic burnout that isn’t lifting. I’m really not sure how else to remedy this deep exhaustion. 
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Checking in with 703 days sober. I’ll stay sober today too.
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233 days THC free and 5 days MO free. I’ve to change my focus on my exercise routine. I’m focusing on strengthening my glute muscles. The past 6-8 months I’ve been having issues with my IT band on my left leg. It’s causing a limp and pain. I work on my feet. I’m standing 8-10 hours a day and about an hour into my shift, the pain kicks in. I’ve been trying not to lean while I’m standing but I still find myself in pain. The pain gets better on my days off. It’s not joint pain, it’s muscle pain so I’ve been doing glute bridges and clam shells to strengthen my core and hopefully relieve my IT band issues. It’s just frustrating me because I didn’t have these issues when I weighed 300 lbs and now that I’m down to 193 I’m hurting. I’m trying not to get discouraged. I take my dog for walks every morning and it’s not painful but I do feel an uncomfortable strain on my muscles. I’ll be going to my doctor for follow-up in August, I’m hoping to see improvement by then as I continue to exercise and strengthen those muscles.
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Day 121
The sun is out and the washing flapping on the line, our garden and the village generally is awash with the bright yellow of the daffodils. All things that fill me with joy.
My husband looking very fine whilst he’s chopping logs gives me different feelings altogether 
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Cravings are ok though still there because the triggers don’t go away, but they are manageable. It’s starting to sink in how much time and planning went in to having a drink and what other activities fell by the wayside.
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985
985 days sober and 985 days on TS
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Day 113 no weed.
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Day 1487
Feeling much better today! I guess I was in a mental slump yesterday. Today my husband is home as we have a meeting at 10am with our sons nursing team (for overnight care). As I may have mentioned, our FT and PT nurses are being replaced with HCAs (Health care Aides). This is a big change. So we want to make sure that everyone is on the same page and that they know our expectations of these HCAs.
Then I just have to wait for my sons formula to arrive and then hopefully I can head to the gym for some cardio.
Tonight my son and I are heading out to try Volt Hockey. Its basically adaptive hockey. He should have fun!
All n all, today should be good! I already prayed and will do my best to eat well and be active and be happy! Have a great day everyone!
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Day 100
100 days of freedom of the chaotic and destructive person i used to be. It feels so freeing to almost get my life back. I am still dealing with this headache and have had trouble sleeping. I am late for work and frustrated. All I can do is monitor my symptoms and live my daily life. I had a great conversation with a friend last night about how I need to let go of the past and move forward with the present. Although some of my responses made me sound like a robot I am generally happy with the outcome of it. I have been working so hard to not fall back into bad habits and behaviors. Also feel like isolation gave me the freedom to enjoy myself. I find socializing for me hurts who I am as a person and will continue to grow no matter what but I have to limit myself.
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Sorry for your loss. Stay connected here. 
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Checking in day 800 AF 
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