Check-in. Today was a much better day than yesterday! Weather was beautiful too. I made a healthy decision for myself today, and I’m proud. It’s about time I speak up instead of letting things build up.
I hope to continue making it to the in-person meetings vs the Zoom ones. It made me feel really good to get my 8month key tag. To be among people who get it and relate.
Checking in day 236. Went to Costco after an intense and long overnight shift, hoping to score a pumpkin pie. Proud of myself, bc when they didn’t have any, I walked around the bakery the way I used to wander the wine aisle. Back when I “wanted to want to stop” to paraphrase the AA BB. Close call with some carrot cake, bc I was trying to play the Vitamin A card, just like I used to play that red wine was good for you. Bought a big bag of frozen mango instead. Choices. Keeping them as good as I can.
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Evening check in. Beautiful night out here tonight. Im really enjoying the relaxing moments Im having with my son and husband. Tonight is the last night I have to wake up at midnight to give my son his antibiotics. Im definitely looking forward to a solid nights rest. Im also still really into self-reflection right now. I feel like I need more support with my eating and addressing issues related to that. I just need to see how much a counselling session would cost me first, to even see if I can attend. Then Id like to chat with hubby about it and get his thoughts on it. Grateful for sobriety! Grateful for u all! Have a good night everyone!
I dont know of any personally off hand but I did to a quick google search just now. There seems to be some supports for mental health such as NAMI. Idk if they are close to u or not. Maybe take a look and see if any of the google suggestions could work?
The sun was finally shining here today. Beautiful day. Even though I was at work all day, the sunshine still did wonders for my mood- lifting the funk I’ve been in the past few weeks.
In the past, a nice sunny afternoon would be an excuse to drink wine for hours, long into the night. And I have always been one to blow off all responsibilities as soon as the nice weather hits. I’m starting to realize how many nice, sunny days I have missed b/c I was so hungover. I reconnected with an old friend who is also recently sober so that was nice to catch up. All in all a much better day than yesterday. ODAAT for me. goodnight all!
Today was better than yesterday. Glad I didnt collapse in on myself like a drunk, dying star. Still sober and mostly holding it together, and my relationships are intact, which wouldn’t be the case if I’d drunk alcohol.
@james83 thank you for the words of encouragement, sober twin. How are you doing today? Any better?
Responding here from the old thread, but you’re so important and the world is a better place with you safe and happy in it. I don’t know anything about support groups near you, but it does look like there might be some apps out there that can offer at least a little help? I’m sure I’m telling you things you already know, but I am sending you lots of care and support.
Productive day but still tired. In other news, I am quite happy to have bought food and other items for care packages I will be sending to other family members. I look forward to knowing they’ll receive these things because I love them and I am thinking of them even from a long distance away.
Just checking in from Costa Rica. It is absolutely beautiful here. Journey started a little rough as our son wasn’t feeling well right before we left, but he’s back to himself now It feels so incredible to feel so grateful. Now fingers crossed I don’t get sick and then we’re all good. Tomorrow, we are going on a hike at the volcano…can’t wait xo.
Had a drier sunnier ride yesterday. It was great actually. I’m switching to hiking today and hope it will be just as good. It will be sober and clean for sure. Much love from Mallorca.
My mum passed away yesterday morning. Going to the funeral and being around some family is bringing up some pain. Im going to be 4 years sober in a few weeks and really don’t want to slip up during this time.
@KellyKelly I am so sorry and thinking about you through this sad loss of your Mom. I am glad that you came to the site and posted. Hard hard, hard days, again I am very sorry.
Today is cleaning day. The situation at home is back to normal, and my father discovered melatonin chamomile tea. He says that he’s sleeping much better and also feels mentally less foggy.
My sister will leave for the weekend as part of her birthday getaway from my brother, and she will be visiting Naples with my sister-in-law. She’ll be back on Tuesday.
I don’t have much to report. I am sorry to see some people struggling during this period, but you know, it’s part of the process. You must see the problems before you can address them, and they have to reach their limit before they are done with the “teaching.”
Then it’s up to us to take action if we want to. Either way, we should all hold compassion for ourselves and the hard journey we have chosen in this life in order to know better.
@Butterflymoonwoman I really believe you should take those therapy sessions, even if just for a short period, because having support from a professional will give you the basics to move forward by yourself afterward. Cortisol is the worst enemy of eating and weight control, as it makes losing weight almost impossible, so this is something that actually comes before the gym. Go Dana, give this gift to yourself, who deserves this if not you?!
It feels so incredible to feel so grateful. Now fingers crossed I don’t get sick and then we’re all good. Tomorrow, we are going on a hike at the volcano…can’t wait xo.
I know the feeling 
sending love and prayers to you and your family.
