So I’ve been crying a lot. Yesterday and today. Maybe it’s normal. It feels super awkward in social situations at first and then I’m ok. I don’t know why it’s so hard in the beginning and then the evening goes on and it’s like, ok, this isn’t so bad. I think I used alcohol to make this transition seamless. People showed up and I was ready from the get go. Now it takes a while.
Anyways, I feel happy to say I stayed sober and what an experience. I was an amazing hostess. Made sure everyone had drinks. Didn’t argue, pass out, make a fool of myself…etc. Such a difference. I cleaned, made sure people had food to take home…
I. Rock. I’m so glad to leave today on a positive note, when I’ve been an emotional roller coaster these past few days.
I don’t think it’s normal to cry for two days straight…seems like you would run out of liquid in your body
Congratulations on being a good host
Don’t be scared
I have felt off these past two days as well. I think I was in mourning of my previous Christmas “cheer”. However it is the morning of the 26th amd i still sober. 142 days today
Had family dinner on the24th to celebrate my daughter in laws birthday. After dinner the alcohol was brought out and I said no. The sound of the wine bottle popping when opened was a very sad sound to me now. It seems to represent defeat. I stayed strong and drank my sparkling grape.juice. I cried quite a bit before going to sleep but I think that was just a release of all the string emotions of the day.
@marsha isn’t it weird how we miss those sounds? I had to drink my sparkling cider in a wine glass. I miss wine glasses, but it was also a way to avoid questions why I wasn’t drinking. I opened 2 wine bottles for the family and just the process of opening it, pouring it into a carafe, watching the colors. Screw that. I too am grateful Christmas is over. My husband is hung over (he very seldom drinks) but I am not. Feels awesome.
