I was so close to giving in today. I want to drink so badly. It’s about all I can think about. I don’t see the point in trying so hard when I just seem to get nowhere. I’m worried about so many things from my mental and physical health to how to repair relationships with my family and friends. I’m lost. I don’t feel like I can go on.
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Breathe. Try to focus on a calming image in your mind.
Sounds like the fear anxiety and worry is heavy. Just get to bed sober tonight. Dont worry about any next steps. Just rn. Dont drink and get to bed sober. How can you accomplish that?
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I am sorry your struggles are so hard at the moment, @DancinHomer4, white-knuckling is no fun 
In the nicest and most supportive way possible: and drinking gets you where exactly?
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Can you get to a meeting?
Even if it’s tomorrow. Sometime soon.
I been struggling a lot this week. And going to meetings has helped me tons.
Not even saying anything or doing anything. Just being around people that understand the struggle. Just listening.
I find it helpful.
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Don’t give up man, you worth it!
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Im so glad u havent given in. Sounds like ur mind is really preoccupied with alot of things though.
These things can and will get better if u stay sober 
But they will for sure get worse if u choose to listen to that voice and drink 
Those thoughts about needing and wanting a drink are all lies. Alcohol serves no good purpose. Tell that addict voice to “shut it” bcuz ur stronger and wiser than that
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Ya know it took me a long time to stop thinking about “it.” But I didn’t pick up. I changed up a lot of things. Routines, music playlists. Shower at a different time. Sit and eat dinner in a different spot. I spent a lot of time on here. Helping others or just looking at memes and cats and nature pics.
I also started saying to myself.
“I’m not drinking today.
And I’m probably not drinking tomorrow.”
It’s a great thing you are reaching out for help.
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None of what you are worrying about is going to be cured with alcohol. It’s hard at times and you are not alone we have all gone through it and that’s the point, you can pick up a drink and go through all this again or you can get past each moment by breaking it down into little segments, 5 10 20 minutes whatever you need to do.
Short term sacrifices or a lifetime of regrets. You choose.
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I already have a lifetime worth of regret. I either caught up living in the past or in the uncertainty of the future. I’m in an incredibly unstable place in my life. The pressure is wearing on me. I know that the short term relief I feel from drinking will lead me somewhere dark and unforgiving, but to get this through this moment it almost seems worthwhile. I’m scared about my health. I go to the doctor on Tuesday and there is a few things I know I need to address with him and I’m terrified because of what the outcome could be. I’m scared I’m going to fail. That I’ll stay sober and I’ll still fail. Nothing has changed much since I stopped drinking. I know they call that being a dry drunk and that it leads to relapse. I know what is best for me and what I need to do but I’m so alone in this fight. Having no one to lean on is hard… Thank you for all the support. I’m going to make it through the night.
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I’ve been struggling this weekend too. But I keep bringing my focus to how it makes me feel. I remind myself that it’s an hour or too of a buzz followed by days where my chemistry is completely off. Depression. Hangover. Stomach issues. I keep my focus on those things and it turns me off to the idea momentarily. So it’s a cycle of craving>remind myself of feelings>craving. But it eventually passes.
Stay strong.
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This has been posted many times but thought you might need it today . Also ask your higher power to take your worries from you. Worrying is a thankless task 
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How are you doing?
It’s still early in your journey and it’s normal to feel overwhelming emotions as you get a handle on sober living. Remember the first month is just detoxing and then you start building. Building and putting together years of what the addiction has taken from us
Don’t dwell on the past or fet caught up with regrets. We really can’t change the past but through our actions we can make today count and have the path for a better tomorrow. Our bodies (mentally and physically) will also heal- but this takes time.
It is worth it and you will succeed…just keep pushing forward.
Wishing you luck with the doctor ms tomorrow. You may not see the changes but you are repairing the damage each day.
Hoping that today is better for you. Stay connected as support and community are super helpful during this journey 
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