Checkin in on day 6. Didn’t check in yesterday as I was busy, which is a great thing. Being a SAHM sometimes I find myself not being busy and when I’m not busy I start wanting to take something because it will give me “motivation”. Not going to fall for it. Received a text the night before last that someone had picked up their script and I thought about it and struggled with it, even went as far as telling myself I could go ahead and just hit reset after Christmas, but why?for what? I know the outcome, I’m fine, actually better sober. So I fought through stayed busy and I’m still pill free. First time I’ve really resisted. I usually relapse as soon as I get a text and set up a meet to get my stuff. Not this time. I will be present this holiday season. I will be sober and not living in regret that I spent too much on pills so now I’m stressed about money for Christmas shopping. Resisting temptation like that yesterday gave me a natural high that I haven’t felt since being an addict. It felt great and empowering. Have a super sober Saturday lovely people, you are all an inspiration to keep going 
Sounds like you’re doing great Jane! Don’t be scared, you have got this… and we’ve got you! Be strong and keep charging on one day at a time 
Checking in on day 23. Today will be a great day, because I said so, and I am the boss of my life. 
Good morning! I’m doing good here; at work already! I was just thinking how good it feels to be present and clear.
Glad the kids are off; I used to love that when it was Christmas vacation; miss those days! xx
110!! Urban exploration today, at least for a while. Maybe some record shopping, coffee. Sometimes I enjoy the days with no real plans.
DCC days today.
Life’s beautiful, warm, full of love all thanks to sobriety.
Keep trudging folks, we’re making it
I’m sorry you’re feeling down @Hidden. I’ve had a lot of those days lately and the meetings really helped. I also spent more time on here which helped too. People on this sober journey are so much more understanding of the ups and downs. Hang in there friend, you’re kids will be back soon. 
Thanks for sharing @DontDoDrugs , you have had so much to face up to…
Many of your feelings ring bells with me and that deep sense of disappointment - horrible isn’t it!
I have struggled with booze, BPD and an OCD which has ended in divorce after 30 years’ marriage. I’m at the stage where, despite 110 days sober from the booze (only 3 from OCD) I’ve lost the will to change. Don’t know if the meds I take affect me negatively but whatever I have little motivation.
Sorry to be negative, I share your pain!
Google does that to all of us @Jane.c. I go searching a minor symptom and I wind up thinking I got cancer. 
And I don’t learn from this, I’ll do it again and again.
Why not call the vet and ask those questions? I would simply say you were not able to be there and you have concerns. I hope she feels better soon. They are like our children and when they hurt, we hurt.
Absolutely adorable @Englishd! Thanks for sharing your precious little babies with all of us.
Thank you @Lisa07 I really appreciate the support. hopefully you start feeling better soon as well. I agree with you that this site helps. Such a benefit that its available 24/7. I spent the majority of last night just reading on here. Extremely useful to help pass the time when I’m not in the best state of mind. Let’s make today a better day!
Checking in day 20. The concert was great last night! No craving for alcohol at all. My daughter who is 24 doesn’t drink so that helps a lot. Off to work, hope everyone here has a great sober weekend!
Thanks! Played some wii sports with my son we had fun and I was able to relax 
I definitely will. Thank you for the offer!
Love this. Thank you for sharing that.
Day 27. No fags no booze And feeling bloody good.
It’s my cousins retirement party and I called in on my way home from work I had an appletize and a fresh orange and lemonade. I’m home now feet up and chilling out. Hope your all doing well and finding staying sober relatively easy. 
This made me smile; how lucky are you?!