Congratulations on 60 days!! That’s no small thing. Well done. Keep going!!
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Way to go @Hailstrom, congrats 
on 300 days sober. You’ve got this, keep stacking 'em!
Blessings and sobriety!
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I have a great person to keep in sight. Though you don’t know it, you’ve been the carrot dangling at the end of the stick in front of me several times keeping me going.
Thanks
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It’s definitely good knowing you’re there to keep me going as well, thank you Chad!
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Get it girl. Keep going. One day at a time. 
Cheering for you!
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Congratulations @Rosey, you’re a inspiration!! 
Wow! 
Sober looks defenitely good on you!!
Well done for the 80 days @Jfrat !
@AdelynnW welcome here! 🙋
@crystalclear 
days in your pocket girl!! 
And cheering for you too @funnydad and @TeejLazer Keep on trucking guys!
Hope you feel better soon @Frank68.
Double digits for you @DontDoDrugs, hard work pays out, well done
And @David45, you have 2 months: congratulations!
Glad you told your husband about the cravings @Bananagram and you’re here to vent. Sometimes that’s all we need. Hang in there 
Day 460
My head exploded! 
And no: I’m not going to share pictures.
I used a new facecream. Well my face didn’t liked it. Yesterday it gave me little bumps on my skin but today my whole face is swollen up!!
And I have to work!!
Aaaaaaahhhh!!! 
Allready tried antihistamine yesterday and today, it didn’t help. Have to sit this one out I’m afraid…
Ugly me 
This is me sort of:
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If you need groceries… Don’t know if I am near enough but if so would love to be of service 
One question remaining… Which facecream. You need to warn others right!
My day 130 wil be one of love, yesterday was Rocky emotionally today I am going to be kind to me. Tonight i have my Saterday meeting where I do the keytags and I know one fellow made 3 years this week so I am stoked to give him that coin 
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I’m checking in for a different addiction right now, I’m on day 1 for mindful eating. I’m still at 614 for alcohol. I don’t know if I would call it binging. But I eat due to stress and loneliness and I’m ok with my weight and how I look, it’s more so I just don’t feel healthy and I don’t feel I’m taking care of myself or my sobriety when I get in this cycle. Just like anything that we do in excess that gives us that instant release of satisfaction, this feels no different and not having a handle on it was really getting to me.
Today was pretty hard, I think tomorrow will be worse and probably this whole week in fact. Anyways, i think my first tool I’ll add to this new toolbox is to relate every post to this issue and not just to my more obvious addiction.
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Hey 
I don’t know your situation but I really relate to ‘consistency is the most inconsistent thing about me’. My mood cycles pretty wildly, I get huge spurts of motivation and inspiration and then periods of not being able to face the world, I struggle to stick to a routine. I am not really sure what the answer is but the evidence suggests that getting shit faced to escape the feelings isn’t it.
Have you got any support for your mental health? Either in the way of medical help or a recovery network?
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Thank you Definitely feel like I need some time to reflect and regroup a bit. Got a hectic (but nice) few days coming up but also some good rest planned in 
P.s. only hectic because I have left everything to the last minute 
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@Rob68 thanks for the advice!!! I love chocolate, not almonds but I will try.
Back to day 3 sober. Flu and tiredness are companions today and I have to work. I wish for all of you a happy day, despite of all the problems and trials 
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- Things are changing. I’m changing, I’m moving forward. 6 Months indeed was a wall for me. Very glad I got trough it sober and clean. With all your help. Thanks for keeping me accountable. Today I’ll take a train south to be with an old friend at her birthday party. No fear of drinking. My sobriety is strong and when it isn’t I know where to go for help. Have a great weekend all! Clean and sober that is. Love from Amsterdam.
PS. Luna seems startled watching my aura. She’s seeing some change there too?
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Day 171
Up and early with the little one cartooning it/drawing etc
Yoga, meditation and breathing exercises as standard
Setting off soon to Goodison for Everton vs Arsenal, COYBB! 
Then work tonight
Have a good day peeps 
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Thanks @Joy , I really appreciate your encouragement and kind words. You’re doing great yourself 
Day 301. Yesterday had its challenges. Milestones tend to be difficult as you all know and on top of the usual I had my work Christmas meal which was of course a boozy affair but I got through it. I considered doing the backdoor shuffle early on as I felt a little uncomfortable but I worked through it and stuck around to be social. I did stick to my own little rule of leaving once everyone got to about 3/4 drinks tho. It seems to work for me when I socialise with drinkers. I tend to get really agitated once the drunkeness becomes obvious.
My colleagues know I don’t drink and I just tell them it’s for health reasons (which is technically true so I don’t feel like Im lying to anyone without being too open).
Have a great Saturday everyone. Im about to confront the masses in town to finish my xmas shopping 
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Checking in on day 80. They days are passing by so quickly on holidays. It’s not that I’m not struggling at all. It is hard to say no and it will get harder over the festive days… But with your help and all the support I’m getting through. Wishing everyone a great day
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Hey my lovely beautiful Donna,hope you a good my friend,checking in today on day 28.xx kids have just broke up from school and I’m ready for the holidays .xx
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Shit!!! Gabe! My god, that sounds awful, thank god you’re ok matey. Good job on the refusal of the drugs, that takes strength… well done! I hope you feel better soon. Sending hugs my friend
Yes I do go to a therapist every 2 weeks regularly. It does help a lot. It’s not enough and there’s no excuse failing to put in the effort myself. I haven’t moved past my second step bc I haven’t gotten back with my sponsor. Haven’t been reading my NA book. My self help books have been forgotten about even with me knowing it’s importance. Taking pieces of things at different times making small steps forward but then to plateaus or even backwards leading to relapsing. All this inconsistency and relapsing weighs on my mind now. Newly now alienating of people is becoming toxic. I want no new intimate connections, I believe either they will discover how much of a POS I am or Im scared to hurt someone else. I can’t taking more burdens of failure. I think very low of myself bc of my drug habit, my past treatment of people close to me and my ego of repetitive failure with school in early college, inconsistency with employment since prison bc my biggest failure SOBRIETY. 141 days is my longest clean time. I’ve had 30 days over 10 times, 60 days around 4 times and 90 days twice. Relapses are 1-2weeks out being very destructive but not fatal. Then right back into NA meetings, detoxing while working and desires to get out of trouble by getting clean. My actions created I believe I am a horrible person. Ive failed the people I care about showing love in action. Thoughts on my past abuses overwhelm present solitude. Letting no one new in bc of my continuous want to fix the past I don’t want to let go out of fear. Sparking one day fueling flames of guilt, regret and shame that never fans out. Believing my failures/relapses are all bc of my self hatred I feel I deserve such a terrible life. That’s where I am today, that’s why I’m so hung up on relapsing. This cycle for years now has stolen desire to build a better life.
This aluminates inconsistent behavior after a short to intermediate amount of time. Then the longer I’m clean the more I
dwell on my pas deeply. Get back to meetings but still no individual work. My battles plateau then have the potential of going backwards. Now I start lashing out bc people correctly walk away after I completely let my feelings out of control. All towards loved ones who were hopeful in my potential and supportive of my start. Now alone broken and defeated I pick myself back up but every time has been exactly what I shared.
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