Checkin in at the end of day 8. Tired but feeling good. I got so much done and remained sober. I usually feel like relapsing at about this point but feeling good and strong right now. Good night all you wonderful sober folks 
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Still here.
Tired. Had friends over to my house last night. Didnt offer any drinks. No one seemed to mind. Although the hard part for me was/isā¦ as I now realizeā¦ is the BEFORE everyone gets to my house. In the past that always meant having a glass or 2 of wine while I was cooking before people came to ātake the edge offā. I need to find something to replace that with. A mental mantra of something. I struggle with being an introvert and I am trying to break out of that a little because itās actually very depressing. And lonely. Butā¦ yeah. Trying not to drink while waiting for guests was misery. Iām spent today. Daughter has piano then Iām going food shopping. Other than that I want to sleep and read books. Butā¦ mom lifeā¦canāt ā¦ gotta be [ON] ugh. One day at a time. One day at a time.
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I can 100% relate to the preload before any social situation. it was my suit of armor. congrats to you for making it through the night. Be proud of your one more day!
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@Hidden thanks. I never thought of how regularly I did that before last night oddly enough so it kinda caught me off guardā¦ an unconscious habit I guessā¦but yeahā¦something I have always done apparently ā¦ so now I need to prepare a defense before next time.
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95 days. Still not done shopping. Iāll have to go back out tomorrow and fight the crowd. I was gonna finish tonight but i really needed to go to my AA meeting just to get away from the craziness. Got off work 2 hours early and going back Thursday. I canāt wait for xmas to be over!
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Nice job on making it to the meeting. Iām right there with you on wishing xmas was over. Weāre almost there!!!
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Keep going. It gets easier.
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Proud of you for 95 days!! Hang in there. We can do this.
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Thank god for this app and AA. Itās whatās keeping me going. Iām just not in the mood for xmas at all but Iām putting on a fake smiile and doing it for my daughter. Youāre right we can do this. 
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It was either the liquor store or a meeting. Iām glad i made the right choice.
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God, I drove by the liquor store tonight. Line was out the door. In Utah you can only buy liquor from government run liquor stores, packed before holidays. Always felt like I was standing in the line of shame! Glad you made the better choice!!
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Howās it going mateā¦Iām at 2 days. 
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The lines getting in the liquor stores are so bad here that they have cops directing traffic. That was another deterrent for me not wanting to sit and wait.
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Closing in on 15 days
Wrapped gifts tonight. I loathe gift wrapping. So glad itās also the last night for this damn Elf. Iām usually drinking wine while I wrap so pushed past that
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I love reading your journey. Merry Christmas x
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- Coffee. Three very busy days ahead. Wish I didnāt agree to 2 Christmas dinners while working early shifts. But I did. Did my shopping yesterday. Certainly got my exercise in as I drove circles in town for hours and hours. The stress of one sold out item in 4 different overcrowded groceries.
Christmas really sucks every way possible. But never mind. Weāll get through it sober and clean. Numbing ourselves wouldnāt help. Reality will always come back. Only worse than before. So Iāll face the coming days with a smile (fake most of the time) and my sobriety intact. One day at a time. Thanks so much for being here all. @keiti Huge congrats on 6 months lady! @anon30771928 Hope your MIL is out of your sights again. @Here.I.am You made it. Indeed we need alternatives to how we handled stuff before. Letās keep working on it. @everybody Have a great sober and clean day all! Love from Amsterdam and Guadelupe River TX. Wish I was there now.
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Stayed up til midnight, just to see my counter turn over the 1 week mark. Now itās off to bed.
Iāve got a 7am meeting in the morning and then Iāll go for a run. After that, some freinds are coming over to my house and itāll be Christmas festivities nonstop for the next two days. Excited for the holiday, but leery of the hustle and bustle. I like my downtime and I get overloaded somewhat easily at this point.
Thanks to all of you for the support Iāve received on here, so far. 
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For me it helps to think about why I donāt want to drink. Blackouts, putting myself in vulnerable situations, doing stuff that made me cringe when I heard about it, missing out on memories, being a dick, getting into arguments, spending loads of money on poison, losing stuff. That is what happens when I drink. Being really clear on that made it easier to deal with the 
thoughts that pop up (oh you can just have one, you donāt really have a problem, who cares itāll be fun, etc).
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