Been a busy few days. Been cycling through being stressed about not meeting unrealistic expectations (that I set myself) and acceptance that what will be, will be.
Had to take the dog to the vets on Monday because we left some mince pies at nose height š¤¦ Fortunately she didnāt have a bad reaction and fortunately because of my sobriety I could (a) drive her to the vets quickly and (b) afford the bill!
Had a lovely Xmas Eve catch up with old friends and Xmas day with my parents and Nan. This year I felt like I was missing out on the party a lot less and just appreciated spending time with people. I guess everyone else is used to my sobriety too. Soo much better getting to bed at a decent time and not struggling through Xmas day trying to balance the blood/ alcohol levels.
Looking forward to another week or so off work. Trying not to think of all the things I feel like I should be doing just yet! Just being here now and focusing on how grateful I am for everything I have (which obvs includes all of you )
I decided to go out to dinner even though my freaking sister will be there. Lord help me just keep my mouth shut, but not too much, just the right amount so that she gets all the attention but Iām not being a downer.
Sigh, wish me luck. I miss having a husband to have my back during this shit
Day 105. At my momās right now. Itās chaos. Thankfully no one is drinking. Weāre just having some typical family dysfunction. Looking forward to a nap later then we have round 2 at my in-laws. Iām ready for tomorrow. Thankful I donāt have anything to drink in my house and all the stores are closed. Iād be tempted.
No problem there. My in laws abstain from all liquor. Just have to keep from saying things I canāt take back. My mouth gets me in trouble all the time. Especially when Iām tired like I am now.
Going to take a nap before we venture back out. I think that will be helpful. And then Iām going to keep myself busy either eating or cleaning up. Itāll be bedtime before I know it!
Still day 68 here. I actually got 2 bottles of AF champagne from a person who didnāt even know I am on the wagon. Great gift. I also got a basket with honey, non-vegan chocolate, beer and coffee. Not so great but other people in the household will use it.
My āmeatloafā and the vegan icecream were a succes. I am affraid I will gain a lot of weight in the year to come, now that I know how to make good icecream.
Merry Christmas to all you beautiful people hope everyone had a blessed day today. Checking in on day 84. And made the Christmas party sober Thanx to my really really cherished friends. You know who I mean. Much love to all of you
Checking in on Day 155. Christmas and all that jazz. Hit the gym in the a.m. with the sole purpose bumping up my deadlift 1RM to 315#. Totally did. So, Merry LIFTmas to me!!!
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hope everyone had a blessed day today. Checking in on day 84. And made the Christmas party sober Thanx to my really really cherished friends. You know who I mean. Much love to all of you 