Welcome back @ChyB.
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Hi everyone. Iām finally checking in. @Mno, @RBG, @Conor689908, @Girlinterrupted,
Thanks for all of your words of encouragement. Yes, Iāve still craving to act out. Iāve been going back and forth several hours at a time from being in clarity to unclarity. But I am sober. 22 days. Iāll take it. And yes, Iāve been leaning on the boundaries a lot, and Covenant Eyes.
Iām not alone when it comes to being overly crazy busy with the holidays. Yesterday, we were with my wifeās side of the family. And we didnāt get done with that until 3:30AM. We finally got home at 5:00AM this morning. We slept until 11:00AM, and celebrated Christmas at home. Then I took a much needed nap, and Iāll be glad and ready when this is all over. Iām getting too old for this.
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I thought our schedule was crazy but yours makes mine look much better!! We were home by 1am and asleep around 3. Being tired doesnāt hemp with the cravings does it?? Glad to hear you are still sober. Lean on whatever keeps you sober! Merry Christmas!
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I had similar feelings todayā¦ the anxiety, being on the verge of tears multiple times, the noiseā¦my MIL has gone and I made it. Hope your hour goes quickly. Hugs to you 
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This is so great to read. Thank you. Sounds like a wonderful day 
ā¦ I made the best Christmas dinner I have ever made, maybe because Iām SOBER, ya think. 
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Going to bed sober. Ate everything in sight, but stayed away from that first drink.
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Well done. 
Rest well.
Made it through yāall, wasnāt so bad.
I will say, this is my 2nd sober Christmas. As hard as it was to not have my kids at all this year, Iām glad I woke up sober. Wish I could go back in time and be sober and present for Christmas. I always had such a bad hangover so just took a little drink to take the edge off, then youāll never guess what??? Couldnāt ever stop after that little drink. Gross gross gross. I can almost feel that nasty feeling. Gross.
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Congrats 
on 6 months, keep them days piling up.
Blessings and sobriety!
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97 Days. Made it through a tough day. I did talk to my neighbor about the beer she left in my car. She didnāt realize that i gave up all substances because my DOC is pain pills. She knew i went to detox for that and in her stupid head she thought i could still drink. I guess some people just donāt understand the meaning of sobriety.
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Way to go , 90 days sober! Keep doing what youāre doing.
Blessings and sobriety!
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200 days of sobriety, congrats Menno!
Blessings and sobriety!
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Glad you made it home safe and sound. So sorry the day was a difficult one. Youāre one of my favorites on here. You always bring a smile to my face. Wish I could bring one to yours. Sending some love your way.
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Checking in day 271.
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Awesome picture Chad!! So adorable
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- In the face of stress I very often freeze. Thereās flight and fight in me too, but my primal reaction is to freeze. And I can take that to rather big extremes, as I showed myself and my bestie for 20 years once again when I should have been preparing for our joint Christmas dinner. I did do some stuff but by far not enough. My bestie is a control freak that wants everything taken care of way in advance. That put together (and some more stuff) makes for a toxic dynamic in our relationship and our goings on. The only reason we went ahead with the dinner after all was not to disappoint her 10 year old daughter. Hope at least we gave her a good night.
Ours was spoiled before it began, largely due to my inability to deal with real life really. I did think about drinking a couple of times, also thought that getting drunk together might save our relationship, Thankful I didnāt give in to that crap. And the only thing that gives me some positivity right now, almost 7am and getting ready to work, is the fact that Iām sober and clean. For the rest I donāt know. I feel like Iām a dry drunk. Not in the sense of fighting the urges all the time with all my might, but in the sense that I donāt put in the work to make myself better. I talk the talk but I donāt walk the walk. I know I have to work hard to make things happen. But I freeze. Iām frozen. Have a good day all. Sober and clean love from Amsterdam.
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619/6. Right now my sobriety from alcohol does not weigh on my mind nearly as much as my struggle with mindful eating. This tells me one thing. It will get easier. If I had 600 days of mindful eating I know it would just be second nature (with continued practice and awareness). But right now itās not. Itās hard and itās on my mind. Iām trying to think if this is how my mind was when I was just getting sober from alcohol and it really wasnāt THAT long ago that I started my journeyā¦ But I canāt remember. Which again tells me one thing. It will get easier. I just need to continue.
Merry Christmas everyone!! Itās been really nice reading about everyoneās day, whether good or bad, during such a special time.
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Day 465 
Survived yesterday. Didnāt drink, but watched others do so. Gave all the alcohol leftovers to the guests. I canāt handle open wine bottles.
The muslim friend of my aunt declared I was a good muslim by not drinking 
Today Iām going to help at a animal shelter I used to volunteer in. Thatās why I got out of bed at 6:30. Going to clean a lot of litter boxes today!!
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@SoberWalker Well done on 465 
. And well done for helping out today I should and will start helping in the community but at the moment I am too selfish only focusing on my sobriety 32 days in.
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