I totally agree with @Fargesia_murielae here. Seems like you had some unspoken expectations you felt like you needed to live up to @Mno . And your BFF being a control freak doesn’t mean you have to bend to her unreasonable expectations. I’m a control freak and I’ve learned over the years that if I expect people to care as much as I do about how things are done “just so” I will spend life disappointed. I can’t control other people. Anyway… The bit about being a dry drunk? Well, if you’re not actively working on getting better at getting better that may be the case. So what are you going to do about it now that you’re realizing this?? You can decide to just keep things as they are or you can decide to start working on making some changes. The best part is you get to decide because you are SOBER!!
Day 106. Christmas hangover in full force - meaning that super tired, mentally exhausted, brain dead, want to stay in bed and not clean up the mess feeling like a hangover even though you didn’t have a drop to drink kind of feeling. That’s what’s going on today. But I’m really totally sober. Promise.
Day 440. I feeling so grateful for my continuous sobriety today. It has transformed me - physically, emotionally, spiritually. And in ways that I never could have predicted. Hang tight, my friends. Some days are a real struggle, I know all too well. But things shift and change and there is real magic in continuous sobriety. 
My pleasure. Hoping you have a peaceful day 
Checking in on Day 156. Tired AF from yesterday. Ready to get outta work, and get the house back in order, and relax.
Have a strong day!!!
Checking in with 98 days. Exhausted from yesterday. I can’t wait to get out of work in 4 more hours.
Day 29. Grateful for the opportunity to be present with my kids and my frail, dementia-suffering mom, without constantly wondering if it’s time for a drink, like I was always wishing I could take the edge off reality. I wish I’d started on this path younger but the only time we have is now, and I’m glad to be where I am.
I think you absolutely say that in a meeting. That’s what the meetings and the community are for. One can express when they’re struggling and the others are there to offer support. Conversely, you’ll also have times where you get to share when things feel good and you can be a source of support for others struggling.
It’s much better to say it out loud and recognize what’s going through your mind. I’ve learned from first hand experience that shoving “bad” thoughts down and acting like everything was fine, only lead me to relapse, because I wasn’t dealing with the urges/thoughts. Just trying to ignore them wasn’t enough. More importantly I wasn’t getting at the source of what was causing the urges, by denying facing them head on. Saying it out loud can really force one to analyze it deeper.
I’m glad you’re here and I’m glad you shared honestly. It helps me, so thank you. Have a great day. 
Actually yes. I was a vegan for over a year and was the best I’ve felt in my life then I “cheated” one day and it was a slippery slope from there. I have had to reset my counter daily for the past couple weeks. The holidays make it hard.
Feeling the same!
I’m checking in at day 23.
Thanks everyone!
Day 25, had my mammogram call back appointment today, I was crying before I even sat in the waiting room. I also had to get an ultrasound. I stopped crying when they called me back for the tests, I was praying for the other ladies in the waiting room that they would all get good news today. Happily mine was good news too!! A benign cyst and nothing to worry about. I started crying when the doctor told me and asked her if I could give her a hug. They were all so kind there. I got on my knees and thanked God when I was in the changing room,. I definitely feel unworthy, i know for some it’s not good news. I’m feeling grateful.
Great news! Glad to hear it. 
Day 359
Merry Christmas to everybody!
Personally i am so glad that i did make sober. Everybody else around me was drinking, but it was accepted that i did not drink, which was a great relief. But it was amazing how everything centered around drinking, even many of the conversations (where to get the best drinks in town, etc., etc). First sober christmas for 30 years. The next milestone will be new years eve. It is really freaking amazing how alcohol is so much part of everybody’s daily life and socially accepted and demanded/required…
Just my thoughts of the day
Stay strong and sober
Day 45, feeling tired and easily irritated today. Going to nap it out instead of keep pushing until I’m completely exhausted!
Checking in on day 18. Had a Great sober christmas with my family.
Love to all people here 
Thank you!
Christmas blues got me like…
Didn’t feel like getting out of bed today, regardless, I dragged my ass outta bed, went to work and put on a smile. Things will get better, I’m sure…
460 days sober today.