Closed - Checking in daily to help maintain focus #5

[Here.I.am]

50 days I guess.
To be honest, I am not wanting to be sober right now. Today and tomorrow are hard. My husband is camping and I’m not because I know how much booze will be around and I just can’t be around that right now. It sucks. Angry and sober. Not a fun combo. Tomorrow I have an AA meeting. Do I even say that publicly…like hey… I had a moment I didnt want to keep being sober. Sigh. I know. I do really want to stay sober. I have to. For me. For my kids. It still sucks some days. I’m trying.

[Hidden]

Congrats on making it through the dinner. Be mindful of those little conversations you were having. You may be trying to warn yourself and possibly opening the door for a relapse. 93 days is a great start, don’t let the pressure of the holidays, your sister and the nerves of a first date cause you to start over.

Reload that sober toolbox. remember what it was like to be controlled by alcohol, be prepared and go get one more day.

And don’t wear heels, at least for the first date! Lol

[SinceIAwoke]

My kids tell me that the wood stove in winter is their image of home.

[Leveller]

Well done Joy. Your doing great​:+1:145 days is brilliant!

[SoberWalker]

Is that good or bad news? Saw a lot of brownie points in the litter boxes today
Kruimel says hi (miauw) to you all!

[RBG]

Boss of my life checking in with 28 days.

[Girlinterrupted]

@Here.I.am Yes! I would definitely share about it. I know for me when I keep those feelings to myself they take over, sigh.

As for camping, I can’t picture doing that sober lol. So good call!!

[Blondie1x]

Day 137 nearly. I have hibernated since Xmas eve and only checked in a few times to read here. I’ve got 500+ checking in dailies to read to see how you’re all doing…

Back in bed with this sustenance, now time for a TS reading sesh lol. Happy Boxing Day gang

[LuluJo]

@SoberWalker

I did mean real brownie points.

[SoberWalker]

Ok, had to Google on that one
But got it now, thank you.

[LuluJo]

Oh, sorry. It is an expression we often use in the States.
Rarely given.

[anon12657779]

There is no time like the present.
Well done

[Hailstrom]

I feel like I’m a dry drunk. Not in the sense of fighting the urges all the time with all my might, but in the sense that I don’t put in the work to make myself better. I talk the talk but I don’t walk the walk. I know I have to work hard to make things happen. But I freeze. I’m frozen.

This is exactly how I feel mate, sorry you’re feeling this way too. I’ve found xmas really challenging this year and in my sober journey so far i’ve not felt more lonely and fed up than right now. But we can work through it right? Its a few days in a lifetime and things will get better. All the best to you pal

[SassyRocks]

Fantastic work!!

[050Nl]

Will do , my Friend called me the they before and wore the same sweater… i said " die you have a fight with your wife that you’re wearing that sweater " guess what my present was

[Desire2ChangeToday]

I connect with this deeply. I think I’m going to change my meat and dairy counter to mindful eating. I think the language is more mind setting and more affirming.

[Kater]

Checking in, Day 530

[Lionfish]

How long have you been off meat and dairy? Long enough to feel any changes?

[Foxtrot]

Checking in day 272.

[crystalclear]

To be honest, I am not wanting to be sober right now.

It’s great to acknowledge this. And yes I think you bring it up in your meeting. It’s good to verbalize stuff like that. Sorry you’re struggling. Hope it passes soon. Stay strong!