Yesterday went well but haven’t seen much people. Was at home and went to my goldsmith class in the evening. So today day 2 (and day 6 of trying).
I am not doing well at this tbh. I have noticed how much of small talk with colleagues is just bitching about students or admin, and if I am not complaining at husband I am being passive aggressive. I am nice to the kids and the cat!
I have been lurking here and becoming more aware. It’s been an eye opener for me - talk about character defects! I have always prided myself on being a nice person. Well there really is some work to do on that. I bitch and complain all the time. Gossip about others and many more ugly things. I am really quite ashamed and going to work on reframing those into positives.
Thank you for inspiring and encouraging me to look inside and find where I need to make some changes to be the “nice” person I always think I am.
Starting my day 1 again. Today should be a win. I’m in the office alone all day. Hopefully, my boss won’t call. Today is my wedding anniversary so all should go well on the home front. Tonight, is my ladies AA meeting and I’ll be mindful when I share to keep it solution based. Then out to dinner with the ladies and that’s always fun and entertaining. My challenge today will be driving. Who am I kidding? Driving is always a challenge.
Seriously…this is where I have to mentally prepare beforehand for all the fuck ups I’ll see and be ok with them. Play some positive music to keep me upbeat. Just remember the scenarios that could possibly make someone drive in such a manner - these keep me sane
Happy anniversary Lisa !
November 15th day 8
3 consecutive days
Did get to see my parents, cousin and aunt for an hour. It was lovely to have the interaction and glad I didn’t go into complaint mode on some topics we discussed.
Completed day 6 . Today I prayed to keep this positive no bitching to continue. It does help to really think before words come out. Honestly in my head a battle does exist. It would be so easy to finding certain circumstances I could complain about. I am just not going to allow it! Life is good! I am sober and have my health!
Happy wedding anniversary Liza!
Just chainged my bracelet to the other wrist again Saw a fatbike with a kid on it riding abnormal hard, irresponcible and without light.
And before I knew I was thinking out loud and clear.
I failed today. Starting with sensor failure at the beginning of my hike which shows me what technology that is working adds to my life.
Why did I start this thread?
Made it through yesterday on a positive vibe and so far today has been amazeballs!
Workout done, after icing shoulder and elbow some home chores and an early to bed (well my regular time, just early for most, lol)
Shine that positive attitude friends. The world needs much more of it these days I think!
. I think you are doing great. Now we see the “failures” when they occur and are more mindful of our thoughts and actions. Even on days that we don’t succeed as we think we should…it’s only one or two incidents and not a full day spent in complaint mode …so that there is progress
Try to give yourself grace. Not an easy challenge but I do believe it will become a way of life with practice
Another day has passed without complaint (well nothing I can think of and nothing out loud for sure.
Had a nice day at home working on me and am doing more of the same today.
Gym for legs then hopefully my sauna blanket arrives so as I can give that a run. Then some
Percussion gun on legs followed with a round of electro shock on shoulders… sounds like a day of self care and no complaints
November 16th day 9
4 consecutive days
Had a rough day with symptoms and emotionally down but I managed to keep positive and make the most of my day in bed.
I did okay today. I called my mother and we talked about our current political situation. Politics is a safe space between my mother and I
Otherwise nothing really to complain. A session in the gym which I like early on a Sunday morning and then a little hike back home. I bought something in a bakery and when the lady told me the price I didn’t complain although there was a brief silence as I stared in disbelief. But no complaint.