Since fracturing my spine nearly 5 years ago, I have become dependant on numerous substances to assist with “the pain” which I feel as though 50% plus of which is psychosomatic in nature. I’m not sure as to what to stop first.
-Alcohol 12 plus standard drinks per night
-Hydrocodone/oxy 40 - 50mg minimum per day
-Valium/diazepam - 3-5 × 5mg per day should be easiest although it could assist with the withdrawals.
-400mg codeine cwe 2 to 3 times per week
-Marijuana~moderate (1 gram or less per day) and easy to quit
Its an extremely rough choice and each time i try to commit to sobriety i fail (although 2 years ago i quit drinking for a month) due to the incessant feeling of failure brought about by the issue that i do not feel as though i can quit all these substances at once and due to that i feel a sense of worthlessness regardless of any progress i make.
WHERE DOI BEGIN PLEASE?