Day 8ish NA
Ive always thought myself to be a person that’s not afraid of confrontation. If somethings on my mind, I can speak up for myself. However, it’s not the same with everyone!
I’m learning that my relationship with my alcoholic mother is unhealthy. She drinks less now in her older age but during my childhood it was a lot heavier. She was a single parent and did her best but I know that I took on the mission of “stabilizing” her at a very young age. My goal was to make things better for her. Then in my adolescence physical abuse was a big risk. I grew to be an expert avoider out of fear… Now I’m in my 40s and I STILL have trouble confronting her with anything, or speaking up about something that bothered me, or sharing my feelings. She has cognitive challenges now so I use that as my latest reasoning for avoiding conflict with her… I fear confronting her would make her cry or feel regretful or guilty.
I don’t really have a question. Just needed to verbalize.