Hi Çağatay, this is a good thorough catalogue of your problems caused by your addiction. I can hear how deeply it affects you. It sounds like you are ready for change in your life. That’s a great place to start from.
Your list of effects on your life reminds me of the topics we are discussing in my sex addiction recovery group right now. I am in a group with 5 other men. This is the book we are using to guide our recovery:
www.gentlepath.com/product.php?productid=94
“Gentle Path Press” is the publisher, but you can find it on Amazon just about everywhere, if that’s more convenient.
I found a very significant improvement in my recovery when I connected with my clinic. Is there a sex addiction recovery group or clinic anywhere near you? Is that something you could do? Neal (another recovering sex addict & a steady companion on the recovery journey) posted a good list here: