Hi! So yesterday I relapsed watching porn for the first time in six months. I’m married going on 9 years in a couple weeks. The first five were really rough overcoming lust. These last few have been disappointing as I haven’t really showed much progress. I used to chronically look at porn multiple times everyday. Then I got saves by Jesus and am down to about twice a year. Thats less than 1% of what I used to do! Only problem is twice a year is twice too many and still hurts my wife a lot. I get bummed because I do it and it’s like as soon as I really start facing the temptation I just give into it. Then there is a wall between us that took so long to break down. Ready to stop, but absolutely lack the power needed to break through this every 6 months habit. Thanks for reading.
Sometimes we need more than just our own will power to overcome addictions, you ever try. saa-recovery.org ?