Why is it I know I’ll end up dead hurt or in jail and still wanna smoke crack. INSANITY that’s why. Anyone agree with me?
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Welcome to TS Tim 
We all came here fighting the addictions that we knew were killing us but we “wanted” anyway. Just take it one day at a time or an hour or a minute or even a second. Come here when you are fighting an urge and interact with a thread, dive into a hobby, take a walk, or anything else you can think of that will distract you from picking up.
My doc was cocaine and for a long time i told myself it wasn’t that bad because i still held down a job or because my kids had this or that… and any other reason i could try to justify my addiction with. Until one day decided that enough was enough and i was ready to face sobriety.
None of us can do it alone, but we can do it together. Someone said “isolation breeds addiction” so check in often, find an in person group, an online one, a book, ANYTHING that will help fill your sober toolbox. And remember were here for you
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Welcome @Babyfacedtim to TS.
Similar to when I was using years ago I would be arrested, locked up for MONTHS because I couldn’t stop using, and as soon as I would get out jail I’d go right on back to using even though my usage was what got me arrested in the first place.
I did this more than once it is the insanity they refer to in step 2 
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Hi Tim, welcome to the the forum, there’s s some serious gourmet shit with regards to recovery within the many topics available here.
I have no idea about crack, but I do know that it’s the same as all addictions when it comes to recovery.
Namely “One Day At A Time”(ODAAT) in the beginning you tell yourself it’s not forever, but I won’t use today, it maybe that you have to break it down to hours even minutes, but eventually it becomes I won’t use at all.
What helped me in the early days was ‘I won’t drink today, I’ll have a drink tomorrow’ as it’s always today and tomorrow never comes I never got to take that drink I promised myself.
Take care, you can beat this and at TS we’re all on your side and here to help.
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It’s addiction
Its phycology a pretty big battle in your head along with withdrawals
Your experience quitting can help someone else if you do it
Read and post often
Hope to hear from you soon
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Lots of wisdom here ^
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