Relapsed for a couple days last weekend after 2.5 weeks sober because I went to this guy’s house and he kept pressuring me to buy cocaine. Eventually I gave in. Now 2 days sober again, but I’m literally feeling like this right now lol: https://youtu.be/-acgri9gUW8?feature=shared
I’m full of regret about doing cocaine on those couple days, but I’m back on track being sober again. I decided to start avoiding the person who tempted me to use cocaine. My friends were even telling the guy before I arrived to not pressure me into buying cocaine, and he still pressured me especially when my friends fell asleep eventually. Attempt #1223324214 at long-term sobriety let’s goooo. I’ll never stop trying to be sober long-term until I’m either fucking dead or sober forever.
I was a heroin addict 13 years been clean 13 years it never goes away that craving. Unfortunately i have recently replaced that want and need with alcohol. Keep engaging every day. I had no help until recently. You are not alone xx
My DOC was crack cocaine and i totally understand the many attempts that it takes to get clean. To be honest, the only way i was able to get clean was to make some drastic changes to my daily living. One of those things was initally avoiding people, places, and things that could trigger me. I had to give myself time to learn healthy coping strategies on how to deal with triggers when they pop up. Maybe avoiding slippery places (like that guys place) would be a good start. I can hear the regret in ur words and i can sense the want to change keep trying. Learn from ur relpases and make changes as needed so that u dont repeat the same thing over. Wishing u all the best on ur journey
Instead of thinking that using or relapsing as the problem, I now view it as a symptom of an inner root problem or problems.
For instance, my use would stem from bad company or entertaining cravings. But these aren’t the main root problem either…
Which means that my relapsing is a symptom… Of a symptom
This journey of mine takes me past looking and focusing on all the symptoms, and exposing and dealing with the inner root problems.
One root problem that comes to mind is lack of “Connection”. It’s a big problem; far bigger than my porn use. It would be unwise for me not to deal with this problem while only addressing it’s symptoms, which are often hanging around bad company which leads to relapse.
keep trying. Learn from ur relpases and make changes as needed so that u dont repeat the same thing over. Wishing u all the best on ur journey
