Thank you !! I’m sure they do know, missing Mondays all the time. Not even trying to really cover it up. I know if I don’t stop drinking I will end up in the ER if not worse. I am feeling so overwhelmed and scared for the future.
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@bettertimesahead I’m sorry, sending you 
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You can do this! Try not to worry about tomorrow or the next the day.
Just tonight, you can do that, right?
Go bed early bet your body is tried. Think about how good it feel tomorrow morning not freshly hangover.
If you kept drink, what does that future look like, not good!
Take care of yourself!! I’m in your corner pulling in for you!
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Hope you are doing better today.
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I made it through yesterday sober and mustered up the courage to come to work today.
Yesterday I prayed , met with a therapist for the first time , and came clean to my family that I need help.
Going to seek my options out tonight and potentially go on leave to get treatment.
Feeling really motivated to heal one day at a time living in the present. I know now I need to put me first.
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So glad you are here posting. Connection is really the best course of action.
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This is a great step. It took a lot of courage for you to open up and ask for help. You should be very proud of yourself and that you made it through yesterday sober.
It felt better to wake not freshly hangover this morning. Didn’t it?
I hope this evening goes well. You got this!
Stay sober with me tonight.
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I feel very vulnerable right now but I know that’s what I need to be.
100 percent great to not be hungover !! I am sleepy and uncomfortable but I have no racing heart which is was scared me the most.
I am really trying to focus on one day and the little things I can do each day to get to a better place.
I plan to stay sober tonight and wake up even better tomorrow.
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I know how that heart feeling, feels. I used wake 3 or 4 time a night. With my heart pound out of my chest. Thinking for sure I was dying. I have not for awhile now.
You go this! It will get better, your on the right path!
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I am not saying it’s plain sailing from here on, but the first 24 hours are definitely the most difficult and they are behind you now. Congratulations! 
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Yes my gosh to think how many times I have been where I was yesterday.
And where I am today still not feeling normal! I don’t remember the last time I woke up and felt normal but I can’t wait for that day.
I don’t ever want to be there again. Listening to podcasts and speaking to others on here shows me I’m not alone.
Shows me that there is a reason that I can’t control alcohol and that it runs my life to ruins.
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VERY true. Nothing like the serenity of putting your head down at night knowing you were able to stay sober again that day.
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Just got home for the day and my mood is definitely improved. The amount of people who care for me and definitely see I have been and am struggling make things easier. I’m grateful for that.
Going to cook some spaghetti and meat sauce for dinner and wind down with a hot shower and tea.
Grateful for all of you as well
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Just got the call that my grandpa who is states away will probably not make it through the night or next few days
I want to try to go to see him or at least be with my family if I can’t make it in time.
I was starting to wind down and try to put my mind to rest and now I’m up not really wanting to seek distraction just sort of sitting with this devastated feeling.
Not a part of me wants to drink right now , if anything I’m happy that I’m sober to be able to process what’s going on. Just sort of lost and wanted to turn here.
Very sorry to hear that friend. But glad it doesn’t make you crave a drink. Hang in there. You’re not alone
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So sorry for your sad news. Very happy you reached out here. Sending you all the comfort I can. Drinking will not change events but only make you feel worse. Stay strong and be there for your family.
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I am sorry that your granddad is so poorly, @bettertimesahead.
From personal experience, I know how powerless you feel if all you want to do is be with your family but there are states or oceans in between. I applaud for not having cravings and instead sitting with your feelings and working through them 
You mention wanting to make your way over asap, is that something you’ll be able to do tomorrow? If so and if it involves driving, I would encourage you to get some sleep prior to that in order to maximize your safety on the road. If it involves planes, the only recommendation I have is to not make money a decision factor - there is no price tag on being with your grandfather and your family at this time.
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@bettertimesahead Morning. Spaghetti sounds so good, even better the next day. Im proud of you getting to bed and waking up hangover free. It makes the day so much easier to start when we are not freshly hangover and miserable.
Sorry to hear about your granddad. It is hard losing our loved ones. Sending extra . You are not alone.
Keeping growing your toolbox and do whatever it takes to stay sober just for today.
You doing awesome! Keep up that healing! You got this!!
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Today has been a day! i am in bed and sober and proud i pushed through all my anxiety. Thank you all for your kind regards with my grandpa. I am able to fly to him tomorrow and have been arranging that most of my day. I spent the evening with my family and had dinner and was able to spend some time with my mama.
I asked my step dad to talk and explained to him what is going on with me and that I want to be held accountable and supported in getting the help I need. He was loving and comforting.
It feels so good to have the secret out.
I thought of this because you were right all my family knew I was drinking but they didn’t know the extent and that I let it get so bad again.
I would say the last four days have been the lowest and hardest times I’ve had in a long time. I know this weekend is going to be hard but I am going to stay sober and be able to be around my grandpa with a clear head.
Warm wishes to all of you out there. I guess this is the end of day 3 for me !
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@bettertimesahead I keep my fingers crossed for you, I know exactly how you feel, for me my debilitating anxiety when hungover was what scared me more than anything else before, so I stopped drinking, only 17 days ago but I am already different person, and Im going to make it this time, and staying in touch with people here is exactly what I needed… stay with us please, we can make it together xxx
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Congrats on 17 days and already feeling the benefits of sobriety. I am so happy I found this platform and want to stay here and stay sober for good but one day at a time.
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