Daily Gratitude List. Gratitude is the air of recovery

How cool is that. I am grateful that TS is an all inclusive place. Covers all aspects of life. :blush: Together we are strong.

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Thanks @Sunflower1
And thanks all you GDudes. Iā€™m grateful for this thread.
Iā€™m grateful for our dog walks.
Iā€™m grateful I told my wife I FEEL sad she passed out drunk on the couch again.
Iā€™m grateful I told my wife I FEEL angry she got drunk all 3 nights my daughter was here.
Iā€™m grateful I told my wife I FEEL really nervous starting this conversation.
Iā€™m grateful she said my feelings are valid. And sheā€™s sorry and that all she can do is try and do better.
Kind of anticlimactic and no arguing drama.
And I felt better. Still do. :thinking: So this is how it works. :thinking:
Iā€™m grateful I didnā€™t do the 40 minute dog walk with her, in my own silence, hurt, and mental anguish and resentment.
Fuck resentments!!
Iā€™m grateful we could use the rest of our walk to plan our very busy week ahead.
So fucking grateful for this thread and you all.
:pray:t2::heart:

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Iā€™m grateful @Dazercat made a huge step forward with the discussion. Now itā€™s ā€œout thereā€ for continued awareness and discussion. I hope sheā€™ll make the decision to follow in your footsteps. Hugs friend.

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Beautiful!

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I am so grateful today to be sober. I am grateful that I smelled like beer today but only because people spilled on the floor at the game. I am grateful that my ex-wife is proud of me and took me to see my favorite team. I am grateful that after a fun day I have a safe sober place to come back to. I am grateful that real, honest, humble people share a piece of there life with me here. I am grateful my three teenage children are starting to talk to me again. I am grateful that I can recall the last 53 days with no blank spots (Well the first week or so was pretty bad maybe not everyone of those days). I am grateful that I am going to outpatient treatment tomorrow to be around some great guys I have bonded with. O am greatful that I am starting to believe I deserve to be happy sober and loved.
@Dazercat I am grateful that you are sober had an amazing time with your child and a healthy talk with your wife.

And even though my team lost I am grateful I didnā€™t want to drink surrounded by people that were

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Good evening all,
Iā€™m grateful for a wonderful day today. Beautiful weather, got some kitchen organization done, driving lesson with my son, good workout, easy and yummy dinner made. Some days are just good. Iā€™ll take it gratefully, because some days arenā€™t. Iā€™m grateful for the simplicity of the day, and that I didnā€™t feel the need to ā€œspruce it upā€ with alcohol. Iā€™ll remember this day, and the peace I felt.
Everyone have a wonderful evening :heart:

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This is the key. Iā€™m glad you two talked it over - thatā€™s really the only way forward. Iā€™m happy for you. Iā€™m grateful for those tough conversations that I have with my husband around drinking, especially drinking too much and having feelings about it. They suck, especially the lead up to them, but theyā€™re so vital. And there is a weight lifted afterward, for the most part. Glad for you and hope this is another good nudge for her to look at her behavior and make better choices in future. :heartpulse:

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Iā€™m grateful that I have a patient and loving partner who is willing to risk a broken heart to try to help me. It makes me so motivated to keep going each day

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Iā€™m grateful itā€™s a Sunday night with no work tomorrow. Gonna stay up late and read another chapter! Sure beats the before time, when I wouldnā€™t even question that a holiday Monday meant extra wine on Sunday.

Iā€™m grateful for today and the weekend - for the energy to tackle a couple big tasks around my wee home (dusting blinds, cleaning windows, garden stuff away, etc) - things that should be done before snow falls. Never had that kind of energy in the before time, or even if I did these tasks, the punch was spiked (so to speak). Grateful for a feeling of accomplishment. And also for the rest and breaks I took.

This thanksgiving day, Iā€™m grateful for so many things. For this practice and this thread - it makes me see that everyday is worthy of giving thanks. For my home and my things. My family of friends now, and good memories of my parents and childhood. For feeling content and safe. For feeling hopeful and optimistic about the future (thank you, recovery), in that I can trust that there will always good things going on and beauty, even in difficult times too.

Iā€™m grateful for sleep that will come soon - Iā€™m tired! And the first moments of waking to look forward to.
Iā€™m grateful for all of you! And grateful for another day. :orange_heart:

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Iā€™m grateful for stumbling back into this thread after ten days. Grateful I recognize I need to practise this. Iā€™m grateful I have a cold but it isnā€™t covid. Grateful I invited my old(est) friends over for a meal Wednesday. Grateful there is only one out for us four left who still drinks, and grateful it isnā€™t me. Grateful that looking around my place I can see the massive improvement that has taken place in the last two years, grateful to realize that itā€™s no coincidence it coincides with my sobriety.
Grateful to see improvement in myself too, improvement that sometimes becomes a bit obscured because lifeā€™s still life, and my moods still have their swings, but improvement there is nonetheless. Damned grateful for my life and my current status when I think where I was i my head three years ago.
And very grateful to find you all still here, my dear friends, all of you. Grateful I can come here and feel the togetherness and closeness and unity of purpose. Grateful I can feel the love.

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This morning I am grateful to walk up on a Monday without stress. I still have work and chores and bills to pay, but itā€™s all manageable and I thank sobriety for that. I am grateful for the time shared with my Mom yesterday. I was glad to see her out and about getting much needed activity and new sights and sounds. I am grateful for the look ahead to a couple years from now when I plan to move away from my home town. Being able to plan and find just the right fit is exciting and I will be ready for a very fresh start. I am grateful for classical music, meditation and dog / cat cuddles combines with great coffee to start the day.

I am grateful for all of you and this safe space to share, be thankful and inspired, vent and celebrate!

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Day 64 and am grateful I didnā€™t ugly cry during my Daily Reflections meeting this morning and that I learned about the pink cloud, which apparently Iā€™m on. Iā€™m also Grateful it was shared to be careful of the ego and not Ease God Out. Grateful for this new day to practice self-restraint, listening more and being kind.

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Iā€™m grateful for another day. Daisy warmly on my lap purring, my coffee, and I slept in a bit.
Iā€™m grateful I didnā€™t want to sleep in, but Iā€™m sober and flexible so Iā€™ll adjust my busy day accordingly.
Iā€™m grateful I still donā€™t drink. Iā€™m grateful my daughter made it home safely to Cali.
Iā€™m grateful my son made it home to Dallas safely from a wedding in Maine.
Iā€™m grateful for the chance to endure the test of anxiety and my sobriety this week as we prepare to board all the pets and go to Dallas on Thursday.
Iā€™m grateful Iā€™ve already flown once sober. I can do it again.
Iā€™m grateful Iā€™ll be strong in my sobriety to fly with my wife who Iā€™m sure will be drinking. Why wouldnā€™t she? Iā€™m grateful at least the 2 of us wonā€™t be getting hammered at the airport bar and that itā€™s a non stop flight.
Iā€™m grateful I told my wife my feelings yesterday. It wasnā€™t really a conversation. It went down like I mention before. She also knows the script and how to validate my feelings. So I was not surprised in the least when she ordered wine for brunch and drank wine all day. But Iā€™m grateful she didnā€™t pass out on the couch and went to bed. Kinda :face_with_raised_eyebrow:
Iā€™m grateful I recognized my resentment toward her. Itā€™s a powerful useless feeling. And I didnā€™t get over it per say. But it was easier to deal with since I told her how I felt. Iā€™m grateful I realize there is nothing I can do to get her to stop drinking.
Iā€™m grateful itā€™s not even my job to get her to stop drinking. If I had that power I would use it to help so many people.
The reality is Iā€™m grateful I know I can only work on myself. And practice the principals Iā€™ve learned in Alanon.
Iā€™m grateful my wife doesnā€™t drive my crazy. I drive me crazy. If I let myself.
Grateful for you all. Thanks for reading my shit.
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Oh Iā€™m grateful resentment was mentioned in 2 of my devotional readings today. I love it when God gives me exactly what I need. I think Iā€™ll resent the wife much less today.
Iā€™ll do this instead :point_down:
I should pray for the one against whom I hold the resentment. I should put that person in Godā€™s hands and let God show him or her the way to live.
From my daily Hazeldon Betty Ford reading.
:pray:t2::heart:

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Today is difficult but I come here.

I am grateful I am sober. I am struggling.
I am grateful that my mother tries to calm me and supports me (idk if she is sincere but I try to believe in it) and is listening about the cats.

I am grateful I found this vet where I had to go again today. Here my gratitude somehow ends. I am grateful I can easily get Paula to the vet by bike in the backback wich gives me freedom and independence. I am grateful she was more or less okay on the ride.

I am grateful for all the different kind and lovable persons that are here. I am grateful I have enough.

We are a bit sad atm but thats okay. Iā€™ll get better I hope.

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It has taken me a very long time to understand this but I am so grateful I get it now. I am grateful that I can either let myself sit in this shit that I have been feeling and pick it apart and drive myself deeper into a hole of depression and isolation or I have the choice to accept that I do not know what I am feeling and just carry on. I am grateful for common interests and the sense of belonging that can generate with people who live around the globe. With all the division these days I am grateful for any feelings of togetherness I can grab. I am grateful for technology, video chats, this forum and all the ways that we have to support our recovery now that 20 years ago were not available. I am grateful for my fucking plants and the sense of purpose they give me, every day I look forward to tending to them to seeing their growth and making sure they have everything they need to thrive. At one point I was thinking " Ugh Iā€™m addicted to plants" but I changed that thinking to, " plants are my passion and they are my hobby." If I make it something ugly it will feel ugly and there is nothing wrong with what I am doing, itā€™s healthy. I am grateful for the change that the 12 steps have made in my thinking and how I am able to process my thoughts. I am grateful that I know that I will not be able to stay clean without 12 step recovery in my life for the rest of my life. I am so fucking grateful that there were people like me who also knew this and are taking 28, 30,35 year cakes and have never left the program. People who have stuck around to share their message of strength and hope with people like me. Imagine if everyone that cleaned up and left the rooms of AA or NAā€¦ I am grateful that isnt what happens.

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What she said :point_down: :wink:

Thank you, Bootz. And for the chuckle about the lil aphids! I hope your breakfast with the local berries and roast coffee was delicious, and that the ā€œpusherā€ was no match for your commitment to sobriety.
Yep, letā€™s go get another 24. :orange_heart:

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A late gratitude post in the hopes that Iā€™d have good things to say about acupuncture today. And I do! Iā€™m so grateful that my appointment went GREAT and Iā€™ve found a kind and educational practitioner. I went in feeling lots of feels: nervous, excited, cautiously optimistic, and I was put at ease right away. I went in with a pretty bad pressure headache and left feeling like I had just had a deep tissue massage, super relaxed and pain free. Iā€™m so grateful that acupuncture might be a way to help me with migraines! Iā€™m grateful I am not afraid of needlesā€¦:grimacing: Iā€™m grateful I have another tool in my toolbox for pain management, a month of biweekly appointments scheduled (every other week) and that I can afford to pay out of pocket for methods outside of what my health insurance covers, including supplements. Iā€™m grateful that I was able to push outside my comfort zone and make a new acquaintance yesterday and hopefully spark up a friendship. Iā€™m grateful that it wasnā€™t too cold when Miss Lupe and I got caught in the rain during our walk this morning and it actually made me feel really alive! Iā€™m grateful I have a fridge full of comfort food that I cooked/prepared and we can eat on that for a few days as the weather is turning colder. Iā€™m grateful for my hobbies and interests and friends I can connect with anytime I feel like I need support.
Always grateful for you all, amigos. :heartpulse:

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I am so grateful to all my support.
I am grateful for clear memories
I am grateful that Iā€™m willing to work on me

Iā€™m grateful I logged on even though I am really tired today.
Be well everyone

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Iā€™m grateful to be sober this thanksgiving. My second! Iā€™m grateful that I get to work on myself, on my recovery, every day. If I donā€™t, probs only a matter of time until I uncork a bottleā€¦

A huge part of my recovery is giving myself the option to withdraw, to decline, to say no. Sometimes I must! Itā€™s less an option and more a duty, if Iā€™m going to work this recovery thing:

  • Itā€™s taken a while, but Iā€™m grateful Iā€™ve learned that sometimes I have to withdraw from relationships or friendships, circumstances and situations. Some of the stressy dynamics could be my doing, and due to my recovery, after all. Maybe later Iā€™ll have more skills to be in all kinds of situations and relationships without being unhealthily sucked in. But Iā€™ll leave that til then and just focus on today for nowā€¦

  • Iā€™m grateful this week I officially start my self-appointed/requested ā€œdemotionā€. Iā€™ve said ā€œnoā€ too to over-functioning at work, and part of my recovery is to be human, not strive to earn my worth by being superhuman. (Spoiler alert: never worked). Yay, lower bar!

  • Like any weekend, I wrote a goofy-long ā€œto doā€ list this weekend. Iā€™m grateful I got some of it done. But grateful I didnā€™t get it all done. I rested and played too. Progress! (And no empties to take to recycling ā€“ one less thing on my list, yay!)

Iā€™m grateful for dear ones in my life. For the long lovely gabby zoomfest with a dear pal today. You know when someone knows your yuck and loves you still? When itā€™s safe to cry and belly laugh too? Iā€™m grateful, in recovery, I can actually start being my un-spiked self - who I was before the wine took over. Iā€™m grateful for the ones who see me.

Just like Iā€™m grateful for all you Gratidudes, and always grateful for another day. :orange_heart:

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Good evening all,
Iā€™m grateful today was pretty good at work. Iā€™m grateful that I debated working out while I was driving home, but instead I decided to grill some burgers and hangout in the garden with my daughter and mother in law. Iā€™m grateful for dinners around the table. Iā€™m grateful for simple, easy days. Iā€™m grateful for beautiful weather.
Everyone have a wonderful evening :heart:

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