Wow Pica. That’s really big. I’m grateful to have read that this morning.
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Thanks friend! Grateful for your support on this journey. Feels like yesterday that I was posting about sitting in the parking lot of a meeting too afraid to go in 
( p.s. I’m still waiting for your meeting update 
)
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Congratulations! I can only imagine how terrifying that is. Sometimes people push me to read how it works and I’ll be shaking and trembling just trying to make it through. But it does feel like the more you are involved the more of a shield you have…
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I’m really proud of you for getting up and doing it @Pica. I did the same Friday night and I was scared shit but everyone was very supportive. I was very relieved when it was over. It felt like a huge weight had lifted.
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I wouldnt even read How it works for the longest time it’s so scary at first but the more you do it, the easier it gets. You got this!
I’m really grateful for my home group. They push me when it’s needed
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I’m grateful my life is very manageable presently and my wife and I are talking so much now as the elephant in the room gets smaller. I’m grateful we are communicating really well. Especially about me going to Al-Anon meetings. And it’s not a threat to her, it’s about me and how I’m doing. I’m grateful I know she’s still going to drink today. I’m grateful I know I’m not drinking today. And I’m probably not drinking tomorrow. And I’m grateful I can only change me and my stupid stinking thinking.
ODAAT
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I was purposely showing up late so nobody would ask me to do readings, but then I think people started catching on and they don’t let you do that for too long lol
They’re like fine then you’ll do the reading at the end !!
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Wow proud of you too!! That’s amazing 
I agree. Feels like a weight has been lifted
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Well it’s been too long so I’m the most grateful to have come here. I haven’t read much and it’s impossible to catch up from a month or so ago but regardless, I’m grateful.
I’m incredibly grateful to have managed to not drink during my in laws visit that just finished. They are an incredible mixture of kind, nice, and generous with downright mean, toxic, and judgy and it’s really hard for me to deal with. I’m usually drunk the whole time they are here (not noticeably, I was one of those drunk but seem sober types unless I was really drunk which I only did by myself) but not this time. So of course now they are gone and I’m crying on my couch with relief after being in Owl/shut down mode while they were here. Talk about an emotional roller coaster.
I’m grateful that even though I have made some really really bad decisions while in active addiction, I’m in recovery now and that doesn’t just pertain to no more alcohol. I’m in financial recovery, physical recovery, alcohol recovery, psychological recovery, and I’m sure a few more kinds. (I figured out I was spending over $1000/month on alcohol, no fucking wonder I have no savings 
)
It’s so hard to deal with the consequences of bad decisions when you feel like a different person did it, but here it is anyway. It’s uncomfortable and painful and it triggers the hell out of my wanting alcohol to numb it but, it’s part of recovery. It’s such a struggle but it’s part of living through your addiction and coming out the other side. It may be bleak right now, but I’m pretty sure I’m not going to end up being an old drunk in a ditch and that is worth all this uncomfortableness.
I’m grateful for being able to ramble about this and knowing everyone here understands exactly what I’m talking about.
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The first big emotional outburst since sobriety.
20 days. I needed to cry.
“But a woman is a changeling
Always shifting shape
Just when you think you have it figured out
Something new begins to take
What strange claws are these
Scratching at my skin?
I never knew my killer would be coming from within”
Florence & The Machine - King
I’m so grateful I can feel again 
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Hi,
I’m grateful that I didn’t drink yesterday or want to.
I’m grateful that today is almost over, it’s not been the best day but that’s ok, we have good days and not as good days.
I’m grateful for a quiet house after work, it helps to wind down.
I’m grateful for early nights, I love them, the earlier the better.
I’m grateful for everyone here, thank you 
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This song is brilliant. All of us women should listen to it. 
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Got me singing like someone’s Aunt in church! Florence is my boyfriends favorite singer ever, I even made him a fake Catholic style candle with her photoshopped as an angel on it 
This song absolutely converted me, Florence is amazing!! 
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I’m grateful for my partner. I’m grateful he’s my best friend. I’m grateful that he’s never given up on me. I’m grateful that letting him in isn’t as scary as I once thought it was. That I thought I was protecting myself, but was really just hurting us both. I’m grateful that we work through things together now and that it’s no longer an endless cycle of seesawing each other’s emotions and overthinking. That we open up. That we share. That we feel. Stella once brought up to me that I may be “highly sensitive” and I believe my partner and I are both very sensitive people. That it has been a source of a great deal of love but also a great deal of pain in our relationship. That we both had extremely painful childhoods, while trying to navigate life together. I’m grateful that I’m more sensitive to what he needs now, to what I need. I’m grateful we are both really good communicators. I’m grateful we speak the same language. I’m really grateful he is in my life
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I’m grateful for my sponsor encouraging me to go to my home group last night.
I immediately started crying when I entered and saw all of the people who care about me.
I’m grateful for my home group.
I’m grateful that my wife lets me decompress from work before I engage with the family.
I’m grateful for comfy clothes and soft mattresses.
I’m grateful for good TV shows.
So grateful for this group.
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A quick 3 things I’m grateful for in this moment because I need to pull myself out of the negative headspace I’ve been in today
1) I’m grateful to have a good relationship with my father
Earlier this evening I was able to sit around with him listening to Thelonious Monk on vinyl, talking about life, and making bad jokes about the rain and our achey bodies
2) I’m grateful to have cliqued with my new therapist today
I told her about my self love card deck and how I started a thread to share them here with yall and she was so genuinely excited about it all
3) I’m grateful for my mother teaching me how to garden at such a young age and showing me how to preserve food
This is still something I am connected to her by even if our relationship is otherwise a bit strained. We are going to be learning more about pressure canning together this summer. We have been canning maple syrup from the trees up at the cabin all spring. When my Memere was sick a few weeks ago I was able to bring her the last of the applesauce from 2021 that I still make with the same recipe from my mom, and apples from the same tree from my childhood. Also still eating plums from 2019 from the tree by the house I was living in Utah.
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I’m grateful to God for guiding me through today while helping me stay clean and sober. I’m grateful for recovery, including mine. I’m grateful for ALL my family, friends, TS and the gratidudes. I’m grateful for the walk home while listening to music, still my favorite part of the day. I’m grateful the manager gave me a key to the restaurant today, they really don’t want me to leave in May. I’m grateful that I will use the key to close and open for them as needed over the next five weeks. I’m grateful that more in person NA meetings are opening up so I can try to get to two or three a week, it makes a big difference when I get more than one meeting every couple weeks. I’m grateful I asked the same lady out again, she said the same thing as last time, I would love to but can’t, I will not be asking her again. I’m grateful for the twelve steps. I’m grateful for humor and laughter. I’m grateful for my pillow. I’m grateful for feeling a little more balanced lately between recovery, family and work.
God bless you all. 
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p.s. Don’t forget to smile and breathe, it feels good. Ya you!!
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Grateful for another day, another chance after wasting so much. The Mercy of God is endless
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That is inspiring! Huge congratulations on your 3 years. Keep on keeping on! 
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