I would have a hard time living in that environment, even as a heterosexual man. It would drive me nuts to be surrounded by that crowd. I live in a rural area in the bible belt, but even my gay friends don’t have stories this… aggressive. Really sorry you have to go through that. Your persistence at authentication is inspiring.
This oddly makes me feel more isolated. But I appreciate what you’re trying to do, which I believe is empathy and reaching out to ease this aching loneliness. Thank you heterosexual friend.
I am grateful to be sober.
I am grateful for a virtual friend here.
I am glad I am still caffeine free.
I am grateful I could work from home today and took some naps as I was so exhausted.
I am grateful a new cycle has started.
Monday evening gratitude.
I’m grateful I always keep going and root for the little tasks when anything else feels too much. Every babystep, every minitask counts.
I’m grateful doing one thing often leads to doing more. I’m grateful this happenend today and now a bunch of flowers are planted.
I’m grateful for a shower, my heated pillow, already being in bed and hoping for 8 solid hours of sleep
Grateful for:
591 days of freedom
Health
Mobility
Modern medicine
Psych meds and less stigma, but I know it still exists
Cbt
Half caff
Exercise and endorphins
Memories with my Mom
My Dad, sister, and fur bae sister Emma
My sobriety actually sticking this time after almost 10 years of “trying” and my commitment to continue indefinitely
Odaat
Fur angel snuggles
Inner resources that keep me able to remain mostly steady
Peace
TS
Today I’m grateful for:
~Willingness
~Soft blankets
~Synchronicity
~Much more freedom for Marlow
~Gramma chats
~Catching up on Outlander
~Sitting outside and enjoying the day
~Food in the freezer
~Being able to contact most anyone at any time by this little handheld device. Gone are the days of pigeon mail!
~The obsession being lifted and freedom from drugs & alcohol
~Big book readings & finishing our chapter
~Being a different person today
~Treating myself well & listening to my body
Grateful that I have knowledge that you can’t change other people, nor what they think of you.
Grateful I know that alcohol can cause people to act in certain ways you’ve never seen them do.
So grateful for the meeting I sat through with a speaker who definitely overcame as much, if not more than I have to.
Grateful my sober mind can think things through and know that I can overcome “hard.” Sometimes knowing what I have done in the past matters.
Grateful I was able to talk through the chaos I faced yesterday, by thread and with my Mom and a friend.
Grateful that a bad place, isn’t the worst place. Regardless if to this point, it is my worst, it could absolutely be worse.
Grateful that I have studied for years about the risk of resentment and that it doesn’t help anything or anyone.
Grateful I know who I am, how I am, how I act. AND knowing I have to intentionally remind myself that actions are more important than words.
You, here, life.
I’m grateful I was in the back yard when Andy got attacked by a coyote Sunday
I’m grateful I got to him in time to scare off the coyote before Andy got carried away
I’m grateful our vet said to bring him tight down and they wanted to look at him.
I’m grateful he’s going to be ok even though they found 4 canine bites on his neck. One of them needed 2 staples.
I’m grateful I have the means and smarts to take him right down and not think he will be ok. None of us are ok.
I’m grateful I never let my dogs out back alone because of the swimming pool and coyotes. I really didn’t think they’d jump the five foot stone wall while I was out there.
I’m grateful wifey finally got out of the house after surgery to go to the vet with us. I’m grateful her thumb surgery is healing and going well and she’s already able to do things around the house. Not much. But not in bed all day with pain.
I’m grateful Brian finished my grill suppose to start in February. 2 weeks got started in mid March and done right on time. Construction Time. Apparently that’s a different time zone and since I’m sober and retired I can be in that time zone when needed. I’m grateful it looks great and all the other handyman work he did is finished with as well.
I’m grateful my friends from Texas are on a western road trip and are stopping in to see friends spontaneously and having a great time posting on instagram. I’m grateful they will be stopping by after wifey’s surgery and just before my colonoscopy that will be a fun bit for them to put on their exciting travels as I’ll be shitting myself Thursday night. And he offered to drive me to it. Anyone can post Disney Land
I’m grateful I been so busy taking care of cats and dogs and wifey and construction guys that I just get going into my “zone.”
I’m grateful I still find time for my garden work and a brief nap after Gus time yesterday just before dinner.
I’m grateful I sleep like a log at night.
I’m grateful I’m sober and hangover free every fucken day.
Tuesday gratitude.
Today I’m grateful for finding balance after a grumpy, nervous day.
I’m grateful I used my bad mood to tackle unloved tasks.
I’m grateful for my toolbox and my willingness to do what is needed. Super grateful for a scented bubble bath that put me in deep relax mode
I’m grateful for the love, fun and joy with my pets. They all are hillarious.
I’m grateful for all the work I put in over the last years to create my life as it is now, for all the work to overcome old patterns, let go of what never was mine to carry or no longer suits me, for working hard on becoming the person I want to be. I’m grateful for all I learned and all the experience shared here on TS, I got my strongest tools from here
I’m grateful for ODAAT and that my sober head will hit a comfy pillow soon.