Grateful for another sober morning. Grateful for my family, for my mom, for my friends, for my late stepdad. His wake/memorial was last night at a whiskey focused speakeasy, which is perfect for him and for the gathering he would have liked. I didn’t want to drink necessarily (it was a situation in which my anxiety flourishes) but it was still a bit uncomfortable at times to sit with the knowledge that I COULD drink if I chose to, that people would excuse it as a “special circumstance”. It was a smallish space, loud and crowded. One of the things that mark my stepdad and their group of friends is their often garrulous and straightforward love of life and fun, their warmth and openness, so there were drinks and food and memories and tears and hugs and laughter.
I have a lot of reasons to be grateful for my stepdad, and a lot of good memories of him. He and my mom only married in July, but he’s pretty much been a part of the family since I was 15 (I’m almost 40). At their wedding, we all squished and squished together for a family picture, and he leaned in to my mom’s ear and said “I never realized how much it would mean to me to become a part of the family until just now,” and I loved him and I was happy.
I have a lot of anxiety, and it sometimes manifests as insecurity in relationships, like i always have to be careful because people might not like me all of a sudden. I have a lot of anxiety around my mom’s grief as a matter of fact, because I feel at a loss and unable to find the perfect thing that will provide comfort to her and not being able to find it she will notice I’m not a great person and resent me or be disappointed or whatever. I know that’s my dumb brain, I’m working on it ok guys? The point is anyway, I never ever felt that way about my stepdad. He cared about me, genuinely liked me, and was glad and proud to see me grow up and to become my official stepdad. I feel so proud and grateful for that.
My sobriety, 206 days free from weed and alcohol
Todays Boscoes birthday! 3yo
Hubby and his love
A flexible schedule
Online shopping
Coffee
My mom, she is amazing
The support here
AA fellowship
Sparkling water
Leftovers
A comfy bed
Gratitude
Music
Christmas lights
Im not going to drink today and that is enough
I am grateful my eyes are still okay after 25 years of diabetes. I am grateful the atropine is wearing off. Fucking difficult to see.
I am grateful I calmed down a lot compared to yesterday. It is what it is.
I am grateful to be tired. I think I will sleep much better tonight. I am grateful I have another and another and yet another bike to go to work with.
I am grateful someone from the group here shared his 100 days with me. It’s good to know someone around who is celebrating.
I am grateful for you.
Today I’m grateful for my neat home. The wood fired stove that makes such a cozy warm ambience on a grey day, the big and clean kitchen/livingroom that allows me to talk with guests while cooking. I’m grateful for friends coming over for lunch and a nice chat. I’m grateful I love to cook
Of course and every day I’m grateful for the dishwasher.
I’m grateful that the cats sniffed and inspected the guests, even let them pet them.
Grateful for coming here and venting in the morning. It helped.
Today I’m grateful for my life, love, cats, friends and TS
This morning I am grateful for classical music from the radio with my strong coffee. I had a restful sleep and my house is warm. Yesterday I received the letter with the forecast for next years electricity bill - it stopped my heart for a second. But after some thinking and putting things in perspective I realize, I can still make a sustainable choice.
I am grateful I enjoy my job and can see value in it. I love my colleagues - I learned a lot from some of them over the years. I am grateful we all work together in making our time together as enjoyable as possible.
I am grateful I have enough and the christmas season is about to start (or maybe already started?). I just love all the coziness around that time. May you have a joyful day everyone
Thank you for this read. It really touched me and reminded me to remember passed ones by their joyful and happy moments and the occasions, when their personality could shine the brightest. I can tell you loved your stepdad a lot and I am sorry for your loss here.
I can also relate to feeling anxious around someone elses grief. In my experience though people don’t expect others to say the one perfect thing. It may just be enough to give them the space to be sad or angry or silent and not be excluded. Sending love your way
I’m grateful for Al-Anon.
I’m grateful I’m not in a foul mood.
I’m grateful to be sober and hangover free.
I’m grateful to be up early with dogs barking at something in the faint soon to be sunrise.
I’m grateful for family.
I’m grateful we don’t have any family here for Thanksgiving. I’m grateful that is kind of a lie. I’m grateful the only stress this Thanksgiving is what I would create.
I’m grateful for another Thanksgiving with just my wife and my cats and dogs. And grateful we are healthy. I’m grateful we are actually cooking at home. Well, if I think that enough, maybe I will be grateful we are cooking at home.
I’m grateful for the best most beautiful grand baby in the world. I’m grateful for my wonderful son and my daughter-in-law. I’m grateful I see a lot of me in my son as he makes his Holiday preparations, decorating, cooking, etc….
I’m grateful for my beautiful daughter and grandson to be and my son-in-law. I’m grateful we can travel to see them frequently when Gus is born.
I’m grateful for wonderful Thanksgiving memories from my childhood. And the great Thanksgivings my wife and I created for our children.
I’m grateful for my 3rd sober Thanksgiving.
I’m grateful for a full day of football.
I’m grateful for the Thanksgiving parade. I’m grateful I still put it on TV each year like my mom use to do and it gives me warm memories of when I use to watch it with excitement as a child. Like when the Wizard Of Oz would come on tv once a year.
I’m grateful I found the Sober Time app and downloaded it 1057 days ago and found the Talking Sober forum and asked for HELP!
I’m especially grateful for gratitude and this thread and all who have and still do continue to share their gratitude here.
I’m grateful for Tom W, who restored me to sanity yesterday on my walk. I’m grateful for humor, music, and nature.
To the world you may be one person but to one person you may be the world.
Bill W.
My sobriety, 207 whole days free from weed and alcohol
My mom, she is so sweet and caring and loving. Shes the best.
My dad, hes good too.
My siblings and their families
My hubby and his sweet heart. He came home from work with birthday toys for boscoe and a card and flowers for me.
Hubby joining me on this sober journey
Boscoe and his morning cuddles
Feelings are temporary
Coffee
Everyones love and support here
AA fellowship
Hoping to catch a meeting later today.
Today I’m grateful for Me! I’m proud that even though I told myself that I would give myself permission to sit out the Turkey Trot 10k if I didn’t feel up to it (and even though I laid in bed and considered it til the very last second) I got up and did it. I didn’t go my fastest, and I think like 50% of the reason I got out of bed was because I had the presence of mind to set the programmable coffeemaker the night before, but that’s ok.
I’m grateful for my SO and my dog, and the little cozy home and family we’ve built. I don’t know where I’d be without him, but chances are it wouldn’t be good. I guess who knows, but more importantly, who cares? I’m happy and grateful and loved.
I’m grateful for my extended family, and the laughter, support and love we all share. They’re caring and giving, clever and silly. I’m grateful for their love and influence over all the years of my life.
I’m grateful for my friends, who I’ve known now for over half my life and are like sisters to me. If I struggled I could call them and they would drop everything to help, and would accept and support me throughout. Engaging in sobriety I never feared that they would suddenly find me boring, or judge me, and of course they never even questioned it. They love me for who I am, and I love them.
I’m so so lucky that my years and years of alcoholism didn’t take more from me than they have. There is so much I could have lost that by some miracle I haven’t, and I am beyond grateful to be sober now.
I am grateful for homeschooling, the teachers who support us, & the government funding we recieve to enhance kiddos learning. I am grateful that my child is driven and determined. I am grateful that she acknowledges and asks for help when she needs it. I am grateful that she is not going to try to tackle trigonometry and calculus solely through online video lessons and has requested a tutor. I am grateful that although she holds an A in math she is humble and willing to learn with less stress. I am grateful I did something right with my life in the way that I have parented my child.
I am grateful to have been able to go to two out of town meeting this week and that I get to go to my homegroup tonight too. I am grateful for all of the cleantime I have seen people collect over this last week it continues to give me hope. We have lost quite a few members in our area lately to relapse and OD, it is a terrible time. Seeing people taking those 30,60,90 day tags brings me to tears I remember how hard I had to fight to get those days. I am grateful I havent forgotten.
I am grateful for my sponsor and that she chooses herself first. She is such a solid role model for me, a silent one, one that speaks in actions not words. I am grateful that I am open to learning through subtle teachings today, that I dont need to be smashed over the head with a cast iron pan anymore.
I am grateful for the vastness of the ocean, the universe and me. Limitless. I am grateful I have moved from knowing this to feeling it. I can collapse into it today and I am grateful for that.
I’m so so grateful to be sober, I love it. I’m so much happier and relaxed. I sleep so much better. I don’t look like shit each morning. I can meet people’s eye, not avoid them. So grateful.
I’m grateful I made myself change my mindset this morning. I am grateful that I work for myself. That I set my own hours. I’m grateful I’m busy and have more than enough clients. I’m grateful I had a good day today.
I wanted to wuickly jump on here as I really just need to be reminded of what im grateful for today. So today I am grateful for:
Grateful for being uniquely me. That even though i at times compare myself to others (particulary a friend of mine), i am grateful that I am the person I am today
Grateful for the lunch invite that we have tmrw. Im excited to see her and i cant wait to see her expression when she sees the gift I made her
Grateful for my motivation to get up early for the gym
Obviously grateful for my recovery and being able to work thru emotion instead of feeling like I need to use over it
Grateful for our health… this has been a huge source of anxiety for me lately. Im grateful that im aware of the negative effects this thinking/anxiety has on me and just need to now do something about it lol
I am grateful to have made it this far, so many of my precious family members have not made the journey for one reason or the other the last few years. I seem to reflect more on their loss when we loose another.
I am grateful to know i dont have to get lost in self pity but rather i can experience the loss for what it is, let it pass through me, feel it and let it go.
Im grateful that in my infancy in sobriety this is getting easier to acknowledge and accept.
Im grateful our family gathering today was a sober one.
Im grateful that today i am able to ( at some point ) step back and see what it is in ME that needs adjusting and not always look for someone else to change to suit what i want.
Im grateful to be going to bed sober tonight.
I’m grateful for my friends and how lucky I am to have surrounded myself with good humans.
I’ m grateful for strangers, long talks, and constant reminders of people who do so much good in the world.
I’m grateful I’ve been able to swim so late into the year. That I slowly acclimated myself to the cold water. That it wakes me up and helps me feel calm & peaceful.
I’m grateful for a job I love. Tired legs. A full belly.
I’m really grateful for the little things today. A pretty sunset. Christmas lights starting to go up. Lots of hugs. A warm home. Phone calls with family. Peace with family That I can allow myself to cry missing my gramps. He passed away about two weeks ago at 96.
I’m grateful for hot tea, happy faces, fuzzy socks.
I’m grateful for gravy
I’m grateful that I have so many new, wonderful people that are suddenly entering my life.
I’m grateful for my life, all the blessings I’ve been given in it, and that I get to wake up every day and keep creating it.
I’m grateful for so much more I could go on but I will leave it at that for now.
I am grateful I slept well.
I am grateful to be sober.
I am grateful I live in this house. I failed stupidly to format my new external drive yesterday and found help almost immediately. So fingers crossed I can safe some data from my laptop.
I am grateful today is off.
I am grateful I have enough.
I’m grateful that is kind of a lie. I’m grateful the only stress this Thanksgiving is what I would create.
That I can allow myself to cry missing my gramps. He passed away about two weeks ago at 96.