Merry Christmas Eve to all who celebrate and peace to everyone
It’s Saturday and I’m grateful to be with my husband and dogs in this beautiful and mostly warm house on Tybee Island in Georgia. It is unseasonably cold and windy here. However it is also sunny, and being from Wisconsin, we just bundled up in our parkas and walked in the sunshine on the beach. Just a couple of sober middle aged folks not hitting the bars or the liquor store.
I’m grateful for the excellent seafood we have purchased and the fun kitchen of the rental house so we can cook delicious food for ourselves.
I’m grateful for the big claw foot tub in this house and the bubble bath I purchased for some warm water relaxation later today.
I’m grateful that this old house has big comfortable beds and lots of quilts for us to snuggle in.
I’m grateful for the variety of teas and coffee and hot chocolate and sparkling water that I keep sipping all day and into the night.
I’m grateful for my kindle and the excellent wifi here. I can read library books to my hearts content and most likely will watch a movie soon too.
I’m grateful for the connection to this community and the habits of writing and reflecting that I e found here. If it weren’t for this daily reading and thinking, I’m very confident that I would not be at 421 days sober today. I would have justified myself back into the bottle many times by now and wondered why I couldn’t control myself. Daily reading here helps me understand and stay committed to my choice to be sober. Every single day I want to drink and every single day I use strategies I have learned here to make the right choice.
I’m grateful for my happy marriage. The hubby and I took a big risk in getting married, each for the second time, while we had so many unresolved issues and addiction to alcohol. But we have held hands and found our way here. We have 17 years together and now we are sober and are enjoying ourselves together in ways we would not have anticipated a few years ago.
I’m grateful for good health. Next month I will be 58 years old and am able to do most anything I want like long walks, long swims, good bike rides, gardening and camping. Becoming sober has improved my blood pressure and anxiety and allowed me to take up more exercise.
I’m grateful to live in a safe and loving home with good relationships with my family. That has not always been my life, so I am extra grateful.
I’m grateful for time off from a job I mostly enjoy.
I’m grateful for the opportunity I’ve created for myself by simplifying my life and being able to live in less money. This has brought me freedom. There is nothing sweeter than time. And a certain amount of security.
I’m grateful to have had the courage to determine that I need this time of year to be relaxing and free of stress. It’s not easy to establish boundaries about holidays with family members who have chosen to be oblivious to what my anxiety is like at this time of year. To be away from family at this time helps me enjoy them well at other times of year. It took a long time to get here and I’m grateful that I survived the journey from the chaos and abuse that was the Christmas of my childhood to the chaos and pressure of my young motherhood to the peace and quiet of this middle aged time.
I’m grateful to be in love with my husband.
I’m grateful for the love of my grown sons.
I’m grateful for the loving relationships I have with my siblings.
I’m grateful for the work that my mother and I have done to get to better places.
I’m grateful for my best friend, my person who has stood by me now for over 20 years of lots of change and challenge.
I’m grateful to be getting to the point in life where I may be wiser than I used to be.
I wish you all peace. If you are celebrating your sobriety with confidence, well then congratulations and best wishes. If you are struggling right now in these holiday times, with all the pressure and anxiety that can arise, I hope you can find moments of peace and breathe through them. You deserve peace and health. Keep fighting for your life. I wish you the best.