You’ve probably already said, but where are you going on vacation? It’s always fun to have a trip planned. You deserve it!
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Good morning friends! I’m grateful today to rise early and clearheaded and not hungover! I’m not sure how everyone is sleeping through what sounds like a puppy stampede when the house is quiet, but I’m glad they’re all getting their zzzzs and that I get time alone to get my engine warmed up and ready for people. I’m grateful the downy woodpecker reminded me to refil my bird feeders today–fingers crossed the janky old e-collar I put on the feeder as a makeshift squirrel baffle works lol. I’m grateful the dream I had last night that I just remembered in which I was hanging out somewhere drinking beer was just a dream, and I’m grateful that at some point dream Jenny realized with dismay that this was a relapse and she would have to reset her timer and start again. I mean, it’s gotta be a sign of progress if my unconscious dream self is sober even if there’s a relapse right? That’s what I’m going with. I’m grateful for you all, too. High fives all around! Let’s get after this day and bend it to our will!
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Good morning Karen
So sorry that you are not sleeping well these days and in pain. I know how hard it is to find things to be grateful for when you are feeling like shit. Good on you to still dig deep and make your list. I do hope you start to feel better soon - congrats on being another day sober 
sending healing vibes
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I’m grateful I started my morning off going back to the day 3 Mantra challenge.
Ra Ma Da Sa, Sa Say So Hung
I’m grateful I still have that mantra in my head after a lovely morning walk with the dogs.
I’m grateful I did not go to a new meeting last night. Wifey had 2 glasses with lunch. We agreed I’d stay home. She wouldn’t drink anymore. And we’d have dinner and watch a movie. I’m grateful it felt right. I’m grateful we enjoyed ourselves. I’m grateful no one passed out. I’m grateful in her mind she is trying. I’m grateful I am going to a new meeting today at 1 and she plans on having 2 glasses with dinner. I’m just grateful I’m free of fighting to control my addiction. I’m grateful I see how exhausting it is just watching her battle and loose her fight. I’m grateful I feel. And truthfully, I just got to believe, we are both doing the best we can.
I’m grateful Benson was on my lap for the mantra this morning. I’m grateful Alice joined us. I’m grateful Mavy checked us out and decided there was no more room. I’m grateful when they both left Mavy got his turn on me.
I’m grateful I see B washing up on her condo in the sun. I’m grateful Minnie is hanging in there. It’s breaking my heart watching her.
MINNIE 
I’m grateful Minnie just christened the carpet I grateful it’s ok and I’m taking the blame. I can’t believe she did that right as I was writing about her. I’m grateful she seems all relaxed now and maybe she can settle down. I’m grateful after her walk and snacks in the morning I guess we will let her out for another whizzy. I’m grateful to be sober with my old dog girl. I’m grateful we almost made it a month without anyone whizzing on the new carpet. I’m grateful it was Minnie.
I’m grateful I’m pretty much all set for our trip. I’m grateful I’m a guy. Black slacks and a couple of dress shirts and a black jacket and I’m good to go, for those dressy occasions.
I’m grateful I was able to get an appointment with my doc when we get back and we can talk about why she still thinks I’m a “high risk,” and she wants me on statins, even though I fucking aced my bloodwork. I thought I was going to get a gold 
since I got my cholesterol numbers down real good. I’m grateful I don’t have to think about it or google it anymore. And especially grateful I won’t be obsessing about it.
I’m grateful we’ll be getting some typical British weather for our trip. I’m grateful I wouldn’t expect anything less. Grateful for my travels. Grateful Minnie is curled up on the landing resting comfortably.
Did you know? By writing down the things you are grateful for… you start looking for more things to be grateful for
ZenSational Living
So true
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Good morning Jenny
Yes - i believe its progress when your unconscious mind knows you are in recovery! High fives back at ya
Your mention about your bird feeder and squirrel issue reminded me of the attached video – watch if you have a moment (it’s long but i found it very entertaining and also now am very impressed with squirrels.
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We surprised my mom for her 70th with an all expense paid girls trip. It’ll be my mom, sister, aunt, cousin, and me. We are flying into phoenix, renting a car, spending the weekend in sedona, then 4 days in the grand canyon! Lots of fun planned
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Ooh that sounds lovely – glad you are able to get in such a beautiful girls trip.
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I’m grateful to past me who took the time and effort to paint the office walls with three shades of paint. Even though it’s been several years, I still enjoy the subtle depth it gives to the room. It may seem like a small thing, but I’m deeply affected by my environment so it’s something that adds a calming element. The sense of accomplishment I feel for what I’ve done myself lingers and acts as a subtle moon lifter as well. I can look at what I’ve done and see how I’ve improved in that craft over the years and find motivation in the areas I can see needs improvement. I’m grateful I own my home and can do what I wish, and that I’m not subject to the prohibitive rules on modifications that tend to exist when renting.
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Im grateful this morning to wake up and be able to reflect on a full week of giving 100%, my all, every day of the week. Im grateful that the last few months of hard work are really showing their fruits. Im grateful that in ths midst of the car troubles, the frustrations at work, stepping down from the promotion, my dad in and out of the ICU, all the things that felt like tests to see if i was going to stick it out - they helped me to grow, it helped me get stronger. Week after week of just doing the next right thing out of faith and out of hope that things would be ok…and they are. Im beyond grateful for meditation. Im grateful for the calm it has given me, for the ability to get to know myself from the center, me, the being of Darcy. Im grateful to learn what magnificent creatures we all truly are, in our core. Im grateful to be stripping away and unlearning all the extra unnecessary layers and baggage that do not serve me anymore. Im grateful that i finally caught a glimpse of what it feels like to be gentle, kind, and loving to myself. Im grateful its really not so difficult, but really just a switch in perspective. Wow am i grateful for perspective flexibility! Grateful that a paradigm shift can so swiftly and certainly make my life so much richer, so much more enjoyable. I am grateful to have started this second year into recovery looking inward, i am grateful to be able to see all the compatrments that i have tucked inside, grateful that im allowing myself to rearrange what is not working and attempt to get rid of a few compartments. Grateful i still have to figure out how to loosen my grip on a few of them, grateful i will be gentle about it.
Grateful to wake up with my sweet girls right next to me. Grateful i missed them so much this week. It was just me in this room all week and i am grateful i used the time wisely and got so much accomplished. I am so grateful for their love and graciousness. Im grateful that all my attention can now go towards finding us an apartment, grateful that we will all three be together, full time in the near future.
I am grateful that my recovery is affording me the opportunity to HEAL, to learn what health feels like, to learn what true love feels like, to learn how to feel all the feelings that come in the course of a lifetime, and be ok. Feelings are just messengers. Theyre not good or bad, theyre just trying to tell me something.
Grateful to not shoot; numb, or avoid the messengers anymore. They have valuable information!
Much love to you all.
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That sounds amazing!
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Hi friends. I’m grateful for my family. I’m grateful my kids are thoughtful. I’m grateful for my best friend. I’m grateful I got to know her mom before she passed away this morning. I’m grateful I am sober. I’m grateful I have a tool box to use during hard times.
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I’m sorry for your loss. I’m glad to read you are not feeling the need to use.
You are on my mind. Peace!
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“In the before times”…. I like that phrase and will use it in some journaling. Thank you.
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Today I’m grateful for another day finished. Shopping, chores, eating, taking meds, snuggling cats. Everything accomplished. I’m grateful I rest when I need it, I need a lot of rest. I’m grateful I cried all evening and I’m grateful it’s only fucking bullshit hormones because I got my needless fucking periode again. And all the blabla missing … lonely … misty-eyed memory … ex … good times … blabla emotion cocktail. I’m grateful I recognize it as what it is: emotional hormon-induced brainfuck. So I’m grateful for one minute at a time. I’m grateful for the codepenent check-question: Is what you do /want to do rooted in your love for someone or to get love from someone? If it’s latter: Skip it, no good comes from this intension. At least not for me. So I’m grateful I did not reach out to my ex today. Sometimes I think this inner battle will never end.
I’m grateful the coughing is a bit better now and I hope it stays this way. I’m exhausted. I’m grateful for my cozy bed 
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Grateful I’m on a week long trip to visit my family and friends.
Grateful my experiences with my sister and her family are different now that I don’t drink anymore.
Grateful that “different” does not mean “less than” - I just had a few amazing days, I was all there, fully present. Still am. The entire time. What a wonderful, wonderful thing this is. Even when you say the wrong thing. Even when it is a bit uncomfortable. The good moments are so much better, brighter, and what’s amazing is I’ll remember them all!
Grateful for my extended family.
Grateful to be cozy in bed, happily tired and ready to sleep. No need for anything to help me
doze off.
Grateful for these little miracles in my life.
Much love to you all
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Not a small thing at all – whatever can give you such calm especially is an office space is huge!!
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Both of you are doing the best you can, we always do. I am so grateful that you are finding some freedom through mantra. Some connection to yourself, to the universe… You know things just fall into place when they are meant for us, when we are ready; divine timing. I am grateful you were ready.
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Im sorry for your loss. I know my best friends mom was like my 2nd mom. Greatful that you do have the tools at your disposal to deal with this 
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I have a lot to be grateful for.
7 years ago I was a mess, I was so full of self hate I could barely breathe. I am being quite literal when I say that, my anxiety was so bad. I was experiencing panic attack after panic attack and all I wanted to do was die. Alcohol was my solution to that, and so was self injuring. Self injuring kept me from killing myself, and the alcohol, well it had just gotten to the point where I had to drink as soon as I opened my eyes to get through my days. My daughter has a lot of trauma from those days, finding me locked behind the bathroom door only to come out wrapped in bloody gauze. To this day she wont leave me alone if I am emotional, nor does she like me to shut the bathroom door if I am in there.
So where is all the gratitude… well I dont really know where to start.
Firstly I am grateful that my mom noticed the cuts on my leg that one day we were sitting outside, it gave me the opportunity to say to her," I am really fucked up mom.“, she had no idea. I guess I am grateful that I am so good at hiding my emotions too because I would never have wanted anyone to know how much pain I had been feeling for all of those years. I am grateful that cutting saved my life, and that I have a body full of scars to remind me of how desperate I was when I came into recovery. I am grateful for Dialectical Behavior Therapy because even though I was still loaded when I went the first time I did manage to stop hurting myself as much as I had been and then I did get 1.5 years SH free before I slipped. I am grateful that I have been able to take DBT 3 times now and that every time I learn more and the skills seem to stick better. I am grateful for the people who have known me through all the super dark years that I was harming, who would patch me up and take me to the Dr. I am grateful for my ex husband who never left us, he sacrificed so much to make sure that we were safe… from me. I am grateful that the hours turned into days and the days into months and those months turned into years, so that today I became 2 years free of self injuring. I cant believe it if I am being honest, it’s been the hardest thing to over come. I slipped when I was about 9 months clean from substances and when I did that just felt wrong. I am grateful that the saying " it’s hard to have a belly full of booze and a head full of recovery” applies to self injuring as well. I have to keep reminding myself of that feeling every time I am triggered to cut, every time my head tells me that it’s the only thing that will take “said pain” away. I am grateful for the big test that the universe gave me recently, a test on equanimity. I am grateful to have had the chance to practice the principle on my child. I am grateful I did not fall into the callings of my old pains, and they were calling very, very loud. I am grateful that I can share here with an open heart when I am in trouble and I feel safe and supported. I am grateful that my sponsee is picking me up for a meeting tonight although I really wanted to self isolate. I am grateful I live in God’s will today.
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First of all 
your post made me sad at first but then happy to know you are no longer in that place.
I am so happy for your accomplishments and in awe of your strength 
. Keep fighting the battke odaat…i appreciate your share. Thank you
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