That’s true Jazzy. I am not the same person. I am not the same person I was when they last saw me.
I am in the crucible now.
I am laying my head on my pillow sober tonight
6 Likes
Grateful for waking up clear minded and rested, rather than coming to and feeling like crap.
Grateful for the awesome time we had at our family reunion yesterday, despite not seeing my sisters. Crowdstrike’s debacle caused all their flights to be cancelled on Friday. Grateful to see cousins, aunts and uncles I haven’t seen in many moons.
Grateful it turned into a girls trip. Hubby woke up with a headache, extreme dizziness and nausea, and took a trip to urgent care instead. Turns out he has an ear infection and will be just fine.
Grateful it was an uneventful trip there and back (4 hrs each way). Grateful I decided to rent a car instead of chancing it with my old jalopy.
Grateful I pumped my own gas without any problems. I know this isn’t a big deal for most but it’s an extremely rare occurrence for me, living in the only state that bans self service. My lil cheerleader tells me “great job, Mom! I knew you could do it.” I gigled and told her I didn’t have a choice. The tank was almost empty and we were deep in the woods of upstate NY, not a soul in sight. That’s not true, there was a lil store with a man behind the counter. I could have humbled myself and asked for help, but I was determined.
Grateful I didn’t let anxiety take over when I found out my daughter’s aide quit. Friday was her last day. The commute is too much for her. Grateful my daughter took it well and they will remain in contact. Back to the drawing board and hopefully the agency will find someone much closer.
Grateful for the beautiful sunny day expected today. Plan is to take my daughter to the pool and relax.
Grateful for every single person on TS helping to keep me sober another day.
10 Likes
Greatful for sundays that no longer go wasted
Morning sober fam,
Im greatful i woke early when i got tired of work dreams
Im greatful i had an active day yesterday but the scale didnt budge
Im greatful Boscoe and i have cuddles in the morning
Im greatful we have a reprieve from the heat
Im greatful i get to go to our family reunion this year
Im greatful for my recovery
Im greatful i have solid moments of letting go and letting god
Moments of peace
Love
Live music
Sun
Water
Clean air
8 Likes
Glad that you enjoyed your family reunion and sorry that your sisters were unable to make it.
Sorry your daughters aide quit – sending luck that you will be able to find a good replacement soon. 
Sending healing vibes too for your hubby. Ear infections can be so awful to deal with.
PS. Way to go with the self pump 
Look at you - i remember last year it being a anxious time for you. Now you are pumping away like a pro 
4 Likes
Thanks Jazzy! It’s funny you remember that. In the past, I did everything in my power to avoid getting gas out of state. I’d fill up at the state line leaving and pray I’d make it back. Crazy for someone who’s been driving for 30 years. I think I’m finally growing up. 
5 Likes
Lol – Do keep some of that child like innocence as growing up is not all its cracked up to be.
Last year was the first time i’d ever heard of such a law. I had to ask my cousins in Jersey about it after having read your post. Think its just stuck in my head now.
4 Likes
Oregon also doesn’t let you pump your own gas, so everytime I’m up there I full er up because even though I’ve done it all my life here in CA, I still hate it 
4 Likes
It’s good to know I’m not alone in the “hate to pump gas” world. If you and I took a road trip together, we’d have to limit our adventures to Oregon or Jersey.
4 Likes
I’m grateful to have a really good friend who offered to help me pay for online counseling. Is really difficult for me to say yes to and allow someone to help that way but I am grateful she cares enough to want to help. I’m grateful for a good hike today with my friend. I’m grateful for a tasty and healthy meal for dinner. I’m grateful for cardomon tea and lemon meringue pie.
11 Likes
Grateful:
Great food producers at the farmers market, and the opportunity to talk to those passionate about provenance and quality and ecosystems.
People trying to make the world safe
Coffee
Water
A nap at dawn after a poor sleep
Breathing class for emotional release, amazing
Yoga Nidra meditation
Not having to cook tonight… My better half is treating me to a cooked meal
10 Likes
Today I am especially grateful for:
- my morning run
- an extremely lazy day
- the wind rustling in the crowns of the trees
- less heat, more fresh air
- a nice chat with my mum
- great and entertaining reads
- seeing my patterns of avoidance
- seeing my patterns of trying to manage emotional states
- seeing my patterns of ‚fixing‘ discomfort
- seeing my patterns of preemptive plans so as not to get uncomfortable in the future
- seeing the endless train of patterns, on patterns, on patterns
- staying in the midst of all that
- sadness, letting go of fixed ideas about myself, about others
- relaxing into the unknown, unfixable, unstable
- this bountiful life full of potential of every single moment
- this day
Sleep tight sober friends 
12 Likes
Too much to catch up here.
Today I’m grateful for leftovers, especially soup. I’m grateful for service on TV, for breakfast on the couch with cats, for a restful, sleepy day. I needed it, there was disco boom bäng music until 3 a.m. on the next hill. I’m grateful this doesn’t happen often. I’m grateful my coping skills worked. Such situations stress me a lot and I feel helpless. Especially when such loud festivities have municipal permit to annoy everybody around. Fuck loud music, people and loud noise in general.
I’m grateful I cuddle under the blanket, maybe I caught a cold, had a runny nose all day. The night was cool, maybe I didn’t notice it and slept without blanket. I’m grateful I have vitamin supplement at home. I’m grateful for the fluffy socks a fried knitted for me years ago.
I’m grateful for a long talk on the phone with my youngest sister from chosen family. These talks are precious as she is occupied with 2 toddlers, family, house, garden, 2 dogs and work.
I’m grateful feeling lonely and missing my ex today will pass. It’s a symptom of little sleep, stress and feeling unwell, maybe getting sick. I’m grateful I can identify symptoms and don’t confuse them with my needs anymore. This is huge 
I’m grateful HALT always helps me. After a good meal, lots to drink, especially my favourite tonic water, catcuddles and a warm shower I felt a lot better. I’m grateful I don’t need much and have enough.
I’m grateful the neighbours will take care of the cats while I’m away for 3 days next week! I’m grateful I asked for help. It’s still difficult and I’m grateful I get better in asking for help
I’m grateful I’m to bed early. ODAAT
13 Likes
I’m grateful that yesterday was a true day of rest. I finished two books and started another and ate granola in bed pretty much all day.
I’m grateful for sunshine today and a long walk with a friend.
I’m grateful for an upcoming vacation next weekend, I think my body was in preserve energy mode yesterday in anticipation. 
I’m grateful for clean water to drink and warm water for showers.
I’m grateful I will never run out of books to read, places to walk or people to talk to. Or kitties to pet.
I’m grateful I’m sober.
14 Likes
I am truly grateful for over 200 days of sobriety. I’m grateful for a good walk in the sunshine this afternoon. I’m grateful for a nice home-made dinner that I went to the effort to cook.
12 Likes
Congratulations on your 200 days spidey!
That’s how it’s done.
ODAAT
8 Likes
I love yall and I be praying for this community everyday.
Goodnight sober fam. Grateful for you
14 Likes
Grateful for my sobriety. Grateful I have a beautiful home Grateful to have a husband who works so hard to provide the life I am living. Grateful with the life I am living I can tackle the sober journey and appear to be flourishing.
13 Likes
Grateful I found ts last week Grateful to be attending my first AA meeting in three year’s tomorrow Grateful a lady who knew back then wants to get me there ,grateful I’ve been able to be of service to the people who needed my help today, grateful for my warm bed, food and being able to eat properly today ,im grateful I didn’t have to act on any of my addiction s so I can feel the gratitude in all these things today, im grateful to have the courage to have written my first gratitude list
16 Likes
Welcome Corine.
I’m glad you found us too.
Gratitude is one of my strongest tools here on TS that keeps me sober.
I hope to see you around.
I hope the meeting goes well.
10 Likes
I am grateful I found this app, the timers that don’t lie and the social reassurance I created by having the people I love know how many days I am on. Otherwise I would have probably relapsed by now. Also greatful for my parents in law and that I found cold showers/ ice beathing as the best Methode so far for me to destroy my craving-procrastination spirals.
13 Likes