Good morning fam-dam.
I am grateful that I quit smoking 17 years ago COVID must suck for smokers.
I am grateful for the reminder of smoking certain drugs and how they made my lungs ache. It’s been 20 + years since I have done those drugs I had forgotten the feeling. I am grateful I got COVID.
I am grateful to have made it to watch the sunrise this morning. I am feeling like shit but I know what I need to do to keep my spirit alive. Grateful for the herons who entertained me while the sun played shy.
I am grateful for self awareness and the knowledge I have of addiction. I know what is happening in my head as my thoughts start to become negative and self defeating. I can sit back and watch like a spectator at a boxing match or a parent watching their toddler have a fit. I am grateful that I know why my addict is bucking; disconnection and isolation are their two favorite things. I can see my addict fighting to surface and grab at silly stuff while my wisdom keeps me calm.
I am grateful for meditation, books and silence.